Took 1 gram SN. FUCK!

[Judy Garland]

what's the point of this? gloating?

No. He was very kind in sharing his experience with us.

 

[dredd1981]

I think people can do as they please.

They can? Thanks for that little gem of wisdom

If you don't want to ctb before you're ready, don't test SN. If you want to ctb before you're ready, by all means test it.

 

[Superdeterminist]

They can? Thanks for that little gem of wisdom

If you don't want to ctb before you're ready, don't test SN. If you want to ctb before you're ready, by all means test it.

He's still here.

 

[Foresight]

I think people can do as they please.

It's just an honest warning to proceed with an understanding. Death has occured with small amounts. 2g is usually stated as the lethal amount but there are factors to consider. Do what you please with the information presented to you. Testing it on myself if I'm not prepared to ctb is not something I would do.

 

[dredd1981]

He's still here.

Are you thick? He had to go get treatment from a doctor.

 

[Sslsh]

Are you thick? He had to go get treatment from a doctor.

well i do agree it was a really stupid thing to do. but i have bpd and tend to do things on impulse without considering the consequences. not that i am justifying my actions, but thats how i am sometimes,

Does it hurt ?

no. just dizzines and then oblivion from what i feel. the other minor stuff i felt can be negated with the meds in the guide imo.

Does it hurt ?

no. just dizzines and then oblivion from what i feel. the other minor stuff i felt can be negated with the meds in the guide imo.

what's the point of this? gloating?

maybe.

 

[whatevs]

well i do agree it was a really stupid thing to do. but i have bpd and tend to do things on impulse without considering the consequences. not that i am justifying my actions, but thats how i am sometimes,

no. just dizzines and then oblivion from what i feel. the other minor stuff i felt can be negated with the meds in the guide imo.

no. just dizzines and then oblivion from what i feel. the other minor stuff i felt can be negated with the meds in the guide imo.


maybe.

Some people like to play with death. I resonate with that in part. If you're gonna kill yourself experiment a little first. And even if you weren't. It's just an interesting experience.

 

[rationaltake]

well i do agree it was a really stupid thing to do. but i have bpd and tend to do things on impulse without considering the consequences. not that i am justifying my actions, but thats how i am sometimes,

Thanks for being honest. I can understand doing something on impulse.

 

[Awkward_Fox92]

There was just a post yesterday that someone else tested it and was sick. I truly don't know why people do anything other than the blood test or the aquarium test to check it. I hope you are feeling better.

SN works that's been proven fine and time again. I don't know why people keep ingesting testing. There are other ways. Specially if its not the right time. Hope you got the help wanted OP

 

[Viafactorum]

Some people like to play with death. I resonate with that in part. If you're gonna kill yourself experiment a little first. And even if you weren't. It's just an interesting experience.

These violent delights have violent ends, And in their triumph die like fire and powder, Which as they kiss consume - Friar Laurence

SN works that's been proven fine and time again. I don't know why people keep ingesting testing. There are other ways. Specially if its not the right time. Hope you got the help wanted OP

I wouldn't blame the logic. Even if you have read thousands of pages of literature on the nature of SN exit and it's mechanism the actual experience will be very different. So taking a small dose to explore a milder version of the initial symptoms is understandable even if it is unwise.

 

[Blackrose23]

I understand why you wanted to test 1g of your SN. I sometimes get the urge to test my SN too. It's like easing oneself into the shallow end of a cold swimming pool using the stairs, rather than diving in headfirst. I get it. It's the same reason people often test their rope methods, or their nitrogen mask for a few seconds etc. We're curious as to what we are going to feel. We can read about it dozens and dozens of times, but experience is different. At any rate, thank you for recording your experience on here. Glad to know it wasn't painful. Who knows, I might try mine though I will be ready to die at that moment too. I'm really tempted to try mine now that I'm talking about it. Who knows if I will. One night I just might. But I'll ingest 2g instead of your one because if I decide to test it, I'll be ready to go then and there.

Thank you for writing this post. I don't want to encourage suicide but as someone who does feel extremely suicidal this post makes me feel less alone. I know we shouldn't test the waters but I'm scared to take the sn all at once and I've been wanting to for months. I know we shouldn't take a sip until we're are ready to CTB but I don't think I'll ever actually be ready.