Jean4
Remember. I am ALWAYS right.... until I’m not
- Apr 28, 2019
- 7,557
Cleaned the cat box. 2:32 pm and my list is done. I just have real job stuff to do, and I don't feel like it.
Carina
Angelic
- Dec 22, 2019
- 4,005
Well.... got call from dr.....
There's nothing.... absolutely nothing
I have burning, can't breathe, non-stop draining, sneezing.... but... no explaination
rofl.... omg.... seriously.... and this is honestly one of the other reasons I wished there was a problem--because right now, there's no reason for it. I just have to deal with it forever.
There's nothing.... absolutely nothing
I have burning, can't breathe, non-stop draining, sneezing.... but... no explaination
rofl.... omg.... seriously.... and this is honestly one of the other reasons I wished there was a problem--because right now, there's no reason for it. I just have to deal with it forever.
Soulless_Angel
existence is futile
- Jul 10, 2019
- 2,225
Carina
Angelic
- Dec 22, 2019
- 4,005
MY friends and I would probably reply "you were supposed to chop it up and buying it in the lake in the woods" or some such thing
BlueWidow
Visionary
- Oct 6, 2019
- 2,179
Sorry @Carina, I certainly know how it feels to be waiting for results and then they tell you it's nothing, or they don't know what it is. Will they do any further testing, or is that it? Just " Sorry kid, we can't find anything so you just have to live with it now" or " We can't find anything wrong with you so you're obviously a hypochondriac".
Yes, they never expect you to be wishing for cancer, do they?
My list for today:
Get out of bed and straighten covers and pillows up— DONE
Wash face & get dressed & put in contact lenses so I can actually see something for a change— DONE
Next on my list is get coffee.
Later, once I'm awake enough and I know I won't fall in there, I have to take a shower.
Then I need you to remind me to go out and get my mail.
I'm going to put a note In the bathroom so I'll see it, so that after I'm done with my shower I can go out and get my mail. I'm dressed and everything right now, but I can't go out and get the mail because it's pouring rain. Hopefully it's gonna let up and I can go out later after my shower is done. This is why I haven't gotten my mail for the last week.
It's been nothing here but rain rain rain!
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Jean4
Remember. I am ALWAYS right.... until I’m not
- Apr 28, 2019
- 7,557
Carina
Angelic
- Dec 22, 2019
- 4,005
Well... not sure why bothering.... but making appointment with ENT. Again... as in this is the 3rd one I've been to... the last 2 I've been to for similar issues (before it got like this) said I had no issues. But whatever. Guess we're just doing laundry like with my head.
Oh but for testing @BlueWidow , it's just going to be tools up the nose with spray to numb... again.... been there done that.
Oh but for testing @BlueWidow , it's just going to be tools up the nose with spray to numb... again.... been there done that.
CynicalHopelessness
Messenger of Silence
- Jan 9, 2020
- 940
My list for today has been like this:
And I'm proud I've accomplished every single thing I intended to
And I'm proud I've accomplished every single thing I intended to
Jean4
Remember. I am ALWAYS right.... until I’m not
- Apr 28, 2019
- 7,557
Check in
@Root
@L0ne1ygh0st (May be in the hospital)
@Raven Moon
@Sensei
@Root
@L0ne1ygh0st (May be in the hospital)
@Raven Moon
@Sensei
Squiddy
Here Lies My Hopes And Dreams
- Sep 4, 2019
- 5,903
This reminds me of the time I had a polyp in my gallbladder. I was hoping it was cancerous, but the surgeon told me it wasn't and would go away with time
CynicalHopelessness
Messenger of Silence
- Jan 9, 2020
- 940
The good thing about my list is that I can keep the same sheet of paper for tomorrow :-)
Carina
Angelic
- Dec 22, 2019
- 4,005
One thing that almost confuses me in a sense, but not another, is how can an ENT do something that a DO can't, when all tests come back normal? There's literally nothing for him to do.
But whatever. not like I'd have an appointment before March/April anyway... and given some... Probably be May.
But whatever. not like I'd have an appointment before March/April anyway... and given some... Probably be May.
Jean4
Remember. I am ALWAYS right.... until I’m not
- Apr 28, 2019
- 7,557
If you can't do your list, add it to tomorrow. Rule is you must do one thing. Did you brush your teeth?
Have you decided what you are going to wear for your first day at partial?
I also wished for cancer when I first started getting sick. It was a documented risk and high probability, so I thought I'd found an easy way out.
such a shitty feeling.
BlueWidow
Visionary
- Oct 6, 2019
- 2,179
So are we all hoping for cancer? It seems like it.
Also, I think I've just officially entered a new phase of brain fog. I was counting out spoons of sugar as I put them in my coffee. I always put in two spoons. I forgot how much I had put in and had to look in the cup to see if I already put one spoon in. I can't even put two spoons of sugar in my coffee now without forgetting what I'm doing in the middle of it!
