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destro98

Member
Jul 6, 2026
18
I've been trying to CTB for months now. I'm located in the NYC area and have planned 12+ attempts, consisting of jumping or hanging, which failed mostly due to SI kicking in or bystanders getting in the way. (Guns and SN are virtually impossible for me to procure in my location.) I'm pretty desperate, and my life situation is rapidly getting worse.

Is there somewhere I could travel where it would be easier to CTB? I.e., southern US where I could easily and quickly get a gun without registering or somewhere overseas where chemicals are easy to procure or suicide is not frowned upon.

I'm willing to fly or drive anywhere at this point, to any US state or any country.
 
Jonah Byrde

Jonah Byrde

20M UK
Sep 4, 2026
110
I'm In the uk and I'll travel too Europe too get SN. It's cheaper and easier too get their and more reliable.
 
DeathSweetDeath

DeathSweetDeath

Visionary
Nov 12, 2025
2,475
SN isn't impossible to procure in your location, you've just given up on trying to find sources. Just understand that giving up on trying to find it is your choice.

Inert gas is available in every state if you don't mind learning how that method is done.

I read a thread a few days ago by someone who had flown to South Dakota to CTB. They read that there's some law that allows people to go there, use their hotel receipt as "proof of residence", get a driver's license with that proof of residence, and buy a gun with their new ID. The person who wrote the thread unfortunately went through all those steps without knowing they'd also need to provide the phone number of someone you've told that you're going there. They hadn't told anyone, and that blew their whole plan. Be advised that if you have any interest in doing that, do not take my word for it, verify by doing your own research.
 
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destro98

Member
Jul 6, 2026
18
SN isn't impossible to procure in your location, you've just given up on trying to find sources. Just understand that giving up on trying to find it is your choice.

Inert gas is available in every state if you don't mind learning how that method is done.

I read a thread a few days ago by someone who had flown to South Dakota to CTB. They read that there's some law that allows people to go there, use their hotel receipt as "proof of residence", get a driver's license with that proof of residence, and buy a gun with their new ID. The person who wrote the thread unfortunately went through all those steps without knowing they'd also need to provide the phone number of someone you've told that you're going there. They hadn't told anyone, and that blew their whole plan. Be advised that if you have any interest in doing that, do not take my word for it, verify by doing your own research.
I hadn't heard of the inert gas method, but I just looked it up now. Seems like it would take a while, with a quite a few steps, but definitely worth looking into. Thanks!
 
DeathSweetDeath

DeathSweetDeath

Visionary
Nov 12, 2025
2,475
I hadn't heard of the inert gas method, but I just looked it up now. Seems like it would take a while, with a quite a few steps, but definitely worth looking into. Thanks!

So, you never took the time to familiarize yourself with this site, no wonder you're desperate! Can't learn a thing from a book if you never bother to open it. Let's correct that now. I'll link the most important of the pinned threads, located on the main page in this part of the site, the suicide resource compilation. You're welcome.


 
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destro98

Member
Jul 6, 2026
18
So, you never took the time to familiarize yourself with this site, no wonder you're desperate! Can't learn a thing from a book if you never bother to open it. Let's correct that now. I'll link the most important of the pinned threads, located on the main page in this part of the site, the suicide resource compilation. You're welcome.


Thanks! I've gone through most of these resources, which is how I ended up trying recently (all unsuccessfully) jumping, night night, and hanging (PSH). But it looks like I missed inert gas.

And you're right re SN, I looked into MIC but got spooked about getting caught via customs or local police. My life is bad enough without legal trouble in my life.

Thanks again!
 
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DeathSweetDeath

DeathSweetDeath

Visionary
Nov 12, 2025
2,475
Thanks! I've gone through most of these resources, which is how I ended up trying recently (all unsuccessfully) jumping, night night, and hanging (PSH). But it looks like I missed inert gas.

And you're right re SN, I looked into MIC but got spooked about getting caught via customs or local police. My life is bad enough without legal trouble in my life.

Thanks again!

I understand. Inert gas is my plan A. It's all set up & ready to go whenever I am. CO is another option if you have a car or other place to do it that won't endanger anyone else. I wish you the best of luck 🍀.
 
Somewhat Suicidal

Somewhat Suicidal

surviving anhedonia ≠ living
Aug 26, 2026
472
I mean if you are gonna travel I would throw Mexico and Peru / Lima in the ring in order to obtain some N and get the most peaceful method of them all...
 

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