CynicalHopelessness
Messenger of Silence
- Jan 9, 2020
- 940
Honestly, felt the same for a long time. And you can retire at any age of your choice! (I even have some savings if I want to just go nuts after leaving work)
BlueWidow
Visionary
- Oct 6, 2019
- 2,179
I have a similar pattern in my family. My mother was only 41 when she died. I've had three sisters die at ages 34, 52, and 56 respectively. I am 50 and I have a niece who is 52, so she's now at the age when her mother died. She and I were having a discussion how none of the women in our family make it out of their 50s alive.
Of course, she was discussing it from the viewpoint that she was worried about dying.
I, of course, couldn't express my ideas that I find the idea of not making it out of my 50s comforting. However, since I just turned 50 last year, I don't want to have to wait for nature to take it's course. I'd rather help it along. I had really hoped that I would've died by this point already. I didn't even want to make it to 50, and I certainly don't want to make it to 51.
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Sensei
剣道家
- Nov 4, 2019
- 6,336
Why the kamikaze mode, brother? I thought your life situation had stabilized. Be that as it may, it's perhaps a good idea to get hammered tonight, but not to maim yourself in a car accident. Stay cool.
As you implied in another post, we need to fight to stay human. We tend to become so obsessed with our own suffering that we forget that others can suffer too. It's probably better to focus on other people's pain so that we can forget our own. That's my two cents, anyway.
Jean4
Remember. I am ALWAYS right.... until I’m not
- Apr 28, 2019
- 7,557
Carina
Angelic
- Dec 22, 2019
- 4,005
Bonded? Did you do your magical stuff again?He's fine now. We bonded.
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BlueWidow
Visionary
- Oct 6, 2019
- 2,179
BooGirl
Warlock
- Jan 10, 2020
- 750
I've been studying like crazy for the tutoring work. Going kind of well! I'm still worried that I won't have the correct breadth of knowledge, but we'll see.
Jean4
Remember. I am ALWAYS right.... until I’m not
- Apr 28, 2019
- 7,557
You know I'm here for you too.I'm glad he's feeling better. You rock @Jean4!
Boooooooo! You know more than you think you know, and you got this! I'm proud of you!
BooGirl
Warlock
- Jan 10, 2020
- 750
Studying more for this than my actual class lol, crazy what a cash incentive could do
Carina
Angelic
- Dec 22, 2019
- 4,005
I'm trying to resist the urge to dump everything into the garbage without looking.
So tempting... so tempting......
So tempting... so tempting......
Being paid to do stuff is fun :D
SlackJim
Nothing lasts, but nothing is lost
- Sep 30, 2019
- 226
This is the best album artwork I have come across in a while, I really like it.
BlueWidow
Visionary
- Oct 6, 2019
- 2,179
Carina
Angelic
- Dec 22, 2019
- 4,005
Kind of worried about @Jean4 's magical abilities for..... reasons....
lol
Unrelated, just watched a cool video of human cremation from body->handoff in box... was cool.
cosmicpixiedust
Pixie
- Jun 5, 2019
- 972
I have a similar pattern in my family. My mother was only 41 when she died. I've had three sisters die at ages 34, 52, and 56 respectively. I am 50 and I have a niece who is 52, so she's now at the age when her mother died. She and I were having a discussion how none of the women in our family make it out of their 50s alive.
Of course, she was discussing it from the viewpoint that she was worried about dying.
I, of course, couldn't express my ideas that I find the idea of not making it out of my 50s comforting. However, since I just turned 50 last year, I don't want to have to wait for nature to take it's course. I'd rather help it along. I had really hoped that I would've died by this point already. I didn't even want to make it to 50, and I certainly don't want to make it to 51.
That's a very interesting pattern. Is it random? I could imagine it'd be concerning for someone who isn't suicidal. Sorry for the delay in responding, I was getting ready for work. A little too early, apparently. Second time I've done that this week. Lol. My roommate is annoyed, understandably.
BlueWidow
Visionary
- Oct 6, 2019
- 2,179
Yes, We'll have to find a way to keep @Jean4's powers aligned with The Force. Don't want her joining the Dark Side! LOL!
Was that "Ask A Mortician" on YouTube? She may be other places as well. I've been watching some of her videos and, yes it's kind of morbid, but it's also very interesting. She has lots of different videos where she discusses what happens to the body when it's being cremated and answers people's questions and so forth. She had another interesting episode where she discussed all the things that happened to Eva Peron's body after she died. Apparently her corpse went on quite an adventure.
