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celestialstarzz

celestialstarzz

Member
Jan 1, 2025
34
Once I got my SN i stopped having a will to live tbh. Like I know I'm going to ctb one day so it feels stupid to waste my time living life or doing anything. Like why don't I just be proactive about it and do it already? All I'm waiting on at this point is one person to leave me. I'm not exactly getting a lot out of being here
 
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idontknowwhatiam

Arcanist
Sep 10, 2025
418
Once I got my SN i stopped having a will to live tbh. Like I know I'm going to ctb one day so it feels stupid to waste my time living life or doing anything. Like why don't I just be proactive about it and do it already? All I'm waiting on at this point is one person to leave me. I'm not exactly getting a lot out of being here
If I had sn I'd drink it tonight lol
 
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celestialstarzz

celestialstarzz

Member
Jan 1, 2025
34
I want to make sure the timings right. I want my intention to be very clear with it, if that makes sense. I don't want to go until everything's in order.
 
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fedup1982

Wizard
Jul 17, 2025
604
There are so many mental mechanisms that keep us here. Fear of all the possible consequences for ourselves and others, as well as lower level drives that won't make much logical sense because they're automatic responses rather than planned.

My opinion is that because suicide is so risky, it's not something that should be done impulsively. So feel free to take your time. Maybe in your remaining time here you'll still experience good moments that justify hanging on just a little bit longer. Your SN isn't going anywhere, you can choose to take it at any time.
 

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