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franos666

franos666

Depressed
May 20, 2026
12
How does drinking alcohol affects your suicidal thoughts? I noticed that every time I drink alcohol I start thinking more intensively about killing myself and I talk with people around me about a suicide. Yesterday I was telling my friend how I would kill myself and I told him what type of rope I would use and how you have to tie it. When I was going back home I was looking at the river and just imagining I am drowning.
 
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E4syW3y0u7

E4syW3y0u7

Wasted it all.
May 19, 2026
159
It definetely exacerbate the urge to do it for sure, makes sense since drinking takes away your inhibition.

Makes me want it to be done already even more and i just freak out about the thoughts that have been eating me alive till i pass out.
 
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Michelstaedter

Michelstaedter

Specialist
Feb 25, 2025
330
What a coincidence, I feel the same way; it gives me a certain euphoria, making me think I could actually do it. But a few weeks ago, I did the same thing for the first time, only I told my sister, I talked to her about SaSu and the SN.

By the way, keep in mind that I took clonazepam that day.
 
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franos666

franos666

Depressed
May 20, 2026
12
What a coincidence, I feel the same way; it gives me a certain euphoria, making me think I could actually do it. But a few weeks ago, I did the same thing for the first time, only I told my sister, I talked to her about SaSu and the SN.

By the way, keep in mind that I took clonazepam that day.
I love your profile picture <3
I also take psychiatric drugs. I've been taking citabax daily for six months so it definitely affects how I react to alcohol
 
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starboy2k

starboy2k

“I’ve been digging my own grave for years”
May 21, 2025
594
I feel so much more free and less in my head…..which makes me want to impulsively commit lol.
Suicide is so much easier when you're not hesitantly thinking on it.