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JadedGray

JadedGray

Life Eternal
Jul 24, 2018
991
My parents telling me that they hate me, that they wish I wasn't their daughter, that they wish I had never been born and to kill myself already. Nothing anyone else has ever said could ever hurt me after that. I'm too negative to remember the few nice things people might have said to me in my life out of pity and the countless negative things could never be as memorable as what the 2 people who brought me into this hell have said.
 
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LastFlowers

LastFlowers

the haru that can read
Apr 27, 2019
2,153
"You're so ugly I want to vomit."
And other variations of gawking and insults, behind my back or in front of my face.
And my favorite one "Is that a girl?"
Yes bitch. When's the last time you saw a man with hair down to his a**.
"You deserve what happens to you"
"You brought it all upon yourself"

Wish they weren't right
I get that too. No real sympathy or empathy even though I know they wouldn't be able to last a day in my shoes.
Very frustrating.
 
JadedGray

JadedGray

Life Eternal
Jul 24, 2018
991
"You're so ugly I want to vomit."
And other variations of gawking and insults, behind my back or in front of my face.
And my favorite one "Is that a girl?"
Yes bitch. When's the last time you saw a man with hair down to his a**.

I get that too. No real sympathy or empathy even though I know they wouldn't be able to last a day in my shoes.
Very frustrating.
I've gotten that too, so I sympathize. The worse was when I had just gotten out of the hospital for a suicide attempt and was getting on the bus and the driver called me sir with a smirk on his face. It was just one of many experiences that proved to me that there was no reason for me to have survived. It doesn't help that I'm a tomboy, but I dress this way to cover myself up as much as possible and because it's comfortable.
 
LastFlowers

LastFlowers

the haru that can read
Apr 27, 2019
2,153
I've gotten that too, so I sympathize. The worse was when I had just gotten out of the hospital for a suicide attempt and was getting on the bus and the driver called me sir with a smirk on his face. It was just one of many experiences that proved to me that there was no reason for me to have survived. It doesn't help that I'm a tomboy, but I dress this way to cover myself up as much as possible and because it's comfortable.
thanks..yea I try to cover myself up too. That's horrible that that was said to you especially when it was said. It's like life really has a knack for kicking a person when they're down.

Im sorry we have to share such a downer. But appreciate the understanding.
 
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Final Escape

I’ve been here too long
Jul 8, 2018
4,348
God, probably to hold out with sex but I never listened maybe because deep down I realized I had nothing else to offer. People asked what are u goin to do when you're old? I was like, good question I guess I'll cross that bridge when I get there. I always felt when I was young that I was not goin to do well in life and i was right.
 
Jc40

Jc40

Specialist
Mar 3, 2019
354
"You're so ugly I want to vomit."
And other variations of gawking and insults, behind my back or in front of my face.
And my favorite one "Is that a girl?"
Yes bitch. When's the last time you saw a man with hair down to his a**.

I get that too. No real sympathy or empathy even though I know they wouldn't be able to last a day in my shoes.
Very frustrating.
I get that too. I do have short hair and wear a hat all the time. No offence to people who are gay or anything, people question if I am gay, ask if I'm a boy/man, I got called sir yesterday.
I have been called a whippet, ie dog.
It's happened throughout my life. My cpn says people are ignorant. I think people can be so judgemental, I hate it.

I was on a train bout maybe 6 years ago an I heard a guy say to person he was with "don't sit there, she's weird, know her from primary school".

"Its your fault dad had heart attack. You make them (mum an dad) ill". I could think of more but makes me angry.
 
JadedGray

JadedGray

Life Eternal
Jul 24, 2018
991
I get that too. I do have short hair and wear a hat all the time. No offence to people who are gay or anything, people question if I am gay, ask if I'm a boy/man, I got called sir yesterday.
I have been called a whippet, ie dog.
It's happened throughout my life. My cpn says people are ignorant. I think people can be so judgemental, I hate it.

