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Brayu

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Sep 14, 2021
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I heard you saying that and yet I did the opposite... don't judge me I was just hating myself.

I ate more Castor Beans, that was 9 hours ago. I have severe diarrhea.

I will try to summarize step by step what happened to me, just to raise awareness:

00 hours - I ate 15 Castor Beans seeds

3 hours - nausea (I took a meto here)

4 hours - intense nausea, tachycardia, chills

5 hours - almost vomiting, came up acidic and held it, my saliva turned red (damn what fear

6-9 hours - diarrhea and sleep interspersed

I'm scared :(
 
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"Ricin has the potential to kill its subject within 36-72 hours of exposure"
"If you survive more than five days, you are likely to live."

Stay safe, buddy
 
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Sittichmutter

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Sep 16, 2021
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I heard you saying that and yet I did the opposite... don't judge me I was just hating myself.

I ate more Castor Beans, that was 9 hours ago. I have severe diarrhea.

I will try to summarize step by step what happened to me, just to raise awareness:

00 hours - I ate 15 Castor Beans seeds

3 hours - nausea (I took a shot here)

4 hours - intense nausea, tachycardia, chills

5 hours - almost vomiting, came up acidic and held it, my saliva turned red (damn what fear

6-9 hours - diarrhea and sleep interspersed

I'm scared :(
Vá para o hospital! Agora!
 
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HiImPaul

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Ricin poisoning is nasty… your body basically can't produce proteins that it needs to function. You should definitely try and seek help.
 
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Brayu

Student
Sep 14, 2021
192
"Following severe ricin poisoning, the damage done to vital organs may be permanent or have lasting effects." -CDC
Okay! i will not die i think

But thanks
 
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Angst Filled Fuck Up

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Go to the hospital man, they need to flush it out of you as fast as possible. You don't want to have this stuff hanging around in your system. Just tell them some BS as to how/why you took it if you have to, but go detox yourself.
 
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Smart No More

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I think it might be a good idea to speak with your emergency services if you can. They may be able to minimise damage done if they are alerted quickly. If you are hoping to survive then I think it's a must. Otherwise you will potentially have to live with the consequences for a long long time and the symptoms can and will add further to your future desires to harm yourself. It seems you regret this action now so be kind to your future self and get some help. I am sorry you're going through this! I hope for better for you!
 
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Brayu

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Sep 14, 2021
192
I'll update them...most of the primary symptoms (stomach) became flu (mild)... I have constipation, tachycardia (more frequent) and other precordial symptoms (more intense than before), headaches , dry throat, pain in the abdomen, especially in the kidneys. (well, it's going to be two full days so I don't think it's going to get any worse)

I'll probably survive, I'm just reporting what's happening to remain a science... Although ricin is pretty unpredictable, by the way!

I think the only thing that can end is a cardiac event (given the increased frequency of arrhythmias, it doesn't seem impossible to happen)
thinking that I intended to ingest much more than 15 (I even thought about 80, if I had access)

But I don't recommend it anyway... I had an allergic attack two days before (this must have eased the absorption as they are stomach injuries), which is why I can't go back to the hospital anytime soon.
"Ricin has the potential to kill its subject within 36-72 hours of exposure"
"If you survive more than five days, you are likely to live."

Stay safe, buddy
I don't know if my experience serves to warn about failures or even possible symptoms... You see that in the resources section I wasn't the first person to suggest beaver beans (there are even on the Wiki).

I hope it's good for something, even if it's for what not to do.
 
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darkwater

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Apr 17, 2021
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How are you feeling?
 
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rationaltake

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Sep 28, 2021
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Are you not able to get medical attention?
 
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Brayu

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Sep 14, 2021
192
How are you feeling?
Metabolism recovers, but I still feel discomfort in the kidneys and liver... And the worst part is that the shortness of breath and cardiac symptoms have worsened considerably.

The damage has already been done
Are you not able to get medical attention?
I can... but I won't surrender like this
 
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