Twitchy and peaceful at the same time

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there are two voices conversing
in my head
both male and referring to me as
the subject

i don't know what it means
it popped into my head
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who holds claim
to nowhere
past the brassfoot thrones
beyond the gardens abounding with
waste and broken hoes
it's point of concern
a wondering a wander

there's a dismissal there
a thing of contempt
the eye of the beholder be damned
the pittance offered in payment
of a life ridiculed and tested
a toy

sing for me sweetness
tell me the all of it
the fables and foibles
your feotid breathing
at the base of my cock
my fortune gaping and spent

i will see you, be certain of that,
and raise you a soul
of middling repute
you are, after all, a fool
the prize is yours most deservedly
nothing in the law of the giving
required it to be mine

 

[Deleted member 23374]

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couldn't find a poem

 

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3 dollar random thought

... drama is the lowest form
of humour...

nah, that one's a floater
but, it's not technically the
appropriate color
so i want it to stick around
naturally

just being
environmentally conscious.

 

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a sense too late
yet satisfying
through the bile
and the burbling

and enough with the poetic shit.
My dear beloved family is finally starting to see
what i was warning them about, too late but,
an improvement.

on with the poetic shit
see past the reflection
to the gleam in the eye
of the snake

my queendom for
a flaming sword
a nice thought, modern
with lessons to teach
and all i got was
this sharpened spade
which i wisely
keep in reach

 

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guts are twisted again
fucking ravenous the last two days
ripping sensation in my side
i want a goddamned cheeseburger

the short form is tiring
but i'm stuck
it's the same real estate
the signs are there
and me without a match

there's a special tree in the hills where i live
the "stump" is almost flush with the ground
and it has three trunks extending from it
oak

i stood in the middle of it about 20 years ago
and freaked

if i have the energy when the time comes
that's where i'll make my exit
i would like it to be there

my more aggressive inner lunatic loves
the idea of stalking those woods up to
the very twilight of our star system
i want to be here to see everything
actually burn

mostly i just want to fuck with people
passing through
that thought makes me so happy

i have to be serious though
and settle on what i want to take with me
and what i want to do if i'm right
if i can, i will

red 27

 

[Deleted member 23374]

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talk to someone else
about your life line
all i see is the stink
that animates the mirage

you are no oasis
your honest assessment
is all broken mirror
using your own kin as tools
once too often

they know now
why i slap you away
be joyful though
you are unique

the only being in this world
unworthy, unholy enough
to clasp
my cold dead hand

i have a few thoughts on that
madness, maybe
ever increasing and crushing
isolation

something more insidious
reaching into the eldritch
has a nice tone

like seeing youself
looking at yourself
at all points

a just and beautiful
phantom

 

[Deleted member 23374]

i have a good sense of why you actually showed up this morning
that being said, you chose, don't come back.
you're a dead memory and picking you up
would be taking on another burden.
No.
Go back to your life and stay there.

Message from the universe rejected.
I said miracle, not head game.
I have your attention though, interesting.

 

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i found a set of blades i had acquired in my 20's
i've been considering them
they have a ritual feel to them
what comes with this thought is a feeling
that some hapless traveller will interrupt me
it seems to always be that way with anything
i want to do just for me

i'm thinking if i can stand the cold
i want to do a dry run to see if i can make the walk
i'm peaceful today, zero twitch
i need to learn how to will this state
when the time comes
intention, focus, commitment
i can smell the wood now
as if it were spring

i should leave my left eye
as a message
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i wish i hadn't given away my flute =/

21 to go

 

[Deleted member 23374]

My gut is all hollow sinking today
the weight of things hitting predictably
i'm not a fan of this particular feature
i am the mind behind it

yes there are good moments
the value of that is diminished
the sea placid, absent of immediacy
miles of hard reflection
little driftwood in sight

the horizon a hard line
static lod glitchy collision mesh-mash
realizing razor certainty
immutable
lay it the the dev
let the fucker starve
i'm tired of patching

why i am hoping for a new release ?
it doesn't make sense...

re_pete_x@deministrator:~# rm -fr /*self*

 

[Deleted member 23374]

This will be my final post.

I need some time to drift.
I have my own christmas custom
and i want to give the new year a minute.

Thank you everyone for talking/putting up with me.
From here i need to walk alone.

the name i chose
pete

the name given to me
augustus

peace.

@Marquis please ban my account ? And thank you.

 

[Brackenshire]

I have truly enjoyed reading your poems. Safe travels friend.

 

[K-O]

thank you for being you. im glad to have crossed paths with you mate