Staying strong but feeling alone

[Tired_of_myself]

For me, the feeling of loneliness is the hardest one to keep my head out of s**c*dal thoughts.

I was feeling a little strong for the past couple of months. Life was being kind to me - my loving girlfriend, my ok job, I felt creative and a little alive.

But my family's mental health is pretty bad. My sister stopped working because of a burnout crisis, but to say the truth she has always felt anxious about life (in a really hard way, I remember her as a kid with a lot of social problems and eaten disorders since young age) and my parents don't want to see it… yesterday I asked my parents for emotional support to help me to handle my sister. But they don't like do bother… this makes me sad, because my experience was super bad growing up… being a queer child in a homophobic home really broke my soul, even if I felt like to forgive my parents after all these years of abuse and abandon

I feel like I can never get fully recovered because my soul is broken from the inside. Today, after months of recovery, I felt like I should CTB.

I wrote this to organize my mind because it's so hard to hold on… but I'm trying… still trying….

 

[Someplace_nice]

Trying is the toughest thing to do, facing the day everyday is the bravest thing to do. You're in the rough but I believe you can hold on. Try to find emotional support in your gf and creativity. I see you and I know how hard it is to hold on when everything around you is bad, you can make this, take it one piece at a time. Don't overwhelm yourself, take is slow, find happiness in little things. You are tougher than you think.

 

[broken_stoic]

Be patient with yourself. I'm glad you want to make it. It's not easy, and your mind will continue to default back to those thoughts from time to time. Know there are alot of other people who care and have the same struggles. We can't fix, but we can care.

 

[Tired_of_myself]

Thanks for the support guys , means a lot