Today's the day, guys

[Dani Paradox]

Pardon my ignorance, but if you seal everything before entering then how will you enter?

I wish I had a picture to show you. The entire tent is sealed, except for the little entrance in the front. I have trash bags that are draped over the entrance that are not taped yet. Once I go in with the charcoal, I will be able to tape the bags from the inside. The outer waterproof tent cover also drapes right over, along with the tarp. So basically, once inside I will seal the opening. First I will tuck the tarp under the front of the tent, then I will tape up everything with duct tape, then zip up the entrance and tape the seams from the inside.

I hope that makes sense. It would be much easier to just show you with pictures. But I couldn't get my damn phone >_< I was gonna use that phone to play music too. And talk to y'all while inside the tent... Oh well... You can't always get what you want :/ I've gotta just go at it alone and with no music.. I'll make a final goodbye right before I go inside. Wish I could talk to you guys throughout..

 

[Kim]

We didn't speak personally but I read a lot of your posts here. I'll miss you Dani. Wish you a quiet and safe journey.

 

[Schopenhauer]

You are very dedicated indeed. I hope you die in peace.

 

[Revok]

I wish you peace

 

[Duqu]

I know we've never really spoken but I know (some of) your story and wish you peace at last.

 

[Dani Paradox]

I finally finished, guys :D I can't believe it took me all day. I wish I had pictures. I made a home-made gas chamber :D Literally :D It's fool proof. Good thing I didn't try to impulsively try to do it last night lmao by the time I finished, the sun would have been up. But right now.....it's officially ready in the shed. I just have to run to the liquor store and pick up my one last final bottle, and maybe a couple snacks, and then I've got all night to hang out with you guys one final time. In about 7 hours or so I will be lighting my charcoal, and then I just have to wait for it to burn...so I'll be able to hang out on here while it's burning outside :) I've got a little while until I ctb :) Can't wait to get back and relax a bit! Doing all that was a real pain in the ass lol. Be back soon :)

 

[Schopenhauer]

Congratulations!

 

[Made4TV]

I hope it all goes exactly to your plan and you find freedom. Hugs even though I don't know you well.

 

[MachineGunDani]

They r gonna need the jaws of life to remove u lol

 

[Maravillosa]

Good luck and God bless you, Dani. Bon voyage. Peace

 

[onewayroad]

Will try to be on later to chat with you before you go. I can only imagine the relief you are feeling.

 

[Roulette]

This is impressive. Best of luck.

 

[Limbo]

Congratulations!

Is this really appropriate? Wish you best of luck whoever you are. Hope you find the peace you seek.

 

[Dani Paradox]

Okay, well, I went out to the liquor store, and I had one hell of a weird ass night that I'm not even gonna get into. I have these things happen and get in these moods where I start feeling like, "hey, maybe there's hope...I might as well try to live..." But, no, man. I came home and looked at the gas chamber that I spent all day making and got right back on the same track. I didn't spend the whole fucking day making that for nothing. I've got about four and a half hours left. It's simply time to go. Idk why I feel myself clinging onto stupid shit. Fucking survival instinct. Fuck that. Imma ctb.

 

[Aesthler]

Okay, well, I went out to the liquor store, and I had one hell of a weird ass night that I'm not even gonna get into. I have these things happen and get in these moods where I start feeling like, "hey, maybe there's hope...I might as well try to live..." But, no, man. I came home and looked at the gas chamber that I spent all day making and got right back on the same track. I didn't spend the whole fucking day making that for nothing. I've got about four and a half hours left. It's simply time to go. Idk why I feel myself clinging onto stupid shit. Fucking survival instinct. Fuck that. Imma ctb.

I do the same shit, but once the little hope I had gets crushed I feel lower than ever and ready to ctb right away. Thankfully I've got all my stuff coming in the mail so I'll be right there behind you ready to quit this existence.

 

[onewayroad]

Okay, well, I went out to the liquor store, and I had one hell of a weird ass night that I'm not even gonna get into. I have these things happen and get in these moods where I start feeling like, "hey, maybe there's hope...I might as well try to live..." But, no, man. I came home and looked at the gas chamber that I spent all day making and got right back on the same track. I didn't spend the whole fucking day making that for nothing. I've got about four and a half hours left. It's simply time to go. Idk why I feel myself clinging onto stupid shit. Fucking survival instinct. Fuck that. Imma ctb.

It's your decision and I think I can speak for everyone on here when I say we will support you no matter what you decide to do. Only you know your situation and how much you are suffering and how long you are going to suffer for so only you can decide if it is the right thing to do.

 

[Trashcan]

Good luck, Dani. You are beloved on here and may you find peace.

 

[MachineGunDani]

Just do what feels right. <3

 

[starcrossedfate]

Go easy, bro.

 

[Schopenhauer]

I know that it's trite and all, but follow your heart. It's your life, after all, and you know it better.

 

[SamK]

<3 Do what feels right, I totally agree. Much love Dani xx

 

[Lovemykids]

Have peace

 

[NOISYMIND]

Love you Dani. Safe journey :)
*BIG HUGS*

 

[BlackDragonof1989]

Thinking of you, wherever you are right now, here or no longer on this Earth *hugs*

 

[Dani Paradox]

Uh oh, man I passed out right on my bed.....(a little too early!) Slept nice! But, uh... I've got this thing sitting in my shed and I've gotta do this, lol. I just happen to wake up literally almost at the time that I've got to start the charcoal. I think I need to wake up a minute to collect my thoughts, and then just roll with it. Dad will be going to bed soon.. Hopefully I can go back to bed soon...except in that tent ;P damn, I need to wake up a bit though, holy shit, I feel like my head is missing.

 

[Dani Paradox]

Shit, guys. I made a little bit of a mistake. It's not a big deal, but I made a bit of a mistake. Mostly because I'm a drunk. When I went out earlier I meant to stop at the store down the street to pick up another roll of weather proof duct tape, and I got into some shit with a girl at the gas station.....the bitch made me forget about what I was doing, and on the way home I forgot that I was supposed to stop at that store. By the time I got home I was so drunk I fell asleep... I could totally burn this charcoal right now, except once I'm in the tent, I'm pretty sure I will run out of duct tape. Now, I could go down to the 24 hour CVS and I'll betcha they'll have duct tape, but it won't be weather proof... The whole point of that is that the CO wouldn't loosen the tape. I don't want to fuck up at the last second... Not after all this.. The only other option is waiting a little less than 4 hours and then that other store will open and I can get what I need... This is fucking me up. Then, I'd want to wait until my dad goes to work a couple hours after that because I would no longer have enough time.. I don't know what to do right now... Would regular duct tape be okay to seal the entrance?? I don't want to fuck up..... If that's not okay, I mean, the tent is already set up... Basically if I waited for him to go to work, I could just burn the charcoal and go inside my little gas chamber.. It would be during the day in the morning, but I'd be dead by the time he came home, and I still wouldn't be found for a day or two.... Not sure what to do right now... I kind of fucked up a little bit

 

[Dani Paradox]

I'm fucking tired. I want to do this now.

 

[Dani Paradox]

I think maybe I'm overthinking it. I should just go to CVS and get regular duct tape.... I'm just worried about fucking it up, that's all. I still have a little of my weather proof left, but I know it's not enough to seal that whole entrance. This is a crucial moment in the process, so I am concerned.

 

[Clover_]

Good luck and pleasant travels, it's been nice interacting with you however briefly.

 

[not-2-b-the-answer]

May you find the peace we are all looking for, :)