Venting ...its a mess and SI

[stackers]

I've pushed everyone away in the past 12 months. I've got no friends left and everyone hates me . I have 3 children and we are currently homeless living with my mum.

I'm not sure how long I can go on for . I don't want to leave my kids and my Mum but I've made an awful mess of my life and I really can't see a way out .

Everytime I even research a method my SI kicks in and I feel sick .

Don't know why I'm even posting this lol just needed to get it off my chest and I hope that some kind souls on here would perhaps want to be friends with a loser like me hahaha.

If you've taken the time to read this ....thanks xx

 

[AllMyDreams]

I hope with time you can learn to be more gentle with yourself. You are where you are in large part because of your genetics and upbringing, neither of which you control. But you can still do the best you can with what you have.

We're all conditioned to care what other people think, and if we don't live up to them we're "losers". That's the biggest scam out there.

 

[iloverachel]

I am so sorry what you are going through sounds awful

I would love to be your friend

 

[stackers]

Awww thankyou . How are you

I hope with time you can learn to be more gentle with yourself. You are where you are in large part because of your genetics and upbringing, neither of which you control. But you can still do the best you can with what you have.

We're all conditioned to care what other people think, and if we don't live up to them we're "losers". That's the biggest scam out there.

Thanks for your lovely words . They are appreciated so much

I hope with time you can learn to be more gentle with yourself. You are where you are in large part because of your genetics and upbringing, neither of which you control. But you can still do the best you can with what you have.

We're all conditioned to care what other people think, and if we don't live up to them we're "losers". That's the biggest scam out there.

Thanks for your lovely words . They are appreciated so much