Discussion To those who’ve attempted in the past, why haven’t you fully gone through with it again yet?

[waterbottle3929]

Wanted to hear other people's thoughts. With the new year, hopefully I can find peace and go through with it. One of my resolutions. I don't want to live anymore years if nothing has gotten better since I was a kid.

I attempted with SN around 5-6 years ish now? Idk it's been a while.

I wasn't able to go through with it because the waiting (unfortunately didn't knock myself out with meds, very impulsive attempt since I didn't get all the necessary meds— only bare minimum) made me really anxious. I didn't have any super distressing symptoms. Only a fast heart. Ended up going to the kitchen to eat breakfast, SI kicked in, started screaming for help haha. Biggest regret of my life.

Now I'm just gathering things again. Need something for anti nausea, have the rest.

 

[justanotherbody]

September 2024, I had a gun in my mouth and couldn't pull the trigger. Nerves about being in a public space and fear that standard 9mm wouldn't be as guaranteed as I'd like. I was at a gun range, other patrons intervened, police arrived, I was taken to a hospital, then voluntarily checked into a crisis stabilization unit.

I haven't attempted again due to the fact that my only desired method is via firearm, which I neither own nor have immediate access to in my own home. I only want an off switch. No feeling ill, no ingesting anything, no pain. Just off.

 

[srilankanbeyotch]

Ive had two failed attempts. First one was in 2017 via hanging but had a change of mind. It had left some blood in my eyes idk whats it called but was scary. The second attempt was with a car in 2024. I survived with few bruises. Im going with SN for my third and hopefully my last and final attempt next week.

 

[Carryline]

I fail every attempts because had technik or I was affraid or it was a non method... I can't wait to try SN.

 

[inkmage333]

Every previous attempt was literally just ODing, which is a non-method. So now I want a method that would work for sure, but also I'm too broke for SN or almost any other working method. Also, this one thread by a mortician has kind of been scaring me off from some of the methods, so now I'm trying to figure out how I can somehow die in hospice.

 

[waterbottle3929]

September 2024, I had a gun in my mouth and couldn't pull the trigger. Nerves about being in a public space and fear that standard 9mm wouldn't be as guaranteed as I'd like. I was at a gun range, other patrons intervened, police arrived, I was taken to a hospital, then voluntarily checked into a crisis stabilization unit.

I haven't attempted again due to the fact that my only desired method is via firearm, which I neither own nor have immediate access to in my own home. I only want an off switch. No feeling ill, no ingesting anything, no pain. Just off.

How did you get access to the gun? I was also thinking about doing firearms due to my hesitation from SN but access is so difficult

Every previous attempt was literally just ODing, which is a non-method. So now I want a method that would work for sure, but also I'm too broke for SN or almost any other working method. Also, this one thread by a mortician has kind of been scaring me off from some of the methods, so now I'm trying to figure out how I can somehow die in hospice.

Thank you for sharing that thread. Very informative. Sorry, I don't have any advice for cheap SN :( wish you luck

 

[justanotherbody]

How did you get access to the gun? I was also thinking about doing firearms due to my hesitation from SN but access is so difficult

Many ranges allow you to rent guns. Requirements vary from place to place, though you typically have to be of legal age and show that you at least know how to operate the firearm you're renting. Much cheaper than buying a gun. I'm in the US, so your mileage may vary depending on your whereabouts.