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KleinerWolf

KleinerWolf

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Apr 30, 2020
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Ok so the SN didn't arrive, have taken the risky way out. Now just have to wait 5 days to see if works or not. I can't be this cursed being unlucky surely
SN seized by custom?
 
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Sherri

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Sep 28, 2020
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Ok so the SN didn't arrive, have taken the risky way out. Now just have to wait 5 days to see if works or not. I can't be this cursed being unlucky surely
Gromit, I might be younger than you, I'm not religious or anything. But I'll be honest with you like I always am. Negative energies create negative energies, meaning the more you panic about the item didn't arrive the more it will be delayed. Please think positive just one day at least, please? :aw: :heart:
 
Gromit-CTB

Gromit-CTB

time for ctb
Nov 14, 2020
847
SN ceased by custom?
Nope got through. Delivery was yesterday and didn't turn up, not arrived today either. So not waiting any longer
Gromit, I might be younger than you, I'm not religious or anything. But I'll be honest with you like I always am. Negative energies create negative energies, meaning the more you panic about the item didn't arrive the more it will be delayed. Please think positive just one day at least, please? :aw: :heart:
I get that but to late now, munched my little yoghurt mix. Now to wait out the effects and hopeful end
 
Sherri

Sherri

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Sep 28, 2020
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Nope got through. Delivery was yesterday and didn't turn up, not arrived today either. So not waiting any longer

I get that but to late now, munched my little yoghurt mix. Now to wait out the effects and hopeful end
What did you take this time hun? Please don't do anything irrational.
If it's already in the same city, it won't be long.

some couriers need a few days to have it delivered,
Sometimes because of weekends,
But I think you will receive it soon.
Thanks stroke, I don't know what to say anymore to have Gromit to relax a bit. Seems now he took something with yogurt. :aw:
 
yive

yive

life is evil
Nov 6, 2020
696
Ok so the SN didn't arrive, have taken the risky way out. Now just have to wait 5 days to see if works or not. I can't be this cursed being unlucky surely
i know that my words, alas, will not help you, but know that i'm with you in this situation, i feel you, understand your despair and sincerely sympathize with you.

it really hurts me to know that you have chosen such a painful method, but...
good luck. and know that you deserve the best :heart:

i hope i can join you soon on your journey...
 
Sherri

Sherri

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Sep 28, 2020
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What "risky" method did you do? I'm sorry it didn't arrive but what If it just needs more time to get to you?:((
Ricin he said. I dunno what that is...
 
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Leiden

Specialist
Sep 1, 2020
347
Ricin he said. I dunno what that is..
Ok, just looked it up

Ricin is a lectin and a highly potent toxin produced in the seeds of the castor oil plant, Ricinus communis. A dose of purified ricin powder the size of a few grains of table salt can kill an adult human
 
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Sherri

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Sep 28, 2020
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Ok, just looked it up

Ricin is a lectin and a highly potent toxin produced in the seeds of the castor oil plant, Ricinus communis. A dose of purified ricin powder the size of a few grains of table salt can kill an adult human
Yes I Googled that also and that's what it says. But he also took that 2 days ago. I just hope he doesn't suffer.
 
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Spitfire

Enlightened
Apr 26, 2020
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Ok so the SN didn't arrive, have taken the risky way out. Now just have to wait 5 days to see if works or not. I can't be this cursed being unlucky surely
Please take this for what it is worth.

If it gets to be too much for you, you can always go to the hospital. I am not saying to be saved, but to go for relief. If you start suffering with suffocation, they can intubate you and put you to sleep in a medical coma.

I do not think the hospital would be able to save you? They can only provide supportive care and there is no antidote. If the effects become too much to handle they could help you to be more comfortable though.

I am sorry to be speaking like this, as I am unfamiliar with basically everything about this method. I am worried for you and this is what came to mind to say.

I will be hoping for the best for you and I am really sorry Gromit.
 
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Ghost2211

Archangel
Jan 20, 2020
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Ah, took the seed route huh? Rosary peas? I hope things go ok for you, and honestly if the SN shows up it's still an option.
Please take this for what it is worth.

If it gets to be too much for you, you can always go to the hospital. I am not saying to be saved, but to go for relief. If you start suffering with suffocation, they can intubate you and put you to sleep in a medical coma.

I do not think the hospital would be able to save you? They can only provide supportive care and there is no antidote. If the effects become too much to handle they could help you to be more comfortable though.

I am sorry to be speaking like this, as I am unfamiliar with basically everything about this method. I am worried for you and this is what came to mind to say.

I will be hoping for the best for you and I am really sorry Gromit.
If it was rosary peas there is nothing that can be done to stop it.
 
Gromit-CTB

Gromit-CTB

time for ctb
Nov 14, 2020
847
Still here, no effects as of yet but onset will be about 6 hours for first signs. Will go hospital if pain is to bad but know they can do nothing now. Ctb will be 3-5 days if I'm lucky. Knowing the luck I have had in life even this won't kill me
 
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Ghost2211

Archangel
Jan 20, 2020
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Still here, no effects as of yet but onset will be about 6 hours for first signs. Will go hospital if pain is to bad but know they can do nothing now. Ctb will be 3-5 days if I'm lucky. Knowing the luck I have had in life even this won't kill me
They can't stop it but they can make it easier assuming it's absorbed enough. How many did you eat?
 
Meditation guide

Meditation guide

Always was, is, and always shall be.
Jun 22, 2020
6,091
Ricen from castor beans? Did they taste good, were they ground up, or eaten whole?
 
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Gromit-CTB

time for ctb
Nov 14, 2020
847
They can't stop it but they can make it easier assuming it's absorbed enough. How many did you eat?
Cake mush of 108 castor beans in yoghurt, all oil drained and dried the mush as best I could over 24 hours and a little warming in oven. If I can't take the pain I will go hospital but I want to sit this out as long as possible. Don't want a failure again
Ricen from castor beans? Did they taste good, were they ground up, or eaten whole?
They didn't taste to bad to be honest. They were crushed, drained and dried as best I could
 
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Ghost2211

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Jan 20, 2020
6,024
Cake mush of 108 castor beans in yoghurt, all oil drained and dried the mush as best I could over 24 hours and a little warming in oven. If I can't take the pain I will go hospital but I want to sit this out as long as possible. Don't want a failure again

They didn't taste to bad to be honest. They were crushed, drained and dried as best I could
Hmm, don't know if supportive care can help you survive those, it might.
 
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Meditation guide

Meditation guide

Always was, is, and always shall be.
Jun 22, 2020
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I had a packet of caster beans for gardening. They were large hard beans. Only about ten were in the packet.

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darksideofthebright

darksideofthebright

Check in on your happy friend
Nov 10, 2020
251
I'm so sorry that everything's got to the point as if the universe is against you. :aw: You know that we will be here to support you until your last days, and now that you've already taken the castor beans, it might be best to just get distracted by talking to us (or just anything that interests you in the slightest) and not focus too much on what the symptoms will be like, because it might lead to hysterical pains.

Like everyone said, even if there's not much the hospital can do with ricin, they will be able to help with managing the pain, if it gets too bad. Royal Mail has been rubbish at times, so it might take until tomorrow or Monday for your SN to arrive. Hopefully, it arrives soon enough for you so you can be more at ease. I hope you can find your peace soon! I'm so sorry you've taken such an uncomfortable route. :hug:
 

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