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Backwood_tilt

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Dec 27, 2019
889
Oven bags came. Can practice making exit bags now.
 
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Carina

Carina

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Dec 22, 2019
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I 'almost' feel guilty for the conversation with my friend right now.... almost... I'm doing a distraction a total distraction... as in 'oh no, even if I am suicidal... here's the things I'm going to use, I'm sorry.... heehee, totally wasn't what I was going to use' distraction.

Not saying anything, it's just an implied thing given the past. lol.

I kinda forgot I posted on facebook I was drunk, and kinda forgot he saw it, and kinda forgot he knows I shouldn't--and he kinda knows that is a 'bad sign' oops.
 
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Morphinekiss

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Jun 8, 2019
1,207
AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH

that is all.
 
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Squiddy

Squiddy

Here Lies My Hopes And Dreams
Sep 4, 2019
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R.i.p. my bank account...for 4 of my meds, it was $51
 
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Carina

Carina

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Dec 22, 2019
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It's almost 4... which means 1 hour til I go home....

Then dinner.... and hopefully I can do some more writting of things like last night I was trying to do!
 
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Backwood_tilt

UnEnlightened
Dec 27, 2019
889
Bah, that must be rough. Good luck with that. I think i already finished mine but i think i need to revisit them before i CTB.

Do you have many to write?
 
CyanideSoup

CyanideSoup

Memento mori
Oct 1, 2019
463
Paging
@Sensei
@Nemeshisu
@L0ne1ygh0st
@Raven Moon
@BooGirl
I'm here, it's been a tough day. Child services came for a visit today which didn't go to well, my daughter is sick, and my boiler broke so I have no heating and it's freezing cold. I'm so exhausted now
 
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BlueWidow

BlueWidow

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Oct 6, 2019
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I'm here, it's been a tough day. Child services came for a visit today which didn't go to well, my daughter is sick, and my boiler broke so I have no heating and it's freezing cold. I'm so exhausted now
Why do they always show up at the worst possible time?! :meh:
 
CyanideSoup

CyanideSoup

Memento mori
Oct 1, 2019
463
Why do they always show up at the worst possible time?! :meh:
I don't know, it seems like they just watch and wait for you to be at your lowest and then they come and kick you while your down
 
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Carina

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Dec 22, 2019
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I'm here, it's been a tough day. Child services came for a visit today which didn't go to well, my daughter is sick, and my boiler broke so I have no heating and it's freezing cold. I'm so exhausted now

Did they at least understand that it just broke? I mean these things happen... I'm sorry though. People showing up at the worst possible times is a horrible thing to have happen like @BlueWidow said
 
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CyanideSoup

CyanideSoup

Memento mori
Oct 1, 2019
463
Did they at least understand that it just broke? I mean these things happen... I'm sorry though. People showing up at the worst possible times is a horrible thing to have happen like @BlueWidow said
I don't know, they weren't happy about it. But my landlord is awful and takes weeks to even get hold of so I have no idea when we will have a new one. The social worker wants to come back in a few days but I have a bad feeling about it all.
 
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Jean4

Jean4

Remember. I am ALWAYS right.... until I’m not
Apr 28, 2019
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I'm here, it's been a tough day. Child services came for a visit today which didn't go to well, my daughter is sick, and my boiler broke so I have no heating and it's freezing cold. I'm so exhausted now
How are you feeling? How are your meds?
 
Carina

Carina

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Dec 22, 2019
4,005
I don't know, they weren't happy about it. But my landlord is awful and takes weeks to even get hold of so I have no idea when we will have a new one. The social worker wants to come back in a few days but I have a bad feeling about it all.
hmmm. just a thought (trying to help with stress!) is there some service place in your town that might take care of it given an emergency like thing as it's unsafe?
I hope you can reach the lanlord though :(

It might turn out ok! Trying to be positive
 
BlueWidow

BlueWidow

Visionary
Oct 6, 2019
2,179
I don't know, they weren't happy about it. But my landlord is awful and takes weeks to even get hold of so I have no idea when we will have a new one. The social worker wants to come back in a few days but I have a bad feeling about it all.
Well, it's not your fault if you've got a crappy landlord. Why do they make it so hard on people who are already clearly having problems?! I thought they were supposed to be there to help!
 
