Venting I hate my parents so much

[hoppybunny]

At this point i probably sound like a broken record but what more can i do besides complain.

I don't even have any tears left to cry at this point.

I hate my fucking parents so much.


They make my life so fucking hard for no reason especially my stupid mother.
She's clearly mentally ill and uses it to abuse everyone in the house.

Today we're both supposed to work today and I just could not bring myself to get out of bed. She has to arrive earlier than me anyway and I've said before that I can't because

I'm honestly too freaking tired to explain everything in detail

Long story short she took all the car keys so i couldn't drive to work

And then my Dad started yelling at me and told me to go quit my job since i hate it so much


But I've been one wanting to quit for months now and they wouldn't let me. Now all of a sudden they want to ruin this job for me


Just narcissistic evil people who want to call themselves my parents

Then he got angrier at the fact that i referred to him and his wife as "you people" than the fact that his wife is an overeactive bitch that oversteps his "authority" as "the man of the house" or whatever stupid bullshit power he believes society gives him


And the worst part about this whole thing is he yelled at me for not having a job and said once it hits December he'll kick me out because it's a year with no job


And was telling me to just go live with my sister but this whole time.if i had moved in with my sister they would've cut me off and abandoned my sister for "disrespecting them" by moving out.


I hate being at their mercy and i hate this universe for not giving me a job.


I just want to go kill myself but it's not fucking faor. Why should i die ?!?!

Why are my only.options to suffer living with my parents or become a wage slave and move out with no support and live with a buch of strangers.

It's not like my parents are poor. Other ppl with parents who make less than mine have lovong parents who let them.stay as long as thry need while job hunting. Why do my parents have to be so fucking useless.


And life is just so easy for them. They can just treat me however they want. Ruin my life. Dictate if i can go to work or not and no one punishes them. But i can't even retaliate. I'm the one getting embarrassed telling my boss at my grown age that my parents won't let me go to work.

And I'm getting scared thinking about it because my parents may beat me or threaten to kick me out for even telling my boss it's their fault.

Why does the world make things so easy for evil people.

I try so hard to be a good person and for what just to get treated like shit by almlst everyone i meet.

I'm not even asking for much. Just an office job or at least a non labor i tensive job that pays me enough to move out. But nope ofcourse after almost a year i can't find one.


Knowing my luck if i go through wih the plan of moving my things to a storage unit, God will make me one of the small percentage of people whose units catch fire or get robbed.
L

 

[timf]

Some people go into the Army to escape an unfriendly home.

 

[enduringwinter]

I'm so sorry friend I could've written this myself

 

[hoppybunny]

I'm so sorry friend I could've written this myself

Thank you.

 

[calebzz1]

At this point i probably sound like a broken record but what more can i do besides complain.

I don't even have any tears left to cry at this point.

I hate my fucking parents so much.


They make my life so fucking hard for no reason especially my stupid mother.
She's clearly mentally ill and uses it to abuse everyone in the house.

Today we're both supposed to work today and I just could not bring myself to get out of bed. She has to arrive earlier than me anyway and I've said before that I can't because

I'm honestly too freaking tired to explain everything in detail

Long story short she took all the car keys so i couldn't drive to work

And then my Dad started yelling at me and told me to go quit my job since i hate it so much


But I've been one wanting to quit for months now and they wouldn't let me. Now all of a sudden they want to ruin this job for me


Just narcissistic evil people who want to call themselves my parents

Then he got angrier at the fact that i referred to him and his wife as "you people" than the fact that his wife is an overeactive bitch that oversteps his "authority" as "the man of the house" or whatever stupid bullshit power he believes society gives him


And the worst part about this whole thing is he yelled at me for not having a job and said once it hits December he'll kick me out because it's a year with no job


And was telling me to just go live with my sister but this whole time.if i had moved in with my sister they would've cut me off and abandoned my sister for "disrespecting them" by moving out.


I hate being at their mercy and i hate this universe for not giving me a job.


