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kittybitty

kittybitty

(=^-ω-^=) The OA
Oct 2, 2023
8
Learning about different side effects, how you would go out would be so painful, I can't bring myself to do it.
Why isn't something like barbital the best choice? Is it just too hard to access, or...?

I know it might be a stupid question but I can't find the answer on here so far
 
cme-dme

cme-dme

wants to sleep forever
Feb 1, 2025
553
I don't know if I'd call it the preferred method but from what I remember people prefer it because if done correctly you can go out somewhat peacefully. It's also accessible to most people (for now)
 
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aallsskksskk

Member
Mar 9, 2026
32
Most of the peaceful ways out are hard to access. Normies want to keep us suffering. N used to be available but then they started cracking down on it. SN also used to be more prevalent but the same started happening. Currently SN is just the best and easiest to acquire, and is a method which is a peaceful sleep into the next life instead of something more gruesome..
 
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kittybitty

kittybitty

(=^-ω-^=) The OA
Oct 2, 2023
8
I don't know if I'd call it the preferred method but from what I remember people prefer it because if done correctly you can go out somewhat peacefully. It's also accessible to most people (for now)
thank-you ❤️ I'd hope it's peaceful.. but everything medical says it would be awful
Most of the peaceful ways out are hard to access. Normies want to keep us suffering. N used to be available but then they started cracking down on it. SN also used to be more prevalent but the same started happening. Currently SN is just the best and easiest to acquire, and is a method which is a peaceful sleep into the next life instead of something more gruesome..
to me, vomiting, pain, and the other effects are not peaceful. thats what I'm having trouble coming to grips with
 
Macedonian1987

Macedonian1987

Just a sad guy from Macedonia.
Oct 22, 2025
824
I prefer the SN method for these specific methods
- I don't want to hang myself because no matter how many times I tried I couldn't get pass the exploding head feeling stage
- I cannot buy a gun in my country
- I'm scared of heights and I cannot bring myself to jump.

So for me SN is the perfect method. For others it might not be.
 
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BrighterMoon

BrighterMoon

Member
Mar 13, 2024
27
From the research I have done, when done correctly it is meant to be completely painless and as you pass out from lack of oxygen you don't even really begin to panic, you just drift off and then your body shuts down while you're unconscious. It's my current method of choice but I am having a really hard time finding a place where I can get it :/
 
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Macedonian1987

Macedonian1987

Just a sad guy from Macedonia.
Oct 22, 2025
824
thank-you ❤️ I'd hope it's peaceful.. but everything medical says it would be awful

to me, vomiting, pain, and the other effects are not peaceful. thats what I'm having trouble coming to grips with
Vomiting, pain and nausea are unpleasant I agree, but their duration isn't very long if you follow protocol.
 
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BrighterMoon

BrighterMoon

Member
Mar 13, 2024
27
I prefer the SN method for these specific methods
- I don't want to hang myself because no matter how many times I tried I couldn't get pass the exploding head feeling stage
- I cannot buy a gun in my country
- I'm scared of heights and I cannot bring myself to jump.

So for me SN is the perfect method. For others it might not be.
I feel the same here! Instead of some scary gun or slow painful hanging, you just drink something and get in bed, watch comfort videos and fall asleep. Yes it can be uncomfortable but for me, it's the best and most peaceful choice
 
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kittybitty

kittybitty

(=^-ω-^=) The OA
Oct 2, 2023
8
I prefer the SN method for these specific methods
- I don't want to hang myself because no matter how many times I tried I couldn't get pass the exploding head feeling stage
- I cannot buy a gun in my country
- I'm scared of heights and I cannot bring myself to jump.

So for me SN is the perfect method. For others it might not be.
I know what you mean, I have pretty much same reasons as you for wanting to do a 'peaceful' method.
I was mostly comparing different options of what you would take for that. Barbiturates are probably the easiest/best imo but sooo impossible to find
From the research I have done, when done correctly it is meant to be completely painless and as you pass out from lack of oxygen you don't even really begin to panic, you just drift off and then your body shuts down while you're unconscious. It's my current method of choice but I am having a really hard time finding a place where I can get it :/
good to know, thank you... hoping to CTB soon .
I feel the same here! Instead of some scary gun or slow painful hanging, you just drink something and get in bed, watch comfort videos and fall asleep. Yes it can be uncomfortable but for me, it's the best and most peaceful choice
I am hoping it will be as peaceful as it says it will. I have a roommate so if I start vomiting, making noises, etc she will come and call 911. she almost did when I was just on shrooms. so I'm worried not just for the pain but for this reason as well
 
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peewee

Specialist
Oct 16, 2025
326
I think like others say, if N was still available and affordable it would be top choice. SN I think is an easier method in some ways, drinking something (even if disgusting), is alot easier for many than jumping, hanging, shooting etc. also it can be reversed leaving little harm to the body if you change your mind quickly, leaves a 'cleanish' body, is somewhat affordable and accessible (though this is changing), been used extensively with many records, and you should lose consciousness quite fast, especially with the addition of benzos, so you won't suffer for too long.
there are still barbiturates that are accessible to ctb, phenobarbital is available on some DW markets, however most people can't work these out, or cant afford.
SN seems to be the best option if you cannot obtain a Nitrogen set up or barbiturates - its also has a tried and tested protocol which I think alleviates anxiety for many. I think of the many ways one can ctb, SN is not always the most peaceful, but more peaceful than many options, natural or self inflicted.
 
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Macedonian1987

Macedonian1987

Just a sad guy from Macedonia.
Oct 22, 2025
824
I feel the same here! Instead of some scary gun or slow painful hanging, you just drink something and get in bed, watch comfort videos and fall asleep. Yes it can be uncomfortable but for me, it's the best and most peaceful choice
I also plan to add benzos to my SN protocol in order to make my ctb as peaceful as possible. I don't want to die in panic when my heart begins racing and when the nausea starts getting to me.
I plan on taking a largish dose of Xanax together with my meto, I don't want to take too much Xanax because it may make me fall a sleep mid protocol.
 
UserFromNowhere

UserFromNowhere

Experienced
May 4, 2025
233
SN isn't my preferred method. Hanging and losing consciousness is. It's what I keep trying to accomplish with repeated failure. SN is there if things become bad enough and I overcome my hesitations to use it. I think (minus the hesitation) it's that way for a decent chunk of the user base. We'd use a more peaceful and painless method if we could access it or if it would work, but SN is an available remedy.
 
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kittybitty

kittybitty

(=^-ω-^=) The OA
Oct 2, 2023
8
SN isn't my preferred method. Hanging and losing consciousness is. It's what I keep trying to accomplish with repeated failure. SN is there if things become bad enough and I overcome my hesitations to use it. I think (minus the hesitation) it's that way for a decent chunk of the user base. We'd use a more peaceful and painless method if we could access it or if it would work, but SN is an available remedy.
thanks for answering ❤️
 

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