Venting Those who have to keep living to avoid hurting someone?

[Sunset Limited]

The only thing between me and the exit door of this hell is my mother. I could never hurt her. I will wait. I'm trying to cope. I hope I can.

 

[m_h_d]

My wife, even though our relationship is the main driver of my desire to CTB. I worry how she'd cope, how she'd look after herself. God, I hate paradoxes.

 

[Guy Smiley]

The only thing between me and the exit door of this hell is my mother. I could never hurt him. I will wait. I'm trying to cope. I hope I can.

I very much relate to this (although I would add in my siblings, as well). It's a horrible feeling. You can only hope/wish that they will come to understand and be okay in the long run.

 

[Forever Sleep]

Same but for my Dad.

 

[Sunset Limited]

I very much relate to this (although I would add in my siblings, as well). It's a horrible feeling. You can only hope/wish that they will come to understand and be okay in the long run.

Same but for my Dad.

We are trapped.

 

[Forever Sleep]

We are trapped.

Sadly, yes it does feel like that sometimes. Even worse in some ways when it's parents I find. I do find myself thinking- Why did you do this to me? I know it isn't a fair emotion but I do feel resentful sometimes. It's complicated isn't it?

 

[Oliver]

A cope a day keeps the rope away - Albert Einstein


Anyhow, yes. The not hurting ones loved ones is a hell of a problem. One could always make a kind of "half-solution". Like wait some years before ctb'ing - hence giving your family some more time with you. Also, study shows that the older you are when you die, the less it will hurt the people around you. To lose a 20 year old son/daughter will be horrible for a parent, but to lose a 45+ year old will be slightly less bad of course. I don't know if this help. Personally, I'm 28 and I have been thinking about waiting till I'm 35. Still a hell of a lot of years to keep going, but maybe I can find ways to keep "cope'ing" and make existence tolerable, but I'm not sure.

 

[666aphom3t]

I live w my grandma w dementia and I can't even begin to imagine if she'd even care but she doesn't deserve that trauma..

 

[Final_Choice]

It's the only thing stopping me from doing it right now. If I do end up doing it as I'm planning to, I have to do everything possible to minimize the damage and try to make it seem like an accident so that my family isn't hurt as much.

 

[3/4Dead]

Hhhh fuckin' yeah man. Literally just my friend. He'd recover, but I cannot imagine the way that would hit him, I cannot in good conscience do that to him. All planning I've ever done has been about how to lessen my impact on the people around me. Sucks.

 

[cherry7]

It's the only thing stopping me from doing it right now. If I do end up doing it as I'm planning to, I have to do everything possible to minimize the damage and try to make it seem like an accident so that my family isn't hurt as much.

Curious what you would do to minimize damage?