The Official 2020 Everything But The Kitchen Sink Post

[Root]

Anyone want me to grab them something to eat? I am about to head to the store.

Yeah chocolate would be nice. What are you gonna buy?

 

[cosmicpixiedust]

Hey guys, sorry to bother you again with the same issue I have. A certain guy friend of mine is willing to show affection to me (and everyone else, even those who aren't dating him). He seems to be the ideal guy whether as a friend or romantic partner. But idk why I feel that this is a scam. Like it's too good to be true for someone like him to freely give to me. I'm nothing special, I'm not attractive. This guy just seems too nice. I can't tell if this is a result of me overthinking. He seems to be "interested" in me but I have a feeling that he acts that way to everyone else. I honestly do not know what to do when he shows this "interest" in me, because I don't want to get into this trap if it is a trap. I have no plans to CTB so that means whenever I reach beyond my critical point again I won't be able to handle it.

Also, I can't understand why I'm unable to love myself enough. I mean I can take care of myself and stuff but I am simply not fond of myself. I really don't care about seeing my strengths and being confident. I'm unable to say "I don't need anybody, I have myself and that is all". This is, however, separate for my desire to be alone. What I'm saying is that I still desire love from a human being other than myself. Is this a bad thing?

No, it is not a bad thing. Even at a basic human level we all are driven to want companionship.

 

[Azzy69]

I'm still in bed trying to wake up. Coffee!

What type of coffee would you like? I might go for a flat white

Yeah chocolate would be nice. What are you gonna buy?

Ok I will find the biggest block. Coffee & croissants.

 

[Jean4]

What type of coffee would you like? I might go for a flat white

Ok I will find the biggest block. Coffee & croissants.

I'm weird. I put a scoop of protein powder in my coffee as creamer. That way if I don't eat, I have protein in me. Yesterday I ate too much lol

 

[Azzy69]

I'm weird. I put a scoop of protein powder in my coffee as creamer. That way if I don't eat, I have protein in me. Yesterday I ate too much lol

I sometimes make hot chocolate in the winter time and I may or may not put a fair few too many heaped tablespoons of cocoa in

 

[Jean4]

I sometimes make hot chocolate in the winter time and I may or may not put a fair few too many heaped tablespoons of cocoa in

It's good!!!

 

[Azzy69]

 

[Jean4]

List for today
Drink Apple Cider vinegar shot
Coffee
Shower and brush teeth (at least brush teeth)
Clean cat dishes and cat box
Trying something new. Make a menu with times I should eat and what.
Real job work

 

[Azzy69]

You got this!!

 

[CynicalHopelessness]

Also, I can't understand why I'm unable to love myself enough. I mean I can take care of myself and stuff but I am simply not fond of myself. I really don't care about seeing my strengths and being confident. I'm unable to say "I don't need anybody, I have myself and that is all". This is, however, separate for my desire to be alone. What I'm saying is that I still desire love from a human being other than myself. Is this a bad thing?

In the similar boat, struggling with self-love right now.

With me, I have lost my inner guide. I.e. I haven't felt what is good for me and what is bad for me, letting society decide what it was - having good grades, many friends, a partner, etc. pretty much nothing I thought I wanted gave me joy and anticipation, only anxiety, fear of missing out and self-pity for being a loser, which only reinforced my inability to love myself. In the end, I've realized that I've grown dependent on others to give me praise, as that was the only mechanism I could feel good about myself.

He seems to be the ideal guy whether as a friend or romantic partner. But idk why I feel that this is a scam. Like it's too good to be true for someone like him to freely give to me. I'm nothing special, I'm not attractive. This guy just seems too nice. I can't tell if this is a result of me overthinking. He seems to be "interested" in me but I have a feeling that he acts that way to everyone else. I honestly do not know what to do when he shows this "interest" in me, because I don't want to get into this trap if it is a trap.

