The Call of the Void VS The Call of Life

[FreedomElsewhere]

I was planning on spending my 3 days off of work to CTB via SN, but I find myself finding any minute reason to not attempt. I've already been faster for about 19 hours now -so I have that covered. I've been re-reading over and over my protocol and I can't help but pause and spiral wondering if everything is in order.

I've been wrestling with whether or not I should go ahead and CBT instead of paying off my credit card debt. I could probably clear it in 2 months. I don't doubt I won't get another 3 days off of work, but hey, I've got it now.

I revised my SN protocol so it'll be more aligned to the PPEH, but I don't have access to the benzodiazepine. Can someone tell me if 30 mg of risperidone will be enough of a antiemetic for the SN to absorbed?

My revised protocol for SN is:

Time	Med	Dosage
Fast for at least 8 hours. Clear liquids ok.
Start	antiemetic (hydroxyzineor risperidone)	30 mg
Wait 40 minutes
	Make SN Drink	25 g in 50 - 100 ml of plain water
	Benzodiazepine Drink (oxazepam)	Crushed: 20 X 30 mg tablets. Mix with water until a drinkable solution is made
Drink SN
Drink Benzo Drink

My old plan was:

Time	Med	Dosage
Fast and do not drink for at least 8 hours
1 hr before SN	Ibuprofen / any painkiller	600 mg
45 minutes before drinking SN	Risperidone	30 mg
30 minutes before drinking SN	Antacid	Double dosage
	SN Drink	25 g in 50 - 100 ml of plain water
	Hydroxizine	30 mg

 

[dust-in-the-wind]

If you are wrestling with CTB I'd say it's not your time. You need to be absolutely certain as there is no coming back.