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25jiyuki

25jiyuki

Unrestrained
Feb 25, 2025
50
Since I'm chronically and mentally ill, those around me take care of me more than I take care of myself. I'm a massive burden to those around me, especially financially. Being too unwell to work properly as an adult is pathetic. I'm suffering just by living every day. On days my illness is bearable, I tend to physically hurt myself anyway.

With that knowledge, why do others think I should continue living?

I sound like a broken record mentioning this on every post. But I truly am sick of being in an endless cycle. I can't just "get help". No cure exists for me. I've tried convincing myself I deserve life. But there is nothing to love about me.

My last two attempts failed. Now, I'll make sure I don't make it to my 19th birthday.

I'm disposing of a burden to those around me. Why would anyone consider this selfish?
 
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shiba

Student
Aug 6, 2025
97
Most people find it really uncomfortable that people can opt out of this world. If you ask me they're the selfish ones for trying to prolong another's suffering for their own comfort.
 
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Nightfoot

Mage
Aug 7, 2025
549
They're probably responding from the perspective of how it would make them feel.
 
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Pale_Rider

Enlightened
Apr 21, 2025
1,492
I've argued this with a therapist before. They dont care how hard a person's life is. Live mother F'er live!
 
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kopebaldy

Dovahkiin
Jul 5, 2025
420
I've argued this with a therapist before. They dont care how hard a person's life is. Live mother F'er live!
Well... if you die, they lose a customer.

Besides, normal people will never be able to understand how someone could be driven to the point of suicide.

Maybe it's biological maybe it's social, idk, I'm not smart enough. Their brains simply will not accept that outcome.
 
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Docc

Member
Jun 21, 2023
39
exactly, they all think its like a temporary thing or a mental issue. They cant fanthom wanting to die so just take your pills and everything will be fine.

god i hate this world
 
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25jiyuki

Unrestrained
Feb 25, 2025
50
The replies to this thread honestly make me feel a little better. Because there are people who understand. Thank you all.
 
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akiyama346

Member
Aug 11, 2025
35
They quite simply don't understand, I wish there was something more I could tell you. They apply their life experiences over yours. I also have a chronic health condition. I have eczema, right now, my inner thigh is oozing some shit and its pretty gross. It's chronic, there's no known cure, I may have this for life. I hate my life, I hate my parents for saying that "roaches in the house are normal" and pitting all the blame on me for it saying "I should clean up more" when it's all around them too and we've had the issue my whole life. And guess what? Roaches are one of my more severe allergens, my skin issues are triggered by these allergens. I'm sorry for yapping, I didn't really mean to.

I can't tell you what to do, but I feel the same way. I wish you the best man.
 
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wham311

Enlightened
Mar 1, 2025
1,201
My life is absolutely untenable and going to get a thousand times worse and my family thinks I'm such an asshole for wanting to leave.

You do this
 
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openBottomJeans

won’t see what might’ve been…
Jul 4, 2025
127
I'm doing it for me. Fuck the ones trying to take my happiness away
 
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pthnrdnojvsc

Extreme Pain is much worse than people know
Aug 12, 2019
4,365
the hell im in is horrible beyond imagination. But they say no u can't leave that situation u have to suffer . And I ask why do I have to live another minute ? I don't. there is no reason

I wouldn't want to live even if I had what most consider a good life. But I can't hire someone to aid me with suicide cause they made that a crime . So I'm a tortured slave prisoner in a hell I never asked to be brought into
 
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Manfrotto99

Arcanist
Oct 10, 2023
459
My life is absolutely untenable and going to get a thousand times worse and my family thinks I'm such an asshole for wanting to leave.

You do this
I can relate to this. My family only blame me for wanting to leave, when they are the ones who have largely put me in the situation - but the have to deny and blame me for it.
 
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Xiaojiu

cease to exist 不复存在
Mar 28, 2025
682
Yeah, as someone who is chronically ill and disabled with chronic pain 24/7, 💯 I agree with you and I understand how you feel. It's selfish af to want to keep me around when I'm in pain and suffering every moment of my waking life. My illnesses are progressive and my pains are degenerative. I'm "young" and I can't live like this for the next 20-30+ years. I want out
 
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fkyou

fkyou

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Oct 1, 2022
519
It's just emotional abuse
 
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Off_Switch

Experienced
Aug 15, 2025
266
It's almost as selfish as giving birth and forcing someone into existence on this shit show of a planet.
 
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alt131313

Member
Jul 4, 2025
19
2 things I say to this:

1) The people who say it is selfish tend to be the people who offer the least amount of support for the suicidal person; they want you to make a sacrifice (continuing to live) while making little or no sacrifice (support) themselves

2) If its your parents saying this, then giving birth to you was selfish on their part. They did not ask your consent to be born, you weren't given a choice. Now you are merely correcting their error.
 
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chakravyuh

Member
Aug 1, 2025
36
I am struck in a situation where me being alive is causing pain to others and is going To make their life hell. With my death, my family's pain would go away.

For this precise reason, i want to die and take pain of everyone with em.
 
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Morte

Arcanist
Nov 23, 2023
409
instead of being worried if its selfish or not, just think that theres no problem being selfish sometimes.
 
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chek

Member
Aug 30, 2025
30
It's so frowned upon to admit that you want to die. Silences and ostracizes
 
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Experienced
Jun 11, 2025
226
I hear you.

I stopped worrying about coming off as a bad person after I die when I told myself ''selfish - so what?''

Being selfish doesn't need to be a bad thing for someone. You could say the same to people that call people like US selfish, too. It's all just an opinion, and opinions don't need to be true. That's why they're opinions and not facts, you know?
 
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