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She took it like a champ, didn't she? What a unit.
Well Ive been up all night and this medicine is stronger than I'm to so I feel a bit drunk tbh. Been a particularly anxious/emotional day and when I had come to find some relief from this site and once again, found it so ridiculously tedious just to read through material, yeah, this motherfucker felt the need to have first "rant", er, "vent".
No bro, you're fine. Thank you though.I'm sorry if I may have contributed to your perception of the inadequacy of this site. I've been meaning to CTB for years if that's any consolation.
You're very fucking welcome. At least you got it. I'm not a dick so I don't know why everyone's anus' are flinching.... The Departed is a brilliant movie. How the fuck am I supposed to stay lady-like if I'm subjected to material like that at a young age?
I'm having a conversation with someone who I spoke with yesterday. Plus a few positive feedback PMs. Wtf do you care?
We all have bad days. What are you looking for from this site? There is a great deal here, and almost certainly there will be material that will meet some of your needs. You're right that the site can be a bit chaotic (though the search feature helps to offset that), but that's because there are so many different kinds of people here. You're also right that there are many posts that don't seem to have much point, but there are plenty others that do. Why not focus on the good aspects of the site: a lot of information, a lot of advice, a lot of personal experiences some of which will certainly be relevant to you, and emotional support when you need it. That's not a bad package. I doubt that you will find a better overall package elsewhere, though you probably can find sites that are better in particular ways. You can PM me if you want to talk some more, away from the glare of publicity.
Unit as in all of you or am I missing it entirely? Why would some stranger pissants bother me? I didn't target anyone ;) If they think they're apart of the problem then they probably felt defensive and felt the need to deflect. Or they can't resist an opportunity to berate a rando for their morning dose of dopamine in there lives that seemingly now may appear more pathetic than mine, and that's saying something.
This but without the sarcasm
And I'm glad you're not dead btw.I'm sorry if I may have contributed to your perception of the inadequacy of this site. I've been meaning to CTB for years if that's any consolation.
But sarcasm makes the world go 'round does it not?
Bye Felicia!
I can't take this seriously from someone who doesn't know how to form a paragraph.
Don't know what you're talking about, maybe you're new and just don't know how to use a website?
I'm all set. But thanks for the extended invite.
Or the vent section... Where people bitch about literally anything. But I'll keep that in mind Mr. Dead Hall Monitor
Oh wow. All those lovely unnecessary paragraphs carved just for me... They're all completely irrelevant but I appreciate that I've occupied so much space in your warped mind.
Lol I feel no obligation to refute any of that. Im sorry that you felt the need toThis is quite a rant. You say this site is littered with the fashionably depressed versus those who truly want to gtfo of this life and your handle is "definitely ready" yet you've been researching for over ten years. I'd say you're definitely not ready. As are not many of us right at the moment but there's no rule that you have to CTB within a set period of time here! Some do join and do depart rather quickly which impresses as well as unnerves me. And saddens me tbh. So how are we going to determine those who are truly serious from those who are just "weeny boppers" when registering ? And if we did block based on a guess wouldn't that count as a form of bias? Because it really would be a guess. I'm trying to imagine the questionnaire you'd have to pass to gain access to SS based on your frustrations. I agree with you that some of the things I read come off as teen angst and/or occasional whining but who am I to criticize? Walk a mile in another's shoes before doing so. Another saying is " those who can do, those who can't criticize ". I couldn't build or run on of these forums but maybe you can. I'd probably join it if you did. If you'd let me
Stay safe out there
Are you serious? You came here making generalising points about people here being poseurs, the site being bullshit mess - and now you asking why do i, a user of this site, care? Better question is why do YOU care about having a conversation here if you supposedly done here? On the other hand i don't even beed your aswer - i can see it with my own eyes, you just harvesting attention here. Imagine having a gal to say someone here because of fashion at the same time lol.
Well
Wow that fashion comment went right over your head. Do you honestly think I care what you think? Sorry bro. You're not that important. Don't feel the need to explain myself to you. I actually didnt expect a response at all... I thought a few likes in certifying that there needs some separation of the logging of forums to better connect the groups to the right groups. I was going to sleep but then couldn't because of a medication mishaps. My post wasn't meant to dismiss anyone or their pain, or be malicious. There are some people who exploit this page like you're accusing me of and those posts I didnt want to have to search through. I've pulled the trigger locked and loaded. My dumbass didnt know how to get the safety off at 20yrs old. I had never held a gun, and I only had a few minutes. I was hospitalized at age 12. Spent my 13th bday in another hospital. I can explain everything I wrote and why, but not to your ass.
Neat.
Oh I've done the work.... more than my fair share. I've pulled the trigger after loading it. But my dumbass had never used at the age of 20 and didnt know how to unlock the safety so it was locked. I only had a few minutes alone and had to put it back and was too afraid if I messed with it the wrong way it would be known that I had bothered it and I'd never see my niece again. My post didnt come from malice or was meant to dismiss anyone's pain. It was subjective and unfortunately completely misconstrued and misinterpreted. My choice of words werent at their peak as I had taken dextromethorphan. My insurance won't cover Auvelity so I buy it off amazon for now. It was riddled with errors as my phone is like 99% full and evidently slow and didn't process my corrections. I had double vision too. Im sorry if you were hurt by it. It obviously had nothing to do with you. But we all know there the forums are full of stuff that could belong elsewhere. I resented having to sort through all the files. Im not here to talk and make friends. I came for help in ending my life and things and even people on here were making that difficult. Hell FuneralCry just got berated for shellling out the same posts over and pver again, clogging the forum, when she could do that only her own profile page her posts are going to be the same and they all blasted her for that. She has over 30,000 posts. But they were still up my ass, trying to hit me harder than her. Hypocrites much? Anyway they dont matter. If they werent being rude, annoying, insensitive, selfish, etc. then it didn't apply to them. But they stick their noses wherever they'd like as far as I'm concerned. No one asked me what did I mean by this or that? What the hell was I talking about? That's the first time I had ever spoken to any those little turds. I know what I stand for, and if you have time to be hurt by a "long paragraph" than I'd say your life is better than mine. I don't have time or any energy to expend on someone I don't know saying "crap". Honestly I cant believe they cared. I didn't expect to geta single comment. I do my homework on everything. Sucks having to be your own dr, therapist, pharmacologist, psychiatrist, VET, etc. Biology is not be my major... I find it tedious and boring, and it aggravates the hell out my ocd. But I go into the offices each time telling them what I think and have read and we go for it, if I can convince them anyway. I dont think we need to share info or talk unless you had a specific reason. You can pm if you feel the need to. Hope this clarifies things.
Someone's flat ass never went to bed.... Yeah what am I? Fresh meat? New fish in town? Didnt know there was a "town" here... with pitchforks... I'm not a witch... or a bitch... Didn't think I'd even get a comment. Was like damn. People want to be provoked by a post thinking it's talking shit about them? Okay... have at it. But I have bigger fish to fry, and I don't cook so... or eat fish.
Oh you're more than welcome. No reply necessary unless you'd just like to. If you felt that I implied in my Dud post that any interactions I have are meaningless or useless, I haven't talked with anyone up until this Dud post that wasn't important. If that came across then I completely misspoke out of tiredness. I've just seen posts that dont seem to stress the pain that brings people to come here and it's just shocking. Didnt want to have to maybe read something that seemingly wasn't dire in need so why is it in the suicide forum? I'm obviously not happy and not trying to read some these blaise kind of posts that could go in a chatting area or something so I could more easily find material that I thought this site was created for. But that post had nothing to do with you or anyone I've previously spoken to.
