They hospitalizing me :(

[Holu]

Free meeeeee
Stole my blood. 3 guards watching me. Stuck in er.

No option. It was either cops or I come here willingly. Sadness.

 

[Holu]

Update. Still fucking here. These mofos better not send me to a fucking clinic ughhh. Don't want three days of this shit.

No means or fucking date yet. I ain't dying in three days dunno why tf they would hold me 3 days. Fuck ideation, fuck intent, fuck a plan. I literally don't have the ability to ctb the way I want. Im fucking stuck here because I refused my fucking medication. That's literally it. Stupidest shit ever.

 

[Terrible_Life]

I'm so sorry be strong and don't get impulsive. Tell them you aren't suicidal. Act as if you're in full control then these psychopaths can't do anything to you and must led you out.

 

[Chemi]

Time to reorganize all your Spotify playlists :P But seriously, try to occupy yourself with literally anything. Learn to draw. Keep your head down and cooperate and you will be out in no time. Sadly, fighting it will only make everything worse. You are stuck in their world for now. But hey, you got this, hun!

 

[idiotmother]

I hope they don't force you on meds like they did to me. They claim to "help" people and "save lives," but they are literally the reason I want to end mine. Demons in medical clothing.

 

[Holu]

Still stuck. American healthcare for the win. Can't get me a fucking psychiatrist.

I'm so sorry be strong and don't get impulsive. Tell them you aren't suicidal. Act as if you're in full control then these psychopaths can't do anything to you and must led you out.

I'm a psych grad student who has been suicidal more than half my life and is familiar with this shit. Tbh I'm just gonna be fully honest. Im not in any immediate danger nor am I an acute suicide crisis. I'm here cuz I refused my meds. I'm gonna let the psychiatrist choose between fear/protocol and logic/compassion. Worst case it's 3 days. They can't hold my bitch ass forever.

Time to reorganize all your Spotify playlists :P But seriously, try to occupy yourself with literally anything. Learn to draw. Keep your head down and cooperate and you will be out in no time. Sadly, fighting it will only make everything worse. You are stuck in their world for now. But hey, you got this, hun!

Better option lmao. Flirted with borderline ex and ranted to other friend about right to die. Mentally ill things.

I hope they don't force you on meds like they did to me. They claim to "help" people and "save lives," but they are literally the reason I want to end mine. Demons in medical clothing.

I'm generally pro meds tbh. But figured I needed to reflect on when I wanted to go thru to start prepping. Had to hop off the zombie pills to think about that shit. Obviously my time to think is delayed now since I'm being monitored.

 

[Holu]

Was honest.. gave honest answers. IOP recommendation as expected. Not psych ward. But parents get to fucking decide. So if I end up 5150'd at a psych clinic it's their decision. Even though the professional doesn't feel that way. How very cool.

 

[Dejected 55]

Why would parents get to decide if you are an adult? If you aren't an adult you shouldn't be here, so I'm assuming you are an adult.

Involuntary sucks... but whether voluntary or involuntary, based on my experience and what I observed in others while I was there... they don't really care that much about helping. I witnessed doctors and nurses complaining about their jobs just like any other job... and the doctor joked about leaving a patient out on the street after discharge... which, even as a joke is something *I* could say as a patient, but is not the kind of joke you want or expect to hear from a psychiatrist.

Long story short... if they helped you it would be one thing... but I didn't see a lot of help happening.

 

[Holu]

Why would parents get to decide if you are an adult? If you aren't an adult you shouldn't be here, so I'm assuming you are an adult.

Involuntary sucks... but whether voluntary or involuntary, based on my experience and what I observed in others while I was there... they don't really care that much about helping. I witnessed doctors and nurses complaining about their jobs just like any other job... and the doctor joked about leaving a patient out on the street after discharge... which, even as a joke is something *I* could say as a patient, but is not the kind of joke you want or expect to hear from a psychiatrist.

Long story short... if they helped you it would be one thing... but I didn't see a lot of help happening.

Im 22. Parents also decided no. And the reason they get to decide is because insurance companies don't like to be sued. If I ctb when I could have gone to a 5150, and the clinician recommended me not to go, then parents can sue the clinician.

 

[Dejected 55]

Im 22. Parents also decided no. And the reason they get to decide is because insurance companies don't like to be sued. If I ctb when I could have gone to a 5150, and the clinician recommended me not to go, then parents can sue the clinician.

I was just thinking... in order for an adult to lose the right to make decisions, there has to be some court judgment to strip your rights. It's different if you are unconscious and they need to go to a parent or next-of-kin or whatever if you've given someone power to make decisions for you when you are out. When I was in the hospital, they asked me who could they contact to make decisions for me if I was unable to... I had no one to give them... so I don't know what would happen, but I suspect they have to go to court to get rights to make such decisions.

Just going to your parents when you are an adult and are conscious seems weird and not legal. Legally it seems they would have to first declare you incompetent to make decisions for yourself before they could ask the parents. That's my understanding of how the law is supposed to work there.

 

[Holu]

I was just thinking... in order for an adult to lose the right to make decisions, there has to be some court judgment to strip your rights. It's different if you are unconscious and they need to go to a parent or next-of-kin or whatever if you've given someone power to make decisions for you when you are out. When I was in the hospital, they asked me who could they contact to make decisions for me if I was unable to... I had no one to give them... so I don't know what would happen, but I suspect they have to go to court to get rights to make such decisions.

Just going to your parents when you are an adult and are conscious seems weird and not legal. Legally it seems they would have to first declare you incompetent to make decisions for yourself before they could ask the parents. That's my understanding of how the law is supposed to work there.

U sign a waiver to ur rights unfortunately when you enter voluntarily. I have no idea how it works if cops drag you by handcuffs. But part of going voluntarily is literally signing away your ability to leave.

 

[Dejected 55]

U sign a waiver to ur rights unfortunately when you enter voluntarily. I have no idea how it works if cops drag you by handcuffs. But part of going voluntarily is literally signing away your ability to leave.

Yeah, if you sign in voluntarily you agree to a minimum mandatory time there. I know that from some voluntary admissions while I was in there... but after that minimum, as long as you haven't done anything "crazy" you can sign yourself out... whereas the involuntary admission you are stuck until they deem you fit.

But either way, you aren't signing away your rights to have your parents or someone else make decisions for you. That's a whole different thing. You could sign a paper that gives someone rights in case you are unconscious or otherwise unable to make decisions. But otherwise, like I was saying, they can't just ignore you and go to your parents or someone else without first having gone to court and gotten a judgment that you are unfit to make decisions for yourself.

 

[allKae]

I understand what you're going through. Actually, after I left rehab for the last time, I just started hiding my feelings. I don't see any other way to avoid being hospitalized.Having my blood stolen or taking strong injections to sleep.

I know it's hard to hide, I feel extreme loneliness every day even though I have people close to me, I'm feeling a sadness that could kill me.

I hope you manage to get out of this and that you have good luck afterwards, both in your recovery and in the CTB