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Avril

Avril

Unlovable.
Aug 8, 2020
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What are some things you'll miss most after CTB? Mine would be local food, video games and books. I'm inclined to try some dishes before I die.
 
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flightless bird

flightless bird

somewhere over the rainbow
Aug 18, 2022
299
i doubt you'd miss much without your brain intact, but hey, that's just me.:hihi:
 
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TBONTB

Enlightened
May 31, 2025
1,114
What are some things you'll miss most after CTB? Mine would be local food, video games and books. I'm inclined to try some dishes before I die.
I just had a pretty nice restaurant meal, fresh heirloom tomatoes. I already missed it, missed when I didn't find doom in everything I do.
 
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AnimeSlayersFan

Student
Jul 18, 2025
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playalistic

playalistic

LLJODYWOAH
Jul 5, 2025
39
What are some things you'll miss most after CTB? Mine would be local food, video games and books. I'm inclined to try some dishes before I die.
music

It'll be weird not listening to any ever again
 
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WantingtoLeave

Member
Jun 13, 2025
61
If there is life after death, my family and friends.
 
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FishRain3469

FishRain3469

Specialist
Mar 12, 2025
333
Hmmm... Many many things.. The sunrise / sunset, family/friends, thunderstorms, alcohol, drugs, music, sex, food.. the list goes on!

Thanks for posting this, it's been on my mind a Lot lately.
 
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DeadSouls

DeadSouls

Perpetually sad.
Jun 23, 2025
109
Nothing, I'll be dead. 🌝
 
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ginko0

ginko0

To be or not to be
May 8, 2025
203
Well...after being dead?😅 Probably nothing. But in anticipation, reading books, dreaming, listening to sad f songs and eating tasty food🤘
 
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Shiksa

Shiksa

Member
Jul 2, 2025
13
I'll miss a few people but mostly I'll be happy to finally move on.
 
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PI3.14

PI3.14

what is chaos to the fly is normal to the spider
Oct 4, 2024
554
Well, nothing since I'll be dead. But I do get what u mean, it's still nothing though since my life is trash anyways
 
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kopebaldy

Dovahkiin
Jul 5, 2025
420
Foods I guess.

I like to eat.
 
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darksouls

darksouls

Illuminated
May 10, 2025
3,510
I miss my pets
they are all dead
otherwise there is nothing in my life that means anything to me
 
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Shadows From Hell

Shadows From Hell

There's someone in my head but it's not me
Oct 21, 2024
659
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WrathfulGloom32

Enlightened
Oct 12, 2024
1,220
Honestly, I said nothing on the last what will you miss thread but thinking about it for the last 10 minutes...

I'll miss being pissed the fuck off about things.
 
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pthnrdnojvsc

Extreme Pain is much worse than people know
Aug 12, 2019
4,369
1 micro second After my brain dies i won't be able to miss anything because I will cease to exist forever

A brain is a biological computer. The brain creates the illusion of a self. There is no self only brain cells and a brain. Attention schema book . And ego tunnel book and other brain books prove there is no self its an illusion

When I think about it logically I would never consciously want to do anything in this evil world and evil life. I don't want anything from life or this evil world. I would never want to exist under any circumstances. So I wouldn't miss anything even while alive but 1 second after Death can't cause no brain to miss anything

just one reason out of many: nothing is worth even 10 seconds of the worst constant unbearable pain. But I guess people think they can pick and choose. No both the worst pain and the meaningless pleasure addictions are part of life, part of the same evil.

I would never miss anything. All the pleasure addictions like eating food watching a video etc are to me as bad as the worst pain or torture. To me the pleasure addictions are worse that the threat of most extreme suffering and torture . Why because the threat of the most extreme suffer shows me life and this world are hell that I must get out of which is reality . the pleasure addictions fool me and distract me from doing what I need to do get a suicide method ready to go and do it. The pleasure addictions only lead to pain.