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CyanideSoup

CyanideSoup

Memento mori
Oct 1, 2019
463
How are you feeling? How are your meds?
I'm feeling pretty rough. The meds aren't working yet but its early days on the new dose. Im hoping it will help soon to manage the hallucinations at least.

hmmm. just a thought (trying to help with stress!) is there some service place in your town that might take care of it given an emergency like thing as it's unsafe?
I hope you can reach the lanlord though :(

It might turn out ok! Trying to be positive
I'm hoping I can get hold of somebody tomorrow about it, sadly the guy who came out to do the safety check has said it needs a full replacement. Hopefully that can be done fast but apparently it can take up to 3 weeks.

Well, it's not your fault if you've got a crappy landlord. Why do they make it so hard on people who are already clearly having problems?! I thought they were supposed to be there to help!
You'd think. And I know they're underfunded and overworked but it seems like they don't care they're doing more harm than good some times.
 
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Squiddy

Squiddy

Here Lies My Hopes And Dreams
Sep 4, 2019
5,903
I'm so tired
 
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cosmicpixiedust

cosmicpixiedust

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Jun 5, 2019
972
I am on my way to work and captured this beautiful sight!

A8DCC341 34E4 4AB4 8919 311BE1E84978
 
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cosmicpixiedust

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Jun 5, 2019
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:) great pic, still! looks gorgeous.

Thanks! :) I was worried you guys wouldn't be able to see it well since we're on a forum, so I'm glad you can! I just looked up and was in awe and had to take a picture.
 
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Jean4

Jean4

Remember. I am ALWAYS right.... until I’m not
Apr 28, 2019
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In case I fall asleep, I'm saying goodnight. Will be back probably lol
 
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Carina

Carina

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Dec 22, 2019
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In case I fall asleep, I'm saying goodnight. Will be back probably lol
Sleep well if you fall asleep, and welcome back as we'll see you in an hour lol (but also sorry that we probably will :( )
 
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BlueWidow

BlueWidow

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Oct 6, 2019
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Well, I got all my chores finished for the day. The plumbing service called me finally and told me that they couldn't get to me today so they're going to call me tomorrow morning at 9 AM and then we start the waiting process over again. I'm a little upset that I still have to continue dealing with it, but it least they were kind enough to call me and tell me they weren't coming tonight so I'm not just sitting here waiting. Hopefully tomorrow they'll come early and get me out of the way before they have any big disasters. I'm hoping since I was kind enough to let them wait to get to me until tomorrow that they're going to take that into consideration and try their very best to get to me early tomorrow so I can get this over with. At least I got all of my chores done. I now have clean clothes, a clean kitchen- well relatively clean, and my dinner is already partially made. Therefore, I guess I'm in pretty good shape right now. I'm tired, but of course, I know I'm not going to be able to sleep tonight because I'm going to be anxious about the plumber coming tomorrow. I know it's going to be an awful night. I can already feel it. Oh well, it won't be the first time. Or the last.
 
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Carina

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Dec 22, 2019
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Well, I got all my chores finished for the day. The plumbing service called me finally and told me that they couldn't get to me today so they're going to call me tomorrow morning at 9 AM and then we start the waiting process over again. I'm a little upset that I still have to continue dealing with it, but it least they were kind enough to call me and tell me they weren't coming tonight so I'm not just sitting here waiting. Hopefully tomorrow they'll come early and get me out of the way before they have any big disasters. I'm hoping since I was kind enough to let them wait to get to me until tomorrow that they're going to take that into consideration and try their very best to get to me early tomorrow so I can get this over with. At least I got all of my chores done. I now have clean clothes, a clean kitchen- well relatively clean, and my dinner is already partially made. Therefore, I guess I'm in pretty good shape right now. I'm tired, but of course, I know I'm not going to be able to sleep tonight because I'm going to be anxious about the plumber coming tomorrow. I know it's going to be an awful night. I can already feel it. Oh well, it won't be the first time. Or the last.
Well, at least the day wasn't a total loss. And you got some stuff done, so it was kinda good.... even though also totally sucky and tomorrow will be bad.... but trying to be positive! :)
 
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