I think this is the right tag. Thought my story could be valuable.
Last night/in the early morning (~7am) I mixed one teaspoon of SN into a small glass of water. I took 4 decent sips, drinking maybe half of the total.
I was not trying to test my SN, rather make a try for a delayed and more pleasant death in my sleep. I do think it would have worked if my body didn't fuck up, I was in a very very poor state until I got methelyne blue.
I drank my sips then laid in bed. My heartbeat nearly immediately began to skyrocket, hitting the 150s-160s like nothing. I got up and moved to the couch because the force of my heart beats felt like it would wake my partner. There, I felt like I was being aggressively shaken constantly from my heart. I stopped checking my pulse, trying to drift to sleep.
I remember counting to 300-something. The next thing I remember is being on the floor and hearing my partner call for me, disturbed by my apparent fall. I have to guess that my body tried walking somewhere (bathroom maybe??) and tumbled. My partner called 911 shortly after.
From there I was in and out of consciousness. For most of the time between being on the floor and brought to the hospital, I was conscious. I remember hearing my partner discuss my past attempts with the paramedics, and how they were wondering if I was currently ODing on Tylenol. Lol.
The ambulance ride kinda sucked, kept getting stabbed and poked. I'm sure I could have spoken and moved and all that, I just didn't *want* to. Just wanted to be left alone to sleep. At one point they tried to intubate me, but I clenched my jaw. My whole body kept violently shaking, not sure if it was seizures.
At the hospital, I assume I was unconscious. When I regained consciousness, I was in the ICU with a ton of needles poking out of me. Got a catheter at some point. Had one of those respirator things in my nose, luckily wasn't intubated.
Between being on the floor and being in the ICU, I was having some pretty weird visions/hallucinations/whatever. I was hearing everything around me, and my eyes were closed but I was almost "seeing" things as they were happening, but in picasso style. Except during parts where I was genuinely unconscious. Maybe thats what being semi conscious feels like.
Since taking SN (almost 24h ago), I've been given many bags of methelyne blue, which may or may not have contributed to what I was "seeing". I'm functionally "cured" of the poison, have been for 12h now, just waiting to be cleared medically, then I get to argue with a psychiatrist.
I've been asked several times to divulge my source by workers, but have been staying vague, just mentioning amazon and nothing more. Won't get them anywhere with my specific item, let alone the other items that are probably on it.
Everything with just taking SN and feeling it's effects was oddly calm. Rapid heartbeats weren't fun, but were managable. 8/10, will attempt again, home alone though.
Happy to answer questions.
Last night/in the early morning (~7am) I mixed one teaspoon of SN into a small glass of water. I took 4 decent sips, drinking maybe half of the total.
I was not trying to test my SN, rather make a try for a delayed and more pleasant death in my sleep. I do think it would have worked if my body didn't fuck up, I was in a very very poor state until I got methelyne blue.
I drank my sips then laid in bed. My heartbeat nearly immediately began to skyrocket, hitting the 150s-160s like nothing. I got up and moved to the couch because the force of my heart beats felt like it would wake my partner. There, I felt like I was being aggressively shaken constantly from my heart. I stopped checking my pulse, trying to drift to sleep.
I remember counting to 300-something. The next thing I remember is being on the floor and hearing my partner call for me, disturbed by my apparent fall. I have to guess that my body tried walking somewhere (bathroom maybe??) and tumbled. My partner called 911 shortly after.
From there I was in and out of consciousness. For most of the time between being on the floor and brought to the hospital, I was conscious. I remember hearing my partner discuss my past attempts with the paramedics, and how they were wondering if I was currently ODing on Tylenol. Lol.
The ambulance ride kinda sucked, kept getting stabbed and poked. I'm sure I could have spoken and moved and all that, I just didn't *want* to. Just wanted to be left alone to sleep. At one point they tried to intubate me, but I clenched my jaw. My whole body kept violently shaking, not sure if it was seizures.
At the hospital, I assume I was unconscious. When I regained consciousness, I was in the ICU with a ton of needles poking out of me. Got a catheter at some point. Had one of those respirator things in my nose, luckily wasn't intubated.
Between being on the floor and being in the ICU, I was having some pretty weird visions/hallucinations/whatever. I was hearing everything around me, and my eyes were closed but I was almost "seeing" things as they were happening, but in picasso style. Except during parts where I was genuinely unconscious. Maybe thats what being semi conscious feels like.
Since taking SN (almost 24h ago), I've been given many bags of methelyne blue, which may or may not have contributed to what I was "seeing". I'm functionally "cured" of the poison, have been for 12h now, just waiting to be cleared medically, then I get to argue with a psychiatrist.
I've been asked several times to divulge my source by workers, but have been staying vague, just mentioning amazon and nothing more. Won't get them anywhere with my specific item, let alone the other items that are probably on it.
Everything with just taking SN and feeling it's effects was oddly calm. Rapid heartbeats weren't fun, but were managable. 8/10, will attempt again, home alone though.
Happy to answer questions.
