Schaf
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- Oct 6, 2021
- 20
I wanted to make a big post, tell my story, but I don't have enough time.
I just want to tell what I'm taking and how I am taking, since I'm a benzo addict.
Unfortunately there is a chance to be found, this goes against any advices, but I have no money for going to a hotel, also, I'm known for my suicidal attempts by many people, that would cause even more fuss and alarm.
What I need to tell is this:
- fasting is easy for me, I have ED, my last meal was a 60 calories cereal bar, at the time of CTB, it will be 14 hours since last meal
- Chlorpromazine:
it is both an AE and also sleep inducing, for those who are benzo addicts it might work better. My body couldn't stand the Metoclopramide, I passed out before even taking the SN first time I tried. But this one I mentioned, I have bad insomnia, might be the one since it works both ways. So NO metoclopramide: chlorpromazine, whole bottle 30 minutes before. (I'm afraid of being caught, otherwise I would wait 1 hour, which is the time to induce sleep - even though i dont sleep...)
- and here goes where I'm stupid: I don't have a good way to know how many SN I'm putting in the cup, so yup, I'll know just by my cooking skills tell what 20g might somehow looks like. 3 cups gonna be prepared
- going to use a straw, hopefully I can stand the saltyness bc even salty food is hard for me to eat. But I'll do my best lol
- then I'll eat for about 90 xanax, hence, this is just because of the thread, 90 xanax is not enough to kick me down. Don't get addicted kids, tolerance is sheiße. (It doesn't really matter which benzo you use if you're an addict with high tolerance, just clarifying, you will have tolerance for all of them, there's no "right benzo" for addicts in this case)
- if I fail because of vomit it will be most likely SN is not a good method for me because of my stomach issues (can't process food properly)
I still have a few hours left and I'll just live like nothing is going to happen. Play Persona 3, these stuff. I'll check now and then this thread.
If I don't get back in about 1 or 2 months it's because I had been successful. I was committed in the psych ward once so I imagine if I survive the hospital + ward will take a few weeks. But if I survive I'll let u guys know. :)
If I just keep talking today or tomorrow it's because I will try another day since it's my choice. I'll keep the post to help benzo addicts though (just please mods don't delete my account haha)
Also: fuck you BBC
I just want to tell what I'm taking and how I am taking, since I'm a benzo addict.
Unfortunately there is a chance to be found, this goes against any advices, but I have no money for going to a hotel, also, I'm known for my suicidal attempts by many people, that would cause even more fuss and alarm.
What I need to tell is this:
- fasting is easy for me, I have ED, my last meal was a 60 calories cereal bar, at the time of CTB, it will be 14 hours since last meal
- Chlorpromazine:
it is both an AE and also sleep inducing, for those who are benzo addicts it might work better. My body couldn't stand the Metoclopramide, I passed out before even taking the SN first time I tried. But this one I mentioned, I have bad insomnia, might be the one since it works both ways. So NO metoclopramide: chlorpromazine, whole bottle 30 minutes before. (I'm afraid of being caught, otherwise I would wait 1 hour, which is the time to induce sleep - even though i dont sleep...)
- and here goes where I'm stupid: I don't have a good way to know how many SN I'm putting in the cup, so yup, I'll know just by my cooking skills tell what 20g might somehow looks like. 3 cups gonna be prepared
- going to use a straw, hopefully I can stand the saltyness bc even salty food is hard for me to eat. But I'll do my best lol
- then I'll eat for about 90 xanax, hence, this is just because of the thread, 90 xanax is not enough to kick me down. Don't get addicted kids, tolerance is sheiße. (It doesn't really matter which benzo you use if you're an addict with high tolerance, just clarifying, you will have tolerance for all of them, there's no "right benzo" for addicts in this case)
- if I fail because of vomit it will be most likely SN is not a good method for me because of my stomach issues (can't process food properly)
I still have a few hours left and I'll just live like nothing is going to happen. Play Persona 3, these stuff. I'll check now and then this thread.
If I don't get back in about 1 or 2 months it's because I had been successful. I was committed in the psych ward once so I imagine if I survive the hospital + ward will take a few weeks. But if I survive I'll let u guys know. :)
If I just keep talking today or tomorrow it's because I will try another day since it's my choice. I'll keep the post to help benzo addicts though (just please mods don't delete my account haha)
Also: fuck you BBC
