Venting The reason I have a bad life is entirely my fault.. but I was destined to be a punching bag

[ultrasharpy123456]

I left school and became complacent. I got angry. I mistook people caring about me aggressively for them bullying me. So I fought back. And now I am here.

I should've just done what my mom wanted me to do from the start. And sure I would've gotten yelled at by teachers and bosses and co-workers but that's the magic of who I am: me being me it woulld've happened anyway.

And then I would have become aggressive and ruined relationships like I always do. But hey at least I would've had a job by now.

 

[sheleftme1]

I'm sorry you being you hurt you. Me too I've tried to revamp myself multiple times and become "Better" but even the things I worked on didn't save my relationship. I wasn't good enough again no matter what I tried. I'm sorry and I hope you find joy in life again. While I understand choices, I still always want people to be able to get better. As much as we want the peace of an exit we all would prefer life to be better. And I don't know your situation but if you see a path to getting better I hope you can take it. I hope for the best in your life. Aggression is a hard thing to get out of

 

[Vizzy]

I left school and became complacent. I got angry. I mistook people caring about me aggressively for them bullying me. So I fought back. And now I am here.

I should've just done what my mom wanted me to do from the start. And sure I would've gotten yelled at by teachers and bosses and co-workers but that's the magic of who I am: me being me it woulld've happened anyway.

And then I would have become aggressive and ruined relationships like I always do. But hey at least I would've had a job by now.

This should be in recovery section not here

 

[ultrasharpy123456]

This should be in recovery section not here

why recovery? is not this section also meant for venting?

 

[Vizzy]

why recovery? is not this section also meant for venting?

Here

Recovery

This place is dedicated to supporting those who are in the process of healing and overcoming suicidal thoughts. Share your journey and connect with others here.

sanctioned-suicide.net

 

[ultrasharpy123456]

Here

Recovery

This place is dedicated to supporting those who are in the process of healing and overcoming suicidal thoughts. Share your journey and connect with others here.

sanctioned-suicide.net

yeah but I am asking why recovery?

 

[Vizzy]

yeah but I am asking why recovery?

It looks like you made a bad decision and want help to come out of it so it is recovery

 

[ultrasharpy123456]

It looks like you made a bad decision and want help to come out of it so it is recovery

It's not like I want help I was just venting...

I posted this is recovery just now btw.