Venting Trying to get better but there’s times I still want to kill myself in a rage.

[CrazyDiamond04]

I'm trying to recover, whatever the hell that would even look like, but there's still times I think about the future and get the desire to just say "fuck it" and end it. So much fucking pressure and stressors and shit; each day just brings more frustration and hatred. But I still can't bring myself to leave, I have orientation for a job tomorrow and I'm stressed as fuck about it. Haven't posted here often lately.

 

[1MiserableGuy]

I relate

 

[momento.mori]

I totally understand. There's a part of you that want to stay and you hope things will get better. Then there's the realization that things have been horrible for so long that you kind want to say fuck it, why keep trying?

 

[CrazyDiamond04]

I totally understand. There's a part of you that want to stay and you hope things will get better. Then there's the realization that things have been horrible for so long that you kind want to say fuck it, why keep trying?

Yeah, that's how I feel. I don't know if there's hope, I don't know if I want to kms now or what. I just don't know what to do.

 

[1MiserableGuy]

Also, your pfp is a 5 star record

 

[CrazyDiamond04]

Also, your pfp is a 5 star record

Thanks! I love beneath the remains; it's a very good album.