this is it

[100memoryleaks]

i've exhausted all my options. the cold hard truth is that my favorite person will never come back. there is no point in continuing to waste my time.

either tonight or tomorrow night - i may wait until tomorrow, just in case - i will quietly leave my home for the last time and ctb. i'm bringing a backpack with my rope, 2 cans of radler, some ibuprofen, and some gabapentin.

i have scheduled an email to my fp to send in one week from now.

i hope to finally be at peace...

 

[Off_Switch]

Not that most valid of reasons. But still a valid reason nonetheless. Pain is pain.

 

[100memoryleaks]

Not that most valid of reasons. But still a valid reason nonetheless. Pain is pain.

it's the last straw for me. he was a good person. it's not his fault he left me.

 

[Off_Switch]

it's the last straw for me. he was a good person. it's not his fault he left me.

I know the feeling. Been through it that least a half dozen times in my old life. This is probably hard to believe, but every single time the pain eventually subsides. But I can definitely understand if this is something you just simply can't believe right now.

 

[HFK40000]

i've exhausted all my options. the cold hard truth is that my favorite person will never come back. there is no point in continuing to waste my time.

either tonight or tomorrow night - i may wait until tomorrow, just in case - i will quietly leave my home for the last time and ctb. i'm bringing a backpack with my rope, 2 cans of radler, some ibuprofen, and some gabapentin.

i have scheduled an email to my fp to send in one week from now.

i hope to finally be at peace...

Losing my favorite person is the main reason for committing. Accepting that they are gone is the most painful pill to swallow. I would give anything to have then back.
May you find your peace.

 

[100memoryleaks]

I know the feeling. Been through it that least a half dozen times in my old life. This is probably hard to believe, but every single time the pain eventually subsides. But I can definitely understand if this is something you just simply can't believe right now.

I don't wanna go through it again

 

[LostHighway]

i've exhausted all my options. the cold hard truth is that my favorite person will never come back. there is no point in continuing to waste my time.

either tonight or tomorrow night - i may wait until tomorrow, just in case - i will quietly leave my home for the last time and ctb. i'm bringing a backpack with my rope, 2 cans of radler, some ibuprofen, and some gabapentin.

i have scheduled an email to my fp to send in one week from now.

i hope to finally be at peace...

If you live you will find other favorite people. There are thousands of them. Please don't give your FP all your power, so much so that you want to end your LIFE for them. Breakups are hard. It's part of being HUMAN. The ache lessens. Please reconsider. You can build up your life again. Pain is part of being alive. You CAN get through it.

 

[kittygolem]

I'd recommend tomorrow night to give yourself time to think about this. FPs come and go, but this is a permanent decision. I hold no moral standing in convincing you one way or another, and it's your choice. If your mind is truly set, I wish you peace in the beyond.

 

[FuneralCry]

I hope you find peace from suffering.

 

[darksouls]

however you decide,
I wish you the best, I hope you find the peace you desire

 

[SASU-KE]

If you live you will find other favorite people. There are thousands of them. Please don't give your FP all your power, so much so that you want to end your LIFE for them. Breakups are hard. It's part of being HUMAN. The ache lessens. Please reconsider. You can build up your life again. Pain is part of being alive. You CAN get through it.

I appreciate the spirit with which you are saying this. But everyone is not the same. Certain people, their brain is wired in such a way that they can't let go. It's not just alcohol or drugs that can become addictions.

People can too and they can't let go.That favorite person will continue to occupy that spot. It's not going to change.

 

[DeadMeat123]

i've exhausted all my options. the cold hard truth is that my favorite person will never come back. there is no point in continuing to waste my time.

either tonight or tomorrow night - i may wait until tomorrow, just in case - i will quietly leave my home for the last time and ctb. i'm bringing a backpack with my rope, 2 cans of radler, some ibuprofen, and some gabapentin.

i have scheduled an email to my fp to send in one week from now.

i hope to finally be at peace...

I wish you good luck and ever lasting peace. Remember, there's absolutely nothing wrong with backing out or changing the date or the entire plan. In your case it's worth considering and giving yourself a chance. The final decision is yours of course and it might not mean the end of the pain but I don't see any reason to rush your decision. As for me I've switched to SN and I'm not waiting long

 

[LostHighway]

I appreciate the spirit with which you are saying this. But everyone is not the same. Certain people, their brain is wired in such a way that they can't let go. It's not just alcohol or drugs that can become addictions.

People can too and they can't let go.That favorite person will continue to occupy that spot. It's not going to change.

I appreciate your patience with me. I'm going to try one more time. Please read to the end.

There are people who were DEEPLY in love for decades, and their life partners died. They moved on. Passionate lovers have broken up with a resounding connection.

Chris Pratt & Anna Faris - both moved on to find stable, deeply fulfilling relationships.
Gwen Stefani & Blake Shelton - Both underwent intense, highly publicized breakups. After navigating the emotional aftermath of their respective divorces, they found comfort and lasting love together, eventually marrying in 2021

One of my best friends was deeply in love in a very unhealthy relationship. They had a terrible terrible breakup. No words. Now she is more in love with someone than she's ever been in her life. I'm not joking with you. I actually put them together.


PLEASE read this thread about LIMERENCE. It's an obsession that reads like love. Please read it.


And PLEASE read other Reddit threads. I can't include them here because of the formatting. Look these up by googling the keywords:

"Reddit Would love to hear stories of people who moved on after a hard break-up"

And do this google search with tons of Reddit threads. Most posts don't deal with old people: ask old people reddit has anyone found love again after a deep love hard breakup?

 

[anopenwound]

I know how that feels. I know very, very, very well how that feels.
I don't want to advocate for any choice in here. But I just want to say, I see you. I know how horrible this is and how basically nobody understands.
I see you.

 

[100memoryleaks]

I appreciate your patience with me. I'm going to try one more time. Please read to the end.

There are people who were DEEPLY in love for decades, and their life partners died. They moved on. Passionate lovers have broken up with a resounding connection.

Chris Pratt & Anna Faris - both moved on to find stable, deeply fulfilling relationships.
Gwen Stefani & Blake Shelton - Both underwent intense, highly publicized breakups. After navigating the emotional aftermath of their respective divorces, they found comfort and lasting love together, eventually marrying in 2021

One of my best friends was deeply in love in a very unhealthy relationship. They had a terrible terrible breakup. No words. Now she is more in love with someone than she's ever been in her life. I'm not joking with you. I actually put them together.

Here is a relevant REDDIT thread:
PLEASE read this one:





And last. PLEASE read this thread about LIMERENCE. It's an obsession that reads like love. Please read it.

i appreciate your willingness to help. but I do not wish to move on and never planned to if the relationship ended. i made a promise that this would be my last relationship ever. but deep in my heart I knew my sweet boy would be happier without me, regardless of his reassurance. he will continue his life, mine ends here. I will be at peace, so will he as he continues his life.