I think she learned things from her ex, as he was bad.... We never realized it for like 20 years. it wasn't until he was gone that we noticed it. He was manipulative, lied to others to make us look bad and him look good. He told us others loved him (I was told by his bosses he was a joke basically--I worked with his bosses at a different company later on).
That's so awful! How can anyone do things like that to a child?! Yes, I love how people think if you know what caused your problem that makes it better. All that does is allow you to know what caused your problem, but it doesn't change the problem.
Well my stepmother I didn't give what she wanted I have to say. But she was an exception lol. I hated her. Still do. But with me, I have always had the same viewpoint and way of living. Never varying. Many, many times of having enough and attempting to ctb though, granted they were all (basically) destined to fail.
Yeah. It's honestly why I say no one has ever loved me. Family says they do (mom and her side), but I believe they did only because family says they love family, not because they really do.
First, I'm glad you finally have some food!
That actually means something to me--so thanks :)First, I'm glad you finally have some food!
Second, I understand your situation with your family saying they love you- but it's just because that's what family says. My family was much the same way, with a few exceptions. Unfortunately for me, the people who are the exceptions are the ones who died and I was left alone with the rest of them.
My heart breaks for you that you've never been truly loved or been able to truly love another person. Of course, it's hard to love another person when you've never truly been loved yourself. So that actually makes some sense to me. I'm glad you at least have your cats.
I know I got incredibly lucky when I met my husband. I still have no clue how that happened, except that the universe had to give me something big so it could snatch it away from me. It was all a set up. At least that's how it seems to me.
I've had some incredibly good luck in my life, but it's always been balanced out by double or triple the incredibly bad luck. For every good thing I get, I feel like I have to pay for it in tenfold or more. The universe just likes to fuck with me.
And, I know it's not the same, but I care about you.
Oh see I've had over 15 attempts from age 15 to... 24 (just did the math). Shy of guns and jumping.... probably most other methods as a test to see what would be useful/possible... look more like accident.... be less hurtful to parents. I was one of the few people who would pop 24 otc pills without a second thought when that young that I didn't consider that an OD (despite it being up to 4x the max dosage on a bottle, and wouldve been to medical people, since it was a starting point). I still have scars on my arm.
yep, join date is on the left under your picture/etcJesus, that's rough. Wish you had better experiences and life never led you down this road
I didn't realize you had joined just a few days before me!
Shit! I've got to catch up with you. I've been nursing the same drink for two hours. Too busy writing posts on here. LOL!
meds saying not to use with alcohol lol--I'm a cheap drunk lol
she didn't say... only that she was only like "where are you taking me? just call my dad" lol
Apparently not. Good time of day, everybody.I'll be going to sleep now. Maybe I'll be the lucky one to not wake up next day
I'm seriously beginning to think that this site goes to show that there's a "how to make a suicidal person cookbook"... there's just so many similarities between so many of us!
I may be kinda drunk too... or maybe I"m sober and the world is slightly wobbly
Oh I won't be drinking that much. I don't usually get sick when I drink. The only time I get sick when I drink is if I do it on St. Patrick's Day and they put green food coloring in the drink without me knowing it. That was the sickest I ever got in my life once when I was in college. Otherwise I don't normally get sick when I drink. Thankfully.lmao what a strange video, that was the weirdest "restoration" ive ever seen.... im so confused at what he's doing!
I did not know about ramen noodle guitars haha but i have seen some pretty cool lapsteel designs. Did you start learning about that after seeing the restoration video?
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i had to stop drinking cause its late and im supposed to go do some blood work at my doctor's tomorrow afternoon.
hope you guys don't get too drunk, keep a bucket near by if you need to puke
I am perfectly fine... any rumors of me dancing and singing quieting in my chair to "not the future" and "bushes of love" while almost falling out of my chair are totally lies. But yeah I don't get sick eitherlmao what a strange video, that was the weirdest "restoration" ive ever seen.... im so confused at what he's doing!
I did not know about ramen noodle guitars haha but i have seen some pretty cool lapsteel designs. Did you start learning about that after seeing the restoration video?
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i had to stop drinking cause its late and im supposed to go do some blood work at my doctor's tomorrow afternoon.
hope you guys don't get too drunk, keep a bucket near by if you need to puke
LOL! Yeah, make sure you drink water so you don't get too dehydrated. That's how you keep from getting a headache the next day. I actually have some stuff that I take when I drink that rehydrate you really quickly and it's got salts (no SN though that I know of ) and all that kind of stuff in it that rehydrate you. So I can get fairly drunk and not usually have a hangover the next day.
yeah Normaly I never get hangovers except same day, and that's just asi get dehydrated that quick. i so cannot type or spell. I hope that makes sense.
Sleep well. I just gave Stan's thread a popcorn bump, but it probably needs bumped again. It seems to fall down the page really quickly, particularly when @Jean4 isn't here.
hmm.. might depend on how much? I mean yeah, to be honest, the guide has the basic guaranteed death quantity reguardless of weight (actually I think it's up to like 300lbs really--I'm paranoid, I checked once). But the accidental deaths have been as little as 1 gram, even possibly with eating, drinking, doing everything wrong. So who knows what it could do. Could be anything from death to tired, to just "nothing"
