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stink144

stink144

Nothing
Dec 29, 2024
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I'm planning in taking it and I want some encouragement
 
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bambibambam

bambibambam

𑄻𑄾 i’m on your side..!!
Jan 29, 2024
183
hello, i had an attempt a year ago on this same month. you can look at my profile and find my goodbye thread to get a better idea but i drank SN and was discovered while unconscious. all i can say is it varies from person to person, but in my case i suffer with severe anxiety so the time window from drinking the SN and then waiting to pass out was the most uncomfortable part for me, i wasnt in pain or anything but since i was so anxious it made my nausea a little worse but it's not unbearable pain, i've had stomach aches that used to last hours so it's not a feeling i wasnt familar with. if you suffer with anxiety then benzos are a must if you want the most comfort. i had everything else but benzos.. i would have been successful if i was not found.

edit : no one on here is going to encourage you to take your own life. that is a decision you and only YOU alone can make. all we can do is give you as much support as you need, encouraging others to CTB is frowned upon. i'm sorry for your suffering, and i hope you can confide in us. 🫂
 
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pthnrdnojvsc

pthnrdnojvsc

Extreme Pain is much worse than people know
Aug 12, 2019
3,743
hello, i had an attempt a year ago on this same month. you can look at my profile and find my goodbye thread to get a better idea but i drank SN and was discovered while unconscious. all i can say is it varies from person to person, but in my case i suffer with severe anxiety so the time window from drinking the SN and then waiting to pass out was the most uncomfortable part for me, i wasnt in pain or anything but since i was so anxious it made my nausea a little worse but it's not unbearable pain, i've had stomach aches that used to last hours so it's not a feeling i wasnt familar with. if you suffer with anxiety then benzos are a must if you want the most comfort. i had everything else but benzos.. i would have been successful if i was not found.

edit : no one on here is going to encourage you to take your own life. that is a decision you and only YOU alone can make. all we can do is give you as much support as you need, encouraging others to CTB is frowned upon. i'm sorry for your suffering, and i hope you can confide in us. 🫂
how many minutes do you estimate was "the time window from drinking the SN and then waiting to pass out"
 
bambibambam

bambibambam

𑄻𑄾 i’m on your side..!!
Jan 29, 2024
183
how many minutes do you estimate was "the time window from drinking the SN and then waiting to pass out"

it's usually 10-15 minutes, i can't exactly pinpoint the time of unconsciousness but i think it took me 18-ish minutes. i was listening to music to pass time
 
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Upon a hanging Body

Upon a hanging Body

Dead Girl Walking
Jan 5, 2025
1,096
I took SN and was found after I started having seizures. I was quickly saved and given methylene blue in the ambulance right before my blood pressure dipped .
I'd say the only painful part of the experience was the anxiety . Everything else is manageable even if you somehow survive.
 
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Confusedsoul12345

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Jan 29, 2025
67
I took SN and was found after I started having seizures. I was quickly saved and given methylene blue in the ambulance right before my blood pressure dipped .
I'd say the only painful part of the experience was the anxiety . Everything else is manageable even if you somehow survive.
How were you found? Was there anyone else there in the house or Seizures were loud enough to be heard by people outside the house?
 
Upon a hanging Body

Upon a hanging Body

Dead Girl Walking
Jan 5, 2025
1,096
How were you found? Was there anyone else there in the house or Seizures were loud enough to be heard by people outside the house?
My girlfriend at the time heard me in the other room
 
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popping_candy

popping_candy

Planning for the future
Sep 9, 2025
14
For people who experienced it, did you feel short of breath or like you couldn't get enough oxygen? Did it feel like you were going to die? That's what I'm most afraid of.

Thanks OP for posting this as I was wondering the same thing last night.
 
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Xiaojiu

Xiaojiu

Mage
Mar 28, 2025
575
Did anyone survive without the full protocol?
 
