blue_muse
Mage
- Jan 31, 2021
- 552
Hello,
I'm a long-term lurker who finally decided to brave it and join SS, please be gentle with the newbie here folks . Want to start by saying just from the lurking days how warm and inviting a community SS - a true place condemnation or judgement. Apologies if it's too early to get all philosophical (who does the newbie think they are, honestly ?), here it goes...
Suicide seems to be a catch-22. We get encouraged to open up about our feelings in the outside world and get asked what we'd like to change internally and externally - the magic wand question. Personally, been reassured to contact various organisations only to have it thrown back in my face as a taunt within the wider community. But then let's say someone is open about their suicidal thoughts; which may be often, they get branded as 'attention seeking' etc. Yet; going about ending one's life privately is considered selfish, weak, impulsive. Been met with anger from a narcissistic parent for expressing the desire to die, even though it seemed like a safe environment to do speak openly.
It's like we're damned if we do and damned if we don't.
Any thoughts?
I'm a long-term lurker who finally decided to brave it and join SS, please be gentle with the newbie here folks . Want to start by saying just from the lurking days how warm and inviting a community SS - a true place condemnation or judgement. Apologies if it's too early to get all philosophical (who does the newbie think they are, honestly ?), here it goes...
Suicide seems to be a catch-22. We get encouraged to open up about our feelings in the outside world and get asked what we'd like to change internally and externally - the magic wand question. Personally, been reassured to contact various organisations only to have it thrown back in my face as a taunt within the wider community. But then let's say someone is open about their suicidal thoughts; which may be often, they get branded as 'attention seeking' etc. Yet; going about ending one's life privately is considered selfish, weak, impulsive. Been met with anger from a narcissistic parent for expressing the desire to die, even though it seemed like a safe environment to do speak openly.
It's like we're damned if we do and damned if we don't.
Any thoughts?