Hey guys, sorry to bother you again with the same issue I have. A certain guy friend of mine is willing to show affection to me (and everyone else, even those who aren't dating him). He seems to be the ideal guy whether as a friend or romantic partner. But idk why I feel that this is a scam. Like it's too good to be true for someone like him to freely give to me. I'm nothing special, I'm not attractive. This guy just seems too nice. I can't tell if this is a result of me overthinking. He seems to be "interested" in me but I have a feeling that he acts that way to everyone else. I honestly do not know what to do when he shows this "interest" in me, because I don't want to get into this trap if it is a trap. I have no plans to CTB so that means whenever I reach beyond my critical point again I won't be able to handle it.
Also, I can't understand why I'm unable to love myself enough. I mean I can take care of myself and stuff but I am simply not fond of myself. I really don't care about seeing my strengths and being confident. I'm unable to say "I don't need anybody, I have myself and that is all". This is, however, separate for my desire to be alone. What I'm saying is that I still desire love from a human being other than myself. Is this a bad thing?