LastAcrobat
So Long and Thanks for all the Fish
- Nov 7, 2025
- 65
I fear what I may become. I know the history, I've seen what it has caused first hand. Generations upon generations on alcoholism, abuse, rape, murder, the works. While my (direct) family has been mostly clean I am still descendent form this nightmare, and have had to bear witness to its effects on others and myself. I do not wish to continue this, I do not wish to hurt as others before me have done. I fear myself, for I fear I will continue this near-tradition of suffering that goes back nearly three-hundred-fifty years. As of now, I have not continued this, but I do not know how everything will develop. I do not want to harm other people, I do not want to hurt anyone, yet it seems I am cursed to do that anyways, despite my best efforts.
I fear what I may cause. I wanted to do good in the world, so I got into research, but now I fear what this may be used for. I've already been asked about my knowledge by some, unsavory parties to say the least. Obviously, did not tell them anything, but even then I still fear the worst. I've already had to bear witness to what happens if the "less dangerous" one gets out of control, took out a vehicle like butter, littered a forest with razor metal moving faster than the speed of sound, put many people, including myself at risk. God only knows what this could become if used intentionally for harm, or worse, the more dangerous stuff, especially in the hands of bad actors. For hopefully obvious reasons I will not disclose what these projects are (I am allowed to say what I've said here).
For this, I fear myself.
I want to make people happy, I want to see the world get better, but... but...
Maybe the best thing for the world would be to just take myself out of the equation.
I fear what I may cause. I wanted to do good in the world, so I got into research, but now I fear what this may be used for. I've already been asked about my knowledge by some, unsavory parties to say the least. Obviously, did not tell them anything, but even then I still fear the worst. I've already had to bear witness to what happens if the "less dangerous" one gets out of control, took out a vehicle like butter, littered a forest with razor metal moving faster than the speed of sound, put many people, including myself at risk. God only knows what this could become if used intentionally for harm, or worse, the more dangerous stuff, especially in the hands of bad actors. For hopefully obvious reasons I will not disclose what these projects are (I am allowed to say what I've said here).
For this, I fear myself.
I want to make people happy, I want to see the world get better, but... but...
Maybe the best thing for the world would be to just take myself out of the equation.
