Help Trying to ctb now

[The Crybaby]

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Trying to ctb as soon as I can.
My dad [yes, I still live with my parents.] refuses to leave me alone as he knows what is about to happen, any help on what to say to him to make him leave? Should I wait it out? I can not take it here anymore. Thanks.

 

[Sunshine]

Is your Dad worried about you because he loves you?

 

[The Crybaby]

Is your Dad worried about you because he loves you?

Yes. I am doing this out of necessity, he is watching me because he ran out of ways to give me false hope.

 

[mehdone]

It sounds like it is not the right setting, or time.
Short of a gun, I can't think of any method that would allow that kind of watching of behavior- absolutely everything else would require time undisturbed and not found.

My apologies, but I think you are best off waiting it out.

 

[The Crybaby]

It sounds like it is not the right setting, or time.
Short of a gun, I can't think of any method that would allow that kind of watching of behavior- absolutely everything else would require time undisturbed and not found.

My apologies, but I think you are best off waiting it out.

Thank you for your honesty. I am not allowed to legally buy a gun for some years because of the peepeepoopoo gun laws where I am.

 

[Myforevercharlie]

Thank you for your honesty. I am not allowed to legally buy a gun for some years because of the peepeepoopoo gun laws where I am.

Hmm...how old are you?

 

[The Crybaby]

Hmm...how old are you?

18, the reason why is because I have been to a facility in the past 5 years. I have to wait until 5 years passes since my last facility visit, even then, no guarantees I can even get one

 

[Sunshine]

18, the reason why is because I have been to a facility in the past 5 years. I have to wait until 5 years passes since my last facility visit, even then, no guarantees I can even get one

You're very young still and your brain is not finished developing. I think it happens around 25. So there is so much potential still for things to change or happen, especially if you have people in your life who love you. Many people felt much better once they matured and found that they were able to handle the struggles they had as teenagers. But... I don't know your situation and I have no idea how much pain you might be in, so please don't take offense to my attempt at advice.

I would suggest not doing anything impulsively, this way it often goes wrong, there is regret and/or you might survive.
If you really want to do I would suggest you to plan it. There are methods such as heroin that you can source "from the streets" (ask homeless people, sex workers, friends or search online/darkweb) so to speak that guarantee a peaceful death if you have no or low tolerance. If you are afraid of needles, you can also consume it rectally I believe. Maybe knowing there is a peaceful way out like this will make you step back and think about it again?

 

[Aprilfarewell4]

You're very young still and your brain is not finished developing. I think it happens around 25. So there is so much potential still for things to change or happen, especially if you have people in your life who love you. Many people felt much better once they matured and found that they were able to handle the struggles they had as teenagers. But... I don't know your situation and I have no idea how much pain you might be in, so please don't take offense to my attempt at advice.

I would suggest not doing anything impulsively, this way it often goes wrong, there is regret and/or you might survive.
If you really want to do I would suggest you to plan it. There are methods such as heroin that you can source "from the streets" (ask homeless people, sex workers, friends or search online/darkweb) so to speak that guarantee a peaceful death if you have no or low tolerance. If you are afraid of needles, you can also consume it rectally I believe. Maybe knowing there is a peaceful way out like this will make you step back and think about it again?

Why are you on this site, how dare you

 

[Sunshine]

Why are you on this site, how dare you

This very site has a literal "recovery" area. Do you have eyes? Can you read? I respect everyones right to die and I gave suggestions about a method I believe works well and is underestimated. But I will not euphorically cheer on very young and vulnerable 18 year olds with families who care about them to immediately kill themselves as fast as possible.

 

[Esokabat]

Why are you on this site, how dare you

I think it is absolutely valid to tell an 18 year old that their brain is not yet fully developed until about age 25 and things can turn around for them if they have a supportive loving family. This is exactly what I would have wrote. Just a year ago, they would have been considered as a child. The 18 year old legal cutoff line is absolutely arbitery, especially due to the fact that the brain is still in development at this age. When I was 18, I made so many crazy ridiculous decisions that I would never make now, I also put myself into incredible danger at that age and wasn't even aware of. If someone wants to ctb is their right, but there is nothing wrong with telling someone in their late teens that they might not make the decision that they would make 10 years from now. I personally made all kinds of bad decisions in my late teens and early 20s and I put myself into mortal danger without even realizing it, that how narrow and limited my understanding of life was at that age.

 

[Aprilfarewell4]

This isn't the recovery area. No one's suggesting you cheer them on. Many people come here because their desires are not understood and they are tired of people trying to talk them out of their decision, whatever their reason may be, and that needs to be respected. No one should have to justify their decision to anyone here

 

[Esokabat]

This isn't the recovery area. No one's suggesting you cheer them on. Many people come here because their desires are not understood and they are tired of people trying to talk them out of their decision, whatever their reason may be, and that needs to be respected. No one should have to justify their decision to anyone here

You are incorrect. This site indeed has a Recovery area.

 

[Aprilfarewell4]

You are incorrect. This site indeed has a Recovery area.

Yes, the site does, but it's not here, where the OP posted.

 

[Sunshine]

This isn't the recovery area. No one's suggesting you cheer them on. Many people come here because their desires are not understood and they are tired of people trying to talk them out of their decision, whatever their reason may be, and that needs to be respected. No one should have to justify their decision to anyone here

Literally where did I say they need to justify anything to me? You are overreacting and spazzing out over the SUGGESTION that there might be hope for a very young person, without forcing them to do anything and even suggesting to them a method that is considered peaceful and deadly.

 

[Aprilfarewell4]

Literally where did I say they need to justify anything to me? You are overreacting and spazzing out over the SUGGESTION that there might be hope for a very young person, without forcing them to do anything and even suggesting to them a method that is considered peaceful and deadly.

I'm spazzing out? Hmmm ...

sorry your post has gotten derailed OP. I hope you find strength and courage for whatever you need to do.

 

[The Crybaby]

You're very young still and your brain is not finished developing. I think it happens around 25. So there is so much potential still for things to change or happen, especially if you have people in your life who love you. Many people felt much better once they matured and found that they were able to handle the struggles they had as teenagers. But... I don't know your situation and I have no idea how much pain you might be in, so please don't take offense to my attempt at advice.

I would suggest not doing anything impulsively, this way it often goes wrong, there is regret and/or you might survive.
If you really want to do I would suggest you to plan it. There are methods such as heroin that you can source "from the streets" (ask homeless people, sex workers, friends or search online/darkweb) so to speak that guarantee a peaceful death if you have no or low tolerance. If you are afraid of needles, you can also consume it rectally I believe. Maybe knowing there is a peaceful way out like this will make you step back and think about it again?

Thank you for the advice. I did end up waiting, which was the best choice. Quite impulsive of me to do that.

 

[Sunshine]

Thank you for the advice. I did end up waiting, which was the best choice. Quite impulsive of me to do that.

I'm very happy to hear!