Venting Too scared to die, too scared to live

[VampQueen]

Makes me physically sick thinking of suicide but at the same time it makes me sick thinking of living. Its scary thinking of what's after life, what is the aftermath of death like. I also HATE the idea of working every single fucking day of my fucking life. It's not what I want, it's not what life is supposed to be like. Working is unnatural. I don't understand how people are so content with only having 2 weeks of vacation per year, and that's even if they get the privilege to do so. Some hard-working people don't even get vacations. FUCK WORK, FUCK LIFE, FUCK DEATH. FUCKKKKK EVERYTHINGGGGGGGGG.

I feel so fucking sick to my stomach. I want to vomit. i want these violent, vile thoughts to disappear. I don't deserve these feelings. I don't want emotions. I wish i was never born. I passively wish for death and invite it into my life.

 

[UKscotty]

Yes I feel you so much, I get there often.

Emotionally its the worse isn't it.

I often wish the mind had a pause emotions button to give time to breathe.

Life can be hard but the thought of what my death will do to others scares me a lot.