CynicalHopelessness

CynicalHopelessness

Messenger of Silence
Jan 9, 2020
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Beer was a mistake. I'm feeling more suicidal after drinking.
 
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CynicalHopelessness

Messenger of Silence
Jan 9, 2020
940
Can you go back to bed and sleep it off?
I can sleep drunkness off, but no idea whether my dreams will make me less suicidal or more, so I think I'll stay conscious for the time being.
 
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CynicalHopelessness

CynicalHopelessness

Messenger of Silence
Jan 9, 2020
940
I don't dream
I thought we all dream, just rarely remember them?
I have this hypothesis where dreams can affect your emotional state just like real experience can, except you cannot remember the reason why you feel like you feel. That'd explain me waking up in not-shitty state and then remembering how crappy my life is getting back to depressed sometimes.
 
Jean4

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Remember. I am ALWAYS right.... until I’m not
Apr 28, 2019
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I thought we all dream, just rarely remember them?
I have this hypothesis where dreams can affect your emotional state just like real experience can, except you cannot remember the reason why you feel like you feel. That'd explain me waking up in not-shitty state and then remembering how crappy my life is getting back to depressed sometimes.
When I went for my sleep apnea study, I wake up before REM sleep where you dream. By not getting REM sleep, not only am I exhausted all the time, but I don't dream. Nothing can be done to fix it either... que Apple cider vinegar for energy lol.
 
CynicalHopelessness

CynicalHopelessness

Messenger of Silence
Jan 9, 2020
940
I guess my magic immunity prevents me from understanding these runes too, huh
 
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cosmicpixiedust

cosmicpixiedust

Pixie
Jun 5, 2019
972
"The sun was shining on the sea,
Shining with all his might:
He did his very best to make
The billows smooth and bright —
And this was odd, because it was
The middle of the night.

The moon was shining sulkily,
Because she thought the sun
Had got no business to be there
After the day was done —
"It's very rude of him," she said,
"To come and spoil the fun."

The sea was wet as wet could be,
The sands were dry as dry.
You could not see a cloud, because
No cloud was in the sky:
No birds were flying overhead —
There were no birds to fly.

The Walrus and the Carpenter
Were walking close at hand;
They wept like anything to see
Such quantities of sand:
If this were only cleared away,'
They said, it would be grand!'

If seven maids with seven mops
Swept it for half a year,
Do you suppose,' the Walrus said,
That they could get it clear?'
I doubt it,' said the Carpenter,
And shed a bitter tear.

O Oysters, come and walk with us!'
The Walrus did beseech.
A pleasant walk, a pleasant talk,
Along the briny beach:
We cannot do with more than four,
To give a hand to each.'

The eldest Oyster looked at him,
But never a word he said:
The eldest Oyster winked his eye,
And shook his heavy head —
Meaning to say he did not choose
To leave the oyster-bed.

But four young Oysters hurried up,
All eager for the treat:
Their coats were brushed, their faces washed,
Their shoes were clean and neat —
And this was odd, because, you know,
They hadn't any feet.

Four other Oysters followed them,
And yet another four;
And thick and fast they came at last,
And more, and more, and more —
All hopping through the frothy waves,
And scrambling to the shore.

The Walrus and the Carpenter
Walked on a mile or so,
And then they rested on a rock
Conveniently low:
And all the little Oysters stood
And waited in a row.

The time has come,' the Walrus said,
To talk of many things:
Of shoes — and ships — and sealing-wax —
Of cabbages — and kings —
And why the sea is boiling hot —
And whether pigs have wings.'

But wait a bit,' the Oysters cried,
Before we have our chat;
For some of us are out of breath,
And all of us are fat!'
No hurry!' said the Carpenter.
They thanked him much for that.

A loaf of bread,' the Walrus said,
Is what we chiefly need:
Pepper and vinegar besides
Are very good indeed —
Now if you're ready, Oysters dear,
We can begin to feed.'

But not on us!' the Oysters cried,
Turning a little blue.
After such kindness, that would be
A dismal thing to do!'
The night is fine,' the Walrus said.
Do you admire the view?

It was so kind of you to come!
And you are very nice!'
The Carpenter said nothing but
Cut us another slice:
I wish you were not quite so deaf —
I've had to ask you twice!'

It seems a shame,' the Walrus said,
To play them such a trick,
After we've brought them out so far,
And made them trot so quick!'
The Carpenter said nothing but
The butter's spread too thick!'

I weep for you,' the Walrus said:
I deeply sympathize.'
With sobs and tears he sorted out
Those of the largest size,
Holding his pocket-handkerchief
Before his streaming eyes.

O Oysters,' said the Carpenter,
You've had a pleasant run!
Shall we be trotting home again?'
But answer came there none —
And this was scarcely odd, because
They'd eaten every one."


Poetry because why not? lol

:edit: wowzers, that's long in a post!
 
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CynicalHopelessness

Messenger of Silence
Jan 9, 2020
940
It's The Walrus and the Carpenter by Lewis Carroll! :heart: One of my most favorites =P I figured no one would read it, but oh well. haha
I'm not too much into poetry anyway, and English not being my native language doesn't make it easier :wink:
 
Jean4

Jean4

Remember. I am ALWAYS right.... until I’m not
Apr 28, 2019
7,557
"The sun was shining on the sea,
Shining with all his might:
He did his very best to make
The billows smooth and bright —
And this was odd, because it was
The middle of the night.

The moon was shining sulkily,
Because she thought the sun
Had got no business to be there
After the day was done —
"It's very rude of him," she said,
"To come and spoil the fun."