Carina
Angelic
- Dec 22, 2019
- 4,005
Hmm... wasn't her specifically, I've seen her before though I believe. I just looked for "cremation human " and something, and found a video.
BlueWidow
Visionary
- Oct 6, 2019
- 2,179
No need to rush to respond. I'll still be here for a while longer. In most of the cases, my family members had illnesses that they just refused to get treatment for. I think many of my family secretly harbor the same suicidal ideations that I do. However, due to the fact that most of them are very religious, they wouldn't just come out and end their lives. But I think they see a free pass in getting an illness and just not getting treatment for it. Seems like a very hard way to go though, just letting yourself die of some horrific illness, like cancer for example. My mom and sister both died of breast cancer and it was horrible in both cases. Another sister died in a car accident, but it was later revealed that she also had both breast and colon cancer and they found papers in which she had refused treatment for both illnesses, so she would've died anyway. Final sister had diabetes and other untreated illnesses.
cosmicpixiedust
Pixie
- Jun 5, 2019
- 972
Carina
Angelic
- Dec 22, 2019
- 4,005
Sometimes I wonder....
-- you want to die, people try to stop you because suicide, and doctors can't help
-- you refuse treatment that will result in death , people are sad, doctors wish luck and give whatever pain meds you want.
Especially when the wanting to die is due to medical/etc reasons.
-- you want to die, people try to stop you because suicide, and doctors can't help
-- you refuse treatment that will result in death , people are sad, doctors wish luck and give whatever pain meds you want.
Especially when the wanting to die is due to medical/etc reasons.
Jean4
Remember. I am ALWAYS right.... until I’m not
- Apr 28, 2019
- 7,557
MysticPerception
I'm back and I'll still smile for you
- Dec 31, 2019
- 1,252
Something something something illness is inescapable in their minds so they willingly accept people wanting to avoid treatment that will most likely prolong their suffering vs stop being a big baby and suffer like the rest of us how dare you try to kill yourself when there's nothing actually wrong with you. Ugh I'm getting sick just thinking about this now.
Carina
Angelic
- Dec 22, 2019
- 4,005
MysticPerception
I'm back and I'll still smile for you
- Dec 31, 2019
- 1,252
Don't blame yourself I'm just overwhelmed with stress today. My sister has been running me around like a mule it feels like I have a second job between that and randomly having to entertain a child for possibly 10 minutes to two hours I'm completely exhausted. I feel so worn out despite eating properly and having caffenine. I keep trying to enjoy my normal hobbies but nothing is keeping my interest and my motivation is dead. At least this place still provides some comfort.
Carina
Angelic
- Dec 22, 2019
- 4,005
PwincessStepford apparently just took SN... the goodbye thread exist, but... I think it's been taken or is soon
MysticPerception
I'm back and I'll still smile for you
- Dec 31, 2019
- 1,252
Thanks for letting us know. It looks like she needed a little encouragement.
Carina
Angelic
- Dec 22, 2019
- 4,005
It was a bit confusing at first, I got one impression from one place, another from another--so wasn't sure which way was which.
that is, in the either 'making' or 'probably took'
that is, in the either 'making' or 'probably took'
Jean4
Remember. I am ALWAYS right.... until I’m not
- Apr 28, 2019
- 7,557
Carina
Angelic
- Dec 22, 2019
- 4,005
BlueWidow
Visionary
- Oct 6, 2019
- 2,179
I know it's hard to keep up appearances for people, especially when you really don't feel well. And yes I could see how having to entertain children would be extremely draining. It's draining me just thinking about it. Sending love and hugs.
cosmicpixiedust
Pixie
- Jun 5, 2019
- 972
Wow, I'm sorry to hear about their illnesses and that they didn't get treatment (if they wanted to live, if not then I understand). Sometimes it's hard for religious people to admit to being suicidal or having ideations, which is unfortunate. I hate that there is such a stigma to it all. Anyway, I also see it as a horrific way to go. If I ever get a terminal illness then I know it'll be my time at some point shortly after.
I watched my mom smoke herself to death after being diagnosed with emphysema and COPD, and watched her many suicide attempts and cries for help. I still don't understand it all, I just know that my mother was very mentally ill and sick from smoking and wouldn't quit. I don't see why she would continue to smoke, but I guess if she was suicidal and unhappy then why not? I don't fully understand it yet because of all the trauma she has caused in my life, but I think as a pro choice adult I kind of do.