I was on a train bout maybe 6 years ago an I heard a guy say to person he was with "don't sit there, she's weird, know her from primary school".

"Its your fault dad had heart attack. You make them (mum an dad) ill". I could think of more but makes me angry.
I can relate to this. I don't have short hair, but I wear a hat all the time. I've never been asked if I was gay though and certainly have never been called a dog.
On my first day of highschool, a boy I went to elementary school with told the boy sitting next to me (loud enough for the whole class to hear) that he was sorry for him for having to sit next to me, because we had assigned seating. I'm sorry you had to go through something similar.
 
Jc40

Jc40

Specialist
Mar 3, 2019
354
I can relate to this. I don't have short hair, but I wear a hat all the time. I've never been asked if I was gay though and certainly have never been called a dog.
On my first day of highschool, a boy I went to elementary school with told the boy sitting next to me (loud enough for the whole class to hear) that he was sorry for him for having to sit next to me, because we had assigned seating. I'm sorry you had to go through something similar.
That's horrible. Yeah people can be cruel, I've experienced similar in schools, college too
You'd said about covering up in another post and being a tomboy, I am the same at 36 years old and have always been like this. I also hate tight fitting clothes so wear baggy stuff if can, am insecure about how I look I suppose.
 
JadedGray

JadedGray

Life Eternal
Jul 24, 2018
991
That's horrible. Yeah people can be cruel, I've experienced similar in schools, college too
You'd said about covering up in another post and being a tomboy, I am the same at 36 years old and have always been like this. I also hate tight fitting clothes so wear baggy stuff if can, am insecure about how I look I suppose.
The experiences I had in school prepared me for how unkind people can be.
I wear baggy clothes too. I've been dressing the same since highschool. The more I can cover up the better (and it's comfortable). I dread the Summer coming when it will be too hot to wear sweatshirts/sweatpants or a jacket.
 
Jc40

Jc40

Specialist
Mar 3, 2019
354
The experiences I had in school prepared me for how unkind people can be.
I wear baggy clothes too. I've been dressing the same since highschool. The more I can cover up the better (and it's comfortable). I dread the Summer coming when it will be too hot to wear sweatshirts/sweatpants or a jacket.
Yeah, your right. People can really be unkind, it doesn't matter where you are. Yeah not a fan of hot weather. I used to cover up more, like 3 hoodies. I always go for comfort over style. It's quite hot here just now and I've got scars all over my body so I never wear just a t-shirt where I live so it's baggy long sleved top, tshirt over it, my hat, and light jacket. Way too hot. Always wear jeans, bootcut lol.

I've never spoke to anyone with same/similar clothing style so it's been good to talk to you :)
 
Alchemist

Alchemist

Warlock
Apr 3, 2019
709
Yeah, your right. People can really be unkind, it doesn't matter where you are. Yeah not a fan of hot weather. I used to cover up more, like 3 hoodies. I always go for comfort over style. It's quite hot here just now and I've got scars all over my body so I never wear just a t-shirt where I live so it's baggy long sleved top, tshirt over it, my hat, and light jacket. Way too hot. Always wear jeans, bootcut lol.

I've never spoke to anyone with same/similar clothing style so it's been good to talk to you :)
That's normally the most comfortable style. I feel the same way about wearing anything tight or with short sleeves, it make me feel so insecure I'll wear a jacket or sweatshirt in the middle of summer.
 
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stormrOzzy

stormrOzzy

Member
Apr 8, 2019
32
You're very good with people so they use you'
You are sick.
"You are horrible, you will treat yourself"
 
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GreyMagic

GreyMagic

The more you care, the more you have to lose.
Feb 21, 2019
173
  • For fucks sake stop being overly sensitive... It clearly didn't happen.
  • Anorexic bitch - even though don't have an eating disorder.

