Train vs drown

[wetbuschaser]

I'm leaning towards jumping off bridge or just drowning normally.

I've never learned how to swim & I remember struggling to float even when I did swim in shallow water.

No one gets hurt but me. No witnesses if private. If it's jump bridge,then same issue as train. Unless I'm able to do it late at night.

My current issue is finding a spot with guaranteed isolation for long enough period of time.


On an unrelated note,I love traveling and would love visit bridges and deep water locations near San Francisco/san Jose/ bay area without a shit ton of foot traffic.

if anyone has any suggestions, please feel free to post or dm.

Train is very high risk. I'm caught pre attempt, I'm fucked Perma(psych ward + felony) If I fuck up the attempt, I'm fucked(Perma disabled/pain etc) If I succeed, it fucks up witnesses.

I did find an area where I could get to the tracks, it is through a residential area though. So I'd have to sneak in, not get spotted, and jump in front of train at right time(very high chance of being spotted if I just lay neck because it's not at a bend).

At any point anything going wrong during train would be extremely bad.

If I can't do either for some reason, I'll just cut. Plan is radial artery on wrist plus more slashes beforehand on other areas after raising my blood pressure.

Near impossible to succeed at.
Have to get over SI and actually pull off the right cut.

 

[90starve]

train jumping just sounds like such a terrifying method to me! there are so many risks with this method that i don't think i'd ever trust it. i wish you the best with whichever method you decide :)

 

[magician99]

I remember when I wanted to ctb with the train. I woke up early and waited at the train tracks, but I ultimately couldn't do it. I was afraid of the possibility of surviving with severe injuries. I'd imagine that while the train method is effective and quick, it still takes lots of courage. For what its worth, every ctb method takes courage, but I hope you understand what I'm trying to say. And to be completely honest, while there's no reason to care about what happens after you die, I didn't want to die in front of everyone in a gruesome matter. I've come to the conclusion a while ago that dying while I'm alone, is way more comfortable in my eyes. Things like hanging, drowning, etc. If you know what you're doing, it's quick and painless, and you don't have to worry about anyone finding you in time if you live alone. I'd imagine that taking sleeping pills along with alcohol and then getting in the bathub, is one of the best and easiest ways to go if you can't afford SN, etc.

 

[angel31]

If u dont want witnesses, then I would really not choose train… jumping is a rlly violent method too and I think SI would be crazy then… I would maybe send the coordinates on a delay to police or smth and tell them what they will find there, so u dont get found by some random guy hiking but by someone who knows how to deal with this… cutting is a rather low chance of success and is pretty painful, I wouldnt risk that… But I dont think any of ur methods are that good, I would incourage u to maybe continue looking but ofc I dont know ur situation so… whatever u choose to do, I wish everything works out ur way :)
Love

 

[FuneralCry]

To me it's just so inhumane how people are denied access to more peaceful suicide method options, existence is just too cruel but anyway I wish you the best with your plans, I hate how suicide is this difficult.

 

[mlcs]

If you don't want to lay neck on a track but just randomly jump in front of the train there's a posibility you survive and end up permanently disabled. It will probably kill you, but the only 100% certain way is decapitation or headbutting it at high speed, otherwise you could just lose couple of parts of your body.