Venting Tired and at my limit

[lifewasawillow]

I'm so exhausted I just want to die but I don't have the energy to die and I'm terrified of dying but I want to ctb more than anything it's so paradoxical and so goddamed awful.

I'm so completely and utterly lonely and alone, all I do is mope around all day like the useless piece of crap I am.

 

[falling_snow]

I really feel that paradoxical thought.

I hope that you may find your way at your own pace. I'm sure that you will find your answer.

 

[Sleeper System]

I'm so exhausted I just want to die but I don't have the energy to die and I'm terrified of dying but I want to ctb more than anything it's so paradoxical and so goddamed awful.

I'm so completely and utterly lonely and alone, all I do is mope around all day like the useless piece of crap I am.

I feel like this every day. Hate that you feel this way too.

 

[FuneralCry]

I certainly understand that it's so dreadful feeling trapped here, I hate how existence doesn't come with an permanent offswitch to instantly find freedom from all the suffering, I really wish it's not so difficult to die.

 

[lifewasawillow]

I really feel that paradoxical thought.

I hope that you may find your way at your own pace. I'm sure that you will find your answer.

Thanks, I hope you do too

 

[WAITING TO DIE]

I'm right there with you.
Everyday is like a long drawn out form of torture.
I just want to go to sleep now and never wake up again.

 

[lifewasawillow]

I'm right there with you.
Everyday is like a long drawn out form of torture.
I just want to go to sleep now and never wake up again.

I'm just so tired

 

[Kit1]

A drawn out week where suicide has been at the forefront of my mind and following an overdose which I managed to stop before I took too much (I dissociate a lot) and now feeling like crap, I get exactly what you are saying. I am so sorry that we are all going through this.

 

[GlutenFreeCat]

I feel similar. Exhausted and angry at everything everyday. I'm not afraid of dying though. Making my plan has given me a little bit of energy and motivation. Something to look forward to, a feeling I haven't had in quite some time.

 

[nightmare_moon]

I understand, I'm right with you. Take your time to plan things out and do your best to make the right decision for yourself here. You deserve nice things.