Honestly, nobody can give you a clear answer on this topic, and you have to find an answer yourself. If you let go of fear of the future, would you give it a shot? Like, maybe flirt a bit and see how it goes. Why not experiment a bit, for a change?

And also, nobody is anything special, and you can't judge how attractive or not you are in the eyes of other people, unless they are quite literally looking for a meatbag dressed in gold.

 

[Jean4]

Drank the apple cider vinegar (SN would taste better)
Made coffee
Cleaned cat dishes
Back in bed

 

[CynicalHopelessness]

@Jean4 how does the bed feel? :з

 

[Jean4]

@Jean4 how does the bed feel? :з

It's my best friend. I never leave it!

 

[CynicalHopelessness]

It's my best friend. I never leave it!

I can totally relate to that . Though I leave mine sometimes, I often go to enjoy it in the middle of the day (even if I'm working, ha!)

 

[Jean4]

I can totally relate to that . Though I leave mine sometimes, I often go to enjoy it in the middle of the day (even if I'm working, ha!)

I'm lucky. I work from home. Right from my bed!

 

[CynicalHopelessness]

I'm lucky. I work from home. Right from my bed!

From home too, but I prefer table since placing a large screen on the bed is hard and unstable

 

[Jean4]

From home too, but I prefer table since placing a large screen on the bed is hard and unstable

From my bed

 

[CynicalHopelessness]

Yeah, not large enough for me.

Found myself enjoying the song so much I started singing along, and then I felt like a bite of "it's not serious, stop". Had to press on and kept singing. Internalized dogmas can fuck off, I'm having fun on my Sunday

 

[Jean4]

Yeah, not large enough for me.

Found myself enjoying the song so much I started singing along, and then I felt like a bite of "it's not serious, stop". Had to press on and kept singing. Internalized dogmas can fuck off, I'm having fun on my Sunday

Fun is good!!!!

 

[CynicalHopelessness]

Fun is good!!!!

Yeah. But I have so much destructive fears and anxieties internalized, it's like I forget how fun feels sometimes.

 

[Jean4]

Yeah. But I have so much destructive fears and anxieties internalized, it's like I forget how fun feels sometimes.

Join the club. Enjoy it when you can. I do understand how you feel.

 

[CynicalHopelessness]

The club?
I'm gonna enjoy it every chance I get and I won't fears that were pushed onto me stand in my way anymore. Or at least, I'm going to try my best to not let them.

 

[Jean4]

The club?
I'm gonna enjoy it every chance I get and I won't fears that were pushed onto me stand in my way anymore. Or at least, I'm going to try my best to not let them.

The destructive fears and anxieties. I have them too. Post when something works out. I will then try it.

Because of you. I am now going to take a shower. I am going to turn on the radio and sing in the shower lol. Thank you for the idea!

 

[CynicalHopelessness]

I am now going to take a shower. I am going to turn on the radio and sing in the shower lol. Thank you for the idea!

Ha, good luck. Maybe we should start a band.

 

[Carina]

I'm awake. Up... And trying the suppress the urge to clean out drawers.

Really shouldn't have taken my pills on an empty stomach, but nothing looked good.

 

[WhyIsLife56]

I have a strong urge to just be lazy

 

[CynicalHopelessness]

I have a strong urge to just be lazy

I came to think that laziness is just a natural defense mechanism against forcing youself to live the life you subconsciously don't want :)

 

[WhyIsLife56]

I came to think that laziness is just a natural defense mechanism against forcing youself to live the life you subconsciously don't want :)

It actually is. I came to think of it that way a long time ago :)

 

[BooGirl]

I scheduled the tutoring session to be in about 2 hours. I have no idea how it's gonna go. I've prepared as much as I could, but I have no idea if that's enough.

 

[Carina]

I scheduled the tutoring session to be in about 2 hours. I have no idea how it's gonna go. I've prepared as much as I could, but I have no idea if that's enough.

It'll be fine :) Be confident, relax, and it may just be natural :)