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NellyGoes

Sure.
Aug 16, 2025
155
Is there anyone alive now that can share their experience?
There was a post from someone recently… username "razor"-something.. I'm sorry forgot the exact one but they posted recently. They didn't do any of the protocol and survived (presumably only bc being found however in truth it's possible they would have suffered much more and/or survived regardless). Perhaps use the search function to find their posts?
 
Xiaojiu

Xiaojiu

Mage
Mar 28, 2025
575
There was a post from someone recently… username "razor"-something.. I'm sorry forgot the exact one but they posted recently. They didn't do any of the protocol and survived (presumably only bc being found however in truth it's possible they would have suffered much more and/or survived regardless). Perhaps use the search function to find their posts?
I read about that one :( I was just hoping someone would reply to the post lol 😅😅
 
MidnightTrains

MidnightTrains

going nowhere
Sep 15, 2025
12
For people who experienced it, did you feel short of breath or like you couldn't get enough oxygen? Did it feel like you were going to die? That's what I'm most afraid of.

Thanks OP for posting this as I was wondering the same thing last night.
Wondering this as well... I don't mind the pain but suffocating would make me freak out
 
Upon a hanging Body

Upon a hanging Body

Dead Girl Walking
Jan 5, 2025
1,096
I took sn 3 days ago and wasn't found but I puked a majority of it up and went through a lot of the hypoxia alone .
It's disorienting , no so much painful more like your body is fragile and you feel drunk and confused.
I woke up looking like a corpse.... most of what happened is under private chat if you care to know more or you could just ask .
 
cait_sith

cait_sith

Apr 8, 2024
314
I took sn 3 days ago and wasn't found but I puked a majority of it up and went through a lot of the hypoxia alone .
It's disorienting , no so much painful more like your body is fragile and you feel drunk and confused.
I woke up looking like a corpse.... most of what happened is under private chat if you care to know more or you could just ask .
Did you puke it up despite taking antiemetics or didn't you take them?
 
Alexandra_

Alexandra_

Don't Fear the Reaper
Sep 30, 2023
651
I'm ready to endure any torment after taking SN. As long as it ends in death. To some extent, I even want to torture my body for torturing me like this. It sounds crazy, like I have a split personality. I've tested SN and the medications several times. Everything is sitting in the closet, waiting for its moment. I often look at all these objects and touch them. I just want the torment to end, I think many will understand. Physical torment is a disaster!
 
razor543

razor543

quetiapine <3
Dec 23, 2024
81
possible they would have suffered much more and/or survived regardless
I 100% wouldn't have survived if I hadn't been found, as I had a cardiac arrest. Also, I probably wouldn't have suffered more, as I didn't even know what was going on. My MetHb ended up being 97%
 
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NellyGoes

Sure.
Aug 16, 2025
155
I 100% wouldn't have survived if I hadn't been found, as I had a cardiac arrest. Also, I probably wouldn't have suffered more, as I didn't even know what was going on. My MetHb ended up being 97%
Yes I read that after! About the cardiac arrest.
The suffering is a tough one.. I'm so glad you don't remember basically any pain or discomfort now anymore. That's good. But it's still possible that you've felt it *during* this whole ordeal right… which I suppose everyone has to decide for themselves — can they endure temporary pain if they KNOW it will be over soon? But still be "okay" with writhing with it in the moment?

With your case I did wonder how long your discomfort state would have lasted without intervention… bc in your medical records it does say "patient is alert but confused" for quite a while, like even when you arrive at the hospital. :/ again, it's good you can't remember anything now! But during? It may or may not have been pleasant…:/
 
popping_candy

popping_candy

Planning for the future
Sep 9, 2025
14
I took sn 3 days ago and wasn't found but I puked a majority of it up and went through a lot of the hypoxia alone .
It's disorienting , no so much painful more like your body is fragile and you feel drunk and confused.
I woke up looking like a corpse.... most of what happened is under private chat if you care to know more or you could just ask .
If you already have something typed up, would you mind sending it to me through private chat? If not, don't worry about it. Don't want to make you think about it more if you are moving past the experience by now.
 

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