Tomorrow will be my last day feeling ashamed

[Ineedtodie]

I lost my dignity and become a burden. There is so much unresolved problems but I have to exit. I need to let go of everything and kick the chair. I'm not writing any note. All I'm considering is SI and trusting my method. I have no chance taking back all these years suffering from mental disorder that lead to this degrading circumstances and no chance escaping this place where everything happened. Feeling distress everyday and having the stigma of being ill is no way to live an other day. Either death or being in daily distress with no way out. I chose death. I question how people got over SI. I think by stopping being delusional that things are not as bad as it is and how impossible to change.

 

[TAW122]

I'm sorry to hear about your suffering and I hope you will find peace in whatever you do. As for not writing a note, I can understand that as when the time comes for me, I too, don't plan on writing a note (for personal reasons as well as practical ones as I would be dead and it is not my duty or responsibility on how people react or think with respect to my (eventual and inevitable) death.).

 

[Ineedtodie]

I'm sorry to hear about your suffering and I hope you will find peace in whatever you do. As for not writing a note, I can understand that as when the time comes for me, I too, don't plan on writing a note (for personal reasons as well as practical ones as I would be dead and it is not my duty or responsibility on how people react or think with respect to my (eventual and inevitable) death.).

I wouldn't know what to write. it would be just saying the obvious. and I think it's just something delaying my decision also I don't think I have the right to say anything as I will hang myself in my parent house which is irresponsible of me and will be seen as cowardly.

 

[locked*n*loaded]

I'm sorry you're in such a dark place in your life right now. I hope that whatever you do that you can get to the peace you deserve.

 

[Praestat_Mori]

I'm sorry that life brought you there. It's so sad but I can fully understand you and your decision. May you find love, freedom and peace on the other side.

Reagrding SI, I don't know how to overcome it completly, but I think at a certain point desperation, mental pain and suffering is so unbearable that SI is not strong enough any more.

 

[FuneralCry]

Maybe many of those who managed to overcome the survival instinct were just so determined, but I envy their courage to free themselves from all the suffering that this existence brings. I hope that you find the freedom you are searching for as existence truly is so hellish, it's such a horrible world where all this endless torment exists.