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Sunny-Moon

Yearning for peace
Dec 7, 2022
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The absolute worst part of my day is the moment my eyes open and I'm awake each morning.

Waking up and realizing I'm still alive, that I didn't die in my sleep...

It's excruciating and painful. The disappointment is crushing. I wish for a peaceful death in my sleep daily, and it never happens.

I don't want to be here anymore.
 
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outrider567

Visionary
Apr 5, 2022
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The absolute worst part of my day is the moment my eyes open and I'm awake each morning.

Waking up and realizing I'm still alive, that I didn't die in my sleep...

It's excruciating and painful. The disappointment is crushing. I wish for a peaceful death in my sleep daily, and it never happens.

I don't want to be here anymore.
I feel the same way, was reading that dying in your sleep can indeed be peaceful, but these almost always occur with pre-existing health conditions, its rare to die in your sleep with no known health problems, so and I are both shit out of luck
 
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locked*n*loaded

Archangel
Apr 15, 2022
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The absolute worst part of my day is the moment my eyes open and I'm awake each morning.

Waking up and realizing I'm still alive, that I didn't die in my sleep...

It's excruciating and painful. The disappointment is crushing. I wish for a peaceful death in my sleep daily, and it never happens.

I don't want to be here anymore.
Mine too.
 
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todiefor

todiefor

Scrap that, nothing matters at all after all
Jun 24, 2023
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I have the same feeling, almost angry that I woke up and can't sleep anymore. And at night I feel a lot more relaxed as I know I would soon fall asleep and not have to deal with the emotions while I sleep, although I have also been having some horrific dreams
 
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FuneralCry

FuneralCry

Just wanting some peace
Sep 24, 2020
38,920
I certainly think it's such a dreadful thing to wake up, I find it horrible how we cannot just choose to escape from all the suffering in such a way, the only thing that appeals to me is not existing for all eternity where everything is forgotten about, it just sounds so peaceful and ideal.
 
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