Aldous huxley wrote brave new world book. pleasure keeps us slaves
 
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starlightstarbright

Member
Apr 26, 2025
39
Food. It's kind of pathetic, but good food is the only thing that has consistently brought me happiness throughout my life, and is the one thing that I'll genuinely miss.

I used to think that I'd miss my hobbies, maybe I'd miss reading or watching movies or knitting or painting since those were all things I used to spend a lot of time doing, but now I do none of those things and I don't even miss it. I miss the friends I used to have, but we fell out of contact years ago, so I don't need to be dead to miss them. I certainly won't miss my family, I hate them all.

Maybe I'll miss walking by the lake that I live near? It's very pretty, lots of trees and greenery. I like to walk there when the weather's nice. I think I'll miss that.
 
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badatparties

badatparties

Elementalist
Mar 16, 2025
814
I don't know if I'll miss anything to be honest. I don't really want anything from this corrupt place.

If i had to randomly pick maybe watching a really good movie or TV show while eating a plate of food.
 
Roadrunner

Roadrunner

Specialist
Mar 18, 2024
376
I won't miss a single thing, I'll be dead! Sadly my dog will miss me, I'll arrange for my son to watch her when I decide to leave. She loves him and will be fine.
 
EvisceratedJester

EvisceratedJester

|| What Else Could I Be But a Jester ||
Oct 21, 2023
5,157
Nothing, because I'll be dead. How am I supposed to miss shit if I am dead?
 
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polm

If I was your pet you’d take me to the vet
May 3, 2025
129
I've gone through the things I will miss in my mind. My kids getting married and grandkids being born. The travels I would have had with my husband. Thought about the type of dog I would have had. I'm at peace with it all.
 
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FuneralCry

FuneralCry

Just wanting some peace
Sep 24, 2020
48,496
I wouldn't, I'd be relieved to cease existing, non-existence is all that's positive for me, I'd just never wish for the abomination of existence that just causes harm and suffering until non-existence takes away all anyway, I see it as the most dreadful, cruel and torturous burden to exist and I wish I never suffered more than anything.

I'll always see existing as only suffering and I'd never wish for any of this rather all I want is some peace, I just want to never suffer ever again and I'd just always prefer to not exist than suffer so unnecessarily in this existence where there is no limit as to how much agony one can feel just to die tortured by old age.
 
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Karera

/ᐠ ◞ ᆺ ◟マ
Apr 20, 2025
45
Kitties n Bunnies (animals!).. music, movies, food, games, books, sleeping, crying, exploring nature and other places I've never been to, spending time with the 1 friend I have online (and only), writing...
 
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LostMary

LostMary
Jun 28, 2025
14
What are some things you'll miss most after CTB? Mine would be local food, video games and books. I'm inclined to try some dishes before I die.
My son.
The hot sand on my toes and the sounds of the waves.
A good meal with great wine and dancing.
 
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cowplantabduction

Beam me up, Scotty
Jul 21, 2025
49
My hamster....I'm considering staying alive longer until he passes because I really don't want to abandon him. A friend of mine is encouraging me to rehome him so I can go to a shelter instead of living with my abusive father but I just can't. I can't stomach the thought of being alive and giving up my hamster willingly. I wouldn't be able to live with myself.
 
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ForeverLonely82

ForeverLonely82

Experienced
Dec 22, 2021
249
given you'll cease to exist when you die. you won't *miss* anything. the only kind of missing will happen is people who like you. which is none on my end. I won't be missed and nothing of value will be lost.
 
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soulchaser_

soulchaser_

he/him
Jul 20, 2025
41
Probably my ex(s). the relationships were cool. but the endings always wrecked me and would probably be the reason why I'd CTB in the first place. People are cruel
 
kittyloverxd

kittyloverxd

Member
Jul 15, 2025
33
probably my cat or not seeing how dragon ball ends
 
Lyn

Lyn

Momentary
Mar 1, 2025
302
I really hope there will be no "me" to miss anything
 
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