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RadioGaga

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Jul 7, 2025
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Many people are former Christians and Catholics. However I was not raised as them. I was basically raised under spirituality and the idea of life review that when you die there is no hell. Go to the light(HELL NO FOR ME! :(.), get a life review where you'll feel every ounce of pain you've inflicted upon others whether directly or not. And then, here's the REAL terrifying part! If you CTB, you'll be peer pressed by supposed "all loving and empathetic" beings into reincarnating to go through the same pain you've experienced in your life in order to grow your soul in the afterlife.

I keep on finding flaws and terrible things to point out in these beliefs but DAMN IT! I'm still terrified of it might being true! :(.

Like I just want a peaceful non existence, not to be forced back into another life of torment because I checked out too early! 😭😭😭.

Part of me thinks that this is humanities way of trying to protect themselves and stay alive because suicide is naturally taboo and anyone who does it will make
People uncomfortable and miserable and probably jealous knowing that that person had the balls to CTB. Because in Christianity or Catholicism it's that you burn in hell but atleast with that that god won't force you to reincarnate on earth or peer pressure you. And hell! He'll just destroy your soul always! :). Basically a mercy compared to this spirituality stuff where basically you're forced to suffer until you become "one with the universe" or some cruel bullshit like that! :(.
 
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Rihan

We alone are the true gods of this world
Jan 11, 2026
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I was raised in an Islamic household. When I was taught about Hell as a child, I was really traumatized. Even though I don't believe in Islam anymore, I still have a small fear of it being true. It's crazy how brainwashed we can get.

The following video significantly helped me with my fear of Hell. You say that you have already found flaws in the concept of Hell, but perhaps this might help you be more confident about whether or not it's real.

 
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RadioGaga

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Jul 7, 2025
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I was raised in an Islamic household. When I was taught about Hell as a child, I was really traumatized. Even though I don't believe in Islam anymore, I still have a small fear of it being true. It's crazy how brainwashed we can get.

The following video significantly helped me with my fear of Hell. You say that you have already found flaws in the concept of Hell, but perhaps this might help you be more confident about whether or not it's real.


Well it's not about hell. I was just talking about Christianity and Catholicism when it came to hell but spirituality is a different story with different cruelties that I'm TERRIFIED of facing, for even though there is no hell, you'll basically by "loving and empathetic beings" be peer pressured after going through a life review where you'll be forced to endure the pain you've made others feel indirectly or directly and then afterwards peer pressured into reincarnating to reface the pain and suffering you couldn't handle anymore on earth! :(. Pretty cruel if you ask me! Yet I know it's flawed but again, I'm STILL TERRIFIED of it being true! 😭😭😭. :(.
 
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Rihan

We alone are the true gods of this world
Jan 11, 2026
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Well it's not about hell. I was just talking about Christianity and Catholicism when it came to hell but spirituality is a different story with different cruelties that I'm TERRIFIED of facing, for even though there is no hell, you'll basically by "loving and empathetic beings" be peer pressured after going through a life review where you'll be forced to endure the pain you've made others feel indirectly or directly and then afterwards peer pressured into reincarnating to reface the pain and suffering you couldn't handle anymore on earth! :(. Pretty cruel if you ask me! Yet I know it's flawed but again, I'm STILL TERRIFIED of it being true! 😭😭😭. :(.
I get you... That sounds like a horrible afterlife. Unfortunately it's hard to completely get rid of such a fear when it's the belief you've been raised in. I hope that you manage to become a little less afraid of it as time passes. :(
 
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SDB

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There is no such thing
 
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moon2bright

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Apr 11, 2026
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Don't worry, there isn't one.
 
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LilGhost

Shark
Apr 8, 2026
80
There is no way every being goes through pain when exists? I was born chronically ill and my childhood... wasnt chill. If there is a reincarnation, wont that mean there is a chance for us to be born healthy and with bright future?
Imho, Im more terrified by hell. I hate pain. And in christianity, ctb = hell. I dont wanna die just to expirience even worser pain.
I hope if there is life after death, it would feel like being nowhere and feeling peace. Or like under a blanket in a room your consciousness created. Whats yours perfect afterlife then?
 
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RadioGaga

Experienced
Jul 7, 2025
229
There is no way every being goes through pain when exists? I was born chronically ill and my childhood... wasnt chill. If there is a reincarnation, wont that mean there is a chance for us to be born healthy and with bright future?
Imho, Im more terrified by hell. I hate pain. And in christianity, ctb = hell. I dont wanna die just to expirience even worser pain.
I hope if there is life after death, it would feel like being nowhere and feeling peace. Or like under a blanket in a room your consciousness created. Whats yours perfect afterlife then?
Literally nothingness! :(. I'm just so Fucking tired and done man! :(.
 
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LilGhost

Shark
Apr 8, 2026
80
Literally nothingness! :(. I'm just so Fucking tired and done man! :(.
So true. Man I so hope Mikhail Bulgakov was right in Master and margarita when he wrote "everyone will be given according to his faith" ;-;. Sometimes I so hope his version of christianity was canon
 
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SoverignDreamer97

I am never alone.
Mar 29, 2026
229
There are four rules:

1. You cannot experience death, for it would be like being put under anesthesia.

2. Suicide is not a sin which leads to hell (separation), but rather it is unbelief. (John 3:16)

3. In spite of all you do to make your exit foolproof, there is always a one percent chance you'll survive because it simply "wasn't your time yet".

4. The world hates liabilities, and would rather they not exist, yet the rules dictate that all life is inherently valuable.

Therefore, as Suncha Ferriera from the Victus Group commands, "control the things you can control," for whoever has, to then more will be given until they have it abundantly, but those that do not have, even what they think they have shall be taken from them. (Matthew 13:12)
 
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tomame

forlorn 💔
Dec 28, 2025
202
i hope to live in a purgatory of others that have committed suicide like in the movie wrist cutters, being a ghost, or complete nothingness.
but definitely not hell .. though i don't feel worthy enough to go to heaven

who the hell knows
 

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