The sea was wet as wet could be,
The sands were dry as dry.
You could not see a cloud, because
No cloud was in the sky:
No birds were flying overhead —
There were no birds to fly.

The Walrus and the Carpenter
Were walking close at hand;
They wept like anything to see
Such quantities of sand:
If this were only cleared away,'
They said, it would be grand!'

If seven maids with seven mops
Swept it for half a year,
Do you suppose,' the Walrus said,
That they could get it clear?'
I doubt it,' said the Carpenter,
And shed a bitter tear.

O Oysters, come and walk with us!'
The Walrus did beseech.
A pleasant walk, a pleasant talk,
Along the briny beach:
We cannot do with more than four,
To give a hand to each.'

The eldest Oyster looked at him,
But never a word he said:
The eldest Oyster winked his eye,
And shook his heavy head —
Meaning to say he did not choose
To leave the oyster-bed.

But four young Oysters hurried up,
All eager for the treat:
Their coats were brushed, their faces washed,
Their shoes were clean and neat —
And this was odd, because, you know,
They hadn't any feet.

Four other Oysters followed them,
And yet another four;
And thick and fast they came at last,
And more, and more, and more —
All hopping through the frothy waves,
And scrambling to the shore.

The Walrus and the Carpenter
Walked on a mile or so,
And then they rested on a rock
Conveniently low:
And all the little Oysters stood
And waited in a row.

The time has come,' the Walrus said,
To talk of many things:
Of shoes — and ships — and sealing-wax —
Of cabbages — and kings —
And why the sea is boiling hot —
And whether pigs have wings.'

But wait a bit,' the Oysters cried,
Before we have our chat;
For some of us are out of breath,
And all of us are fat!'
No hurry!' said the Carpenter.
They thanked him much for that.

A loaf of bread,' the Walrus said,
Is what we chiefly need:
Pepper and vinegar besides
Are very good indeed —
Now if you're ready, Oysters dear,
We can begin to feed.'

But not on us!' the Oysters cried,
Turning a little blue.
After such kindness, that would be
A dismal thing to do!'
The night is fine,' the Walrus said.
Do you admire the view?

It was so kind of you to come!
And you are very nice!'
The Carpenter said nothing but
Cut us another slice:
I wish you were not quite so deaf —
I've had to ask you twice!'

It seems a shame,' the Walrus said,
To play them such a trick,
After we've brought them out so far,
And made them trot so quick!'
The Carpenter said nothing but
The butter's spread too thick!'

I weep for you,' the Walrus said:
I deeply sympathize.'
With sobs and tears he sorted out
Those of the largest size,
Holding his pocket-handkerchief
Before his streaming eyes.

O Oysters,' said the Carpenter,
You've had a pleasant run!
Shall we be trotting home again?'
But answer came there none —
And this was scarcely odd, because
They'd eaten every one."


Poetry because why not? lol

:edit: wowzers, that's long in a post!
Now I want seafood at 10:21 am!
 
Jean4

Jean4

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Apr 28, 2019
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Doing real job work. Will shower and brush teeth when done.
 
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Jun 5, 2019
972
I'm about to take Pandora to get her stitches out, which is in another town. Then I should probably sleep since I have work at 5 pm cst.
 
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Jean4

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Apr 28, 2019
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Finished the big work project. I now have to shower and brush my teeth.. I don't want to.
 
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Squiddy

Here Lies My Hopes And Dreams
Sep 4, 2019
5,903
Woke up unfortunately
 
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Carina

Angelic
Dec 22, 2019
4,005
Conversations with my mom are like this sometimes:
Me: "What date is it due?"
Her: "Apple pies are yummy, pirates drink rum, sometimes pirates make pies with rum and coconut because they don't have apples. This can lead to nutritional deficiencies because they aren't eating enough fruit."
me: "Ok that's nice and all, but I just wanted the date"
Her: "It doesn't say a date"
me: (thinking) "then why TF did you just read that to me when none of it was a date?"
 
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Squiddy

Here Lies My Hopes And Dreams
Sep 4, 2019
5,903
So apparently, the Doomsday clock is at 100 seconds to midnight. Maybe it'll eventually kill me off. That'd be great :)
 
Carina

Carina

Angelic
Dec 22, 2019
4,005
So apparently, the Doomsday clock is at 100 seconds to midnight. Maybe it'll eventually kill me off. That'd be great :)
Apparently this is the closest it's ever been... now if the clock was literal. that'd be great.
 
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Jean4

Remember. I am ALWAYS right.... until I’m not
Apr 28, 2019
7,557
Showered and brushed my teeth. Back in bed.
 
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MysticPerception

MysticPerception

I'm back and I'll still smile for you
Dec 31, 2019
1,252
I am awake. I think Stan listened because I got less than 7 hours. Contrary to expectations I was woken up by loud happiness at my mother(their grandmother) being home so yeah. Then I went back to sleep but it took more than 30 minutes so that sucked. I am very tired and work today, not a very good start lol.
:edit: wowzers, that's long in a post!
I actually read all of it and recognized partway in that it was Alice in Wonderland. I still haven't read it but I remember that scene from the disney verison.
 
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Carina

Angelic
Dec 22, 2019
4,005
So the stupid dog ate my boots.... because instead of teaching the stupid thing to go outside to go to the bathroom (he's like 9 months-1yr I think now, he's been outside maybe 4 times to go)... and instead of teaching him to not eat socks, not eat eyes, not bite feet--she gives him socks to play with....

He effing drug out my boots, and ripped the back off them.

I then got yelled at because it's my fault.

Happy effing Saturday.
 
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