Some other things can't put here, as would feel so vulnerable that it would trigger a PTSD episode.
 
silentsinger

silentsinger

Experienced
Mar 1, 2019
261
Not too long ago. 'I'm a cancerous parasite and I'm no good to anyone the way I am' (by an alcoholic). Judging by my behaviour lately, I know that it is a true statement and It makes me think a lot.
 
JadedGray

JadedGray

Life Eternal
Jul 24, 2018
991
Yeah, your right. People can really be unkind, it doesn't matter where you are. Yeah not a fan of hot weather. I used to cover up more, like 3 hoodies. I always go for comfort over style. It's quite hot here just now and I've got scars all over my body so I never wear just a t-shirt where I live so it's baggy long sleved top, tshirt over it, my hat, and light jacket. Way too hot. Always wear jeans, bootcut lol.

I've never spoke to anyone with same/similar clothing style so it's been good to talk to you :)
I used to be the only person in school who wore a jacket and a sweatshirt in May/June. People always talked about me, for never taking my jacket off in class.
It's still pretty cold here, luckily. I'm still able to wear a Winter coat. I have scars on my arms, so I never wear T-shirts, but even before I had these scars I still covered up.
I've never come across anyone with similar style either. It's been nice talking to you aswell. :)
 
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littlelady774

littlelady774

running on empty
Dec 20, 2018
709
Mine probably isn't too bad, but it definitely always stuck with me.

I'd always been sort of an outcast wanting to fit in so badly.

My parents blocked texting on my phone in high school, Couldn't text anyone. Very socially awkward and out of the loop.

I asked about it later to my mom, She said, "I really don't think it would have mattered. You didn't have a lot of friends to text anyway"
 
Tabbyql

Tabbyql

Chronic people pleaser
Mar 13, 2019
282
Your a dog (high school class mates)
Your ugly (high school again)
Your mother doesn't love you and wanted an abortion (My dad)
Grow up (My brother and sister when I was having a full on breakdown)
Your lying (My dad when I had been raped by a guy)
Can you cover up your arms your embarrassing me (My dad in regards to my self arm scars)
Your only problem is you feel sorry for your self ( my current bf when I'd just got back from the e.r after being taken there by police for being suicidal And I was crying)

I think these are classed as bad.
 
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262653

262653

Cluesome
Apr 5, 2018
1,733
That I am stupid, by my grandmother, because I wasn't able to write letters within a countours. I think she was looking for an excuse to mistreat me. Maybe I should beat the crap out of her when she get's home. Partially she was true, I wasn't able to break the mental cage during my school years. Lots of stupid decisions have been made. Some believe that being smart doesn't make your life more enjoyable. I believe that is a giant load of horseshit. The more powerful your rational brain is, the more well-thought out decisions you will gonig to make, the more likely you will adapt to a situation instead of hiding. Whatever goal has been set up before you, better brain produces better ways of reaching it. AM I MISSING SOMETHING? The only downside I can see: your primal side abuse the shit out of your brilliant brain to stay alive as long as possible. But stupid people are more likely to make poor decisions which might lead to more suffering. Fuck I'm so annoyed my people who think that smarts don't have anything to do with good life. Unfortunately not annoyed enough to kill myself.
 
Zer0

Zer0

Nem sempre se pode ser Deus
Sep 14, 2018
124
A friend once told me I was toxic, at the time he was the only person I could trust, and that is wh
 
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Ko9

Ko9

Student
Jun 30, 2019
159
A teacher yelling at my 12 year old self from 10 cm away at my face that I would be ''Vomited out of society.'' What can I say? He wasn't wrong.
 
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Asta

Asta

Specialist
Jun 7, 2019
318
My Mother said, "I'll love you forever", a few minutes before she had her last stroke.

Those who've been treated badly, need to realize that it has nothing to do with us. The mean and hateful people are really miserable inside and are taking it out on others. That's no excuse, of course, but they're the ones who are really wretched and pathetic and will never know happiness in their lives.
 
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