Also, I think I've just officially entered a new phase of brain fog. I was counting out spoons of sugar as I put them in my coffee. I always put in two spoons. I forgot how much I had put in and had to look in the cup to see if I already put one spoon in. I can't even put two spoons of sugar in my coffee now without forgetting what I'm doing in the middle of it!
CynicalHopelessness
Messenger of Silence
- Jan 9, 2020
- 940
Yeah, combining two empty lists still gives an empty list. One of the rules of programming :)
I'll pretend like I didn't notice the question about brushing teeth.
Carina
Angelic
- Dec 22, 2019
- 4,005
Omg... the dr they just refereed me to is in with one of the OTHER ENT'S I had been refereed to in the past.... but....
Seriously... what is the point? I can't even see the ENT unless both ENT's agree I can see the one now... so I might have to see the other one, meaning I'd see the other one again. Which is a massive 'What's the point?'
Seriously... what is the point? I can't even see the ENT unless both ENT's agree I can see the one now... so I might have to see the other one, meaning I'd see the other one again. Which is a massive 'What's the point?'
Jean4
Remember. I am ALWAYS right.... until I’m not
- Apr 28, 2019
- 7,557
Brush your teeth! That's an easy one. At least you accomplished something :)
BlueWidow
Visionary
- Oct 6, 2019
- 2,179
Okay, that was a little bit confusing and making me dizzy. You've just been referred to an ENT that you've already seen in the past, correct?
Sensei
剣道家
- Nov 4, 2019
- 6,336
I'm here. Yet another day in the realm.
CynicalHopelessness
Messenger of Silence
- Jan 9, 2020
- 940
I was actually in the middle of it already, and hey! I slept well and I'm going to try again.
Which means, yeah. Have a good one, everybody.
Carina
Angelic
- Dec 22, 2019
- 4,005
I'll use fake names: I was refered to ENT James, but I had seen ENT Rick. Rick and James work together in building A
Since I've been seen by Rick, but my doctor referred me to James, Rick and James now have to agree that I can see James, otherwise I'll have to be seen by Rick again to avoid issues since I had seen him and he has seniority.
BlueWidow
Visionary
- Oct 6, 2019
- 2,179
Ah, I think I understand now. So you have to deal with some kind of medical office politics just to be able to see a doctor. My SIL's son is a nurse and he told me that he quit working in a hospital for that reason (ie because of all the politics and backstabbing that goes on in medical facilities). He said people were always trying to sabotage each other's work and make each other look bad and so forth. Kind of makes me afraid to go to a hospital around here knowing that the staff is much more worried about making each other look bad in front of the senior doctor than they are about treating my illness.
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Jean4
Remember. I am ALWAYS right.... until I’m not
- Apr 28, 2019
- 7,557
BlueWidow
Visionary
- Oct 6, 2019
- 2,179
I guess he's planning on eating his way out! LOL! This is why I love squirrels. They're so funny and clever. I don't know if you've ever seen any of those videos were people set up obstacle courses that the squirrels have to overcome in order to get to the birdfeeder, but some of them are really funny. Of course, it sucks if what you're trying to do is feed the birds and not the squirrels.
Carina
Angelic
- Dec 22, 2019
- 4,005
I was kind of assuming he was going to eat it all, get fat, live there until he lost weight, then leave in the winter lol
Ok, first couple cigarettes smoked.
First drink of the day is poured. weed vaporizer is on. Ready to count down the hours until my CTB materials slowly arrive over the next week or so....
First drink of the day is poured. weed vaporizer is on. Ready to count down the hours until my CTB materials slowly arrive over the next week or so....
BlueWidow
Visionary
- Oct 6, 2019
- 2,179
Good plan I guess, then he gets all the food he needs & a place to live all at one time. Yeah, I guess it would be too cold to live there in the winter.
The waiting sucks. I hated the waiting. I'm not a very patient person to begin with, so I kept checking every day. Checking the computer and all that. It was excruciating. At least you seem to have some things there to help hold you together until your materials arrive.Ok, first couple cigarettes smoked.
First drink of the day is poured. weed vaporizer is on. Ready to count down the hours until my CTB materials slowly arrive over the next week or so....
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I'm doing the same. I still have some loose ends to tie up so i'm trying to do as much as i can in that small overlap of "my waking hours" with "regular business hours for functional people" lol.
I guess it is a good thing i have something to numb the pain and pass the time. I know you've had to watch such a process painfully and up close so i will spare you any more of the details.
BlueWidow
Visionary
- Oct 6, 2019
- 2,179
i'm trying to do as much as i can in that small overlap of "my waking hours" with "regular business hours for functional people" lol.
I can so relate to this. Seems like when I am awake and as functional as I can get, everyone else is sleeping or at least all the businesses are closed.
That's considerate of you to spare me the details of what you're going through, but if it's helpful for you to talk about it, I certainly don't mind listening.