I just want to go kill myself but it's not fucking faor. Why should i die ?!?!

Why are my only.options to suffer living with my parents or become a wage slave and move out with no support and live with a buch of strangers.

It's not like my parents are poor. Other ppl with parents who make less than mine have lovong parents who let them.stay as long as thry need while job hunting. Why do my parents have to be so fucking useless.


And life is just so easy for them. They can just treat me however they want. Ruin my life. Dictate if i can go to work or not and no one punishes them. But i can't even retaliate. I'm the one getting embarrassed telling my boss at my grown age that my parents won't let me go to work.

And I'm getting scared thinking about it because my parents may beat me or threaten to kick me out for even telling my boss it's their fault.

Why does the world make things so easy for evil people.

I try so hard to be a good person and for what just to get treated like shit by almlst everyone i meet.

I'm not even asking for much. Just an office job or at least a non labor i tensive job that pays me enough to move out. But nope ofcourse after almost a year i can't find one.


Knowing my luck if i go through wih the plan of moving my things to a storage unit, God will make me one of the small percentage of people whose units catch fire or get robbed.
L

Hey!

I wanted to respond to this post properly earlier but have been all over the place dealing with my symptoms.

First off, you have every right to complain considering everything you have been through.

I totally relate with not feeling anything at all, it's shocking on how much I suppress my real emotions most likely due to the trauma from my visual impairment and the limitations I face daily.

Can you get another job instead of working with your mom or is the search not bearing any fruit?

Also, would you be able to live with your sister if push comes to shove?

My mother is mentally ill (Bipolar I with psychotic features) and the relationship between us can be very taxing.

She has zero emotional control and falls out over the simplest of matters while I am more stoic and rational.

I went to see a physician assistant yesterday and she was surprisingly raw about dealing with my mom, making these two statements.

1. You are not responsible for her actions and what she does.

2. I need to move out as soon as I can to establish independence.

Honestly, I was shocked on how straightforward this was but I truly believe this is the best course of action.

My hearing is scheduled for October and I hope to get disability benefits by the end of the year.

If that is successful I might move out of my mom's apartment and into my own in the same complex.

Alternatively, I could be mean and go to my original home town but I'll most likely be getting SSI unless the technical requirement of SSDI would be overwritten.

It's sad because I wish I could help my mom more daily but physically I'm barely functional at best.

She has been looking into getting an aide which would solve this problem.

My life is hard enough being visually impaired with the strong blur and random, horizontal double vision which leads to being a fall risk but my mom randomly crying in addition to yelling literally sends jolts through my body due to the stress.

It's over the smallest of circumstances too like not having "food" or "drink" as she states even though it's her being picky.

I relate entirely to trying to be a good person but getting ate up in the process, after I realized that I'm very limited on what I can due to my visual impairment I have been losing empathy and developing cynicism plus wariness as personality traits.

I still try to help when I can but ultimately I'm not a hero, people have to know that since I'm barely put together myself.

I would try not to be too envious about what other people do but I totally get your mindset.

A lot of the time I don't understand how my mom's side of the family engagesin illicit activities like drinking and smoking yet aren't barely functional like I am.

I've never done anything bad in that regard yet I can barely see everyday.

I have my current set of diagnoses but what I experience often doesn't make sense which is why I am subscribing to absurdism and not taking life as seriously.

Finally, did your sister have a bad relationship with your parents?

Why would they be upsted if you moved in with her?

 

[hoppybunny]

Hey!

I wanted to respond to this post properly earlier but have been all over the place dealing with my symptoms.

First off, you have every right to complain considering everything you have been through.

I totally relate with not feeling anything at all, it's shocking on how much I suppress my real emotions most likely due to the trauma from my visual impairment and the limitations I face daily.

Can you get another job instead of working with your mom or is the search not bearing any fruit?

Also, would you be able to live with your sister if push comes to shove?

My mother is mentally ill (Bipolar I with psychotic features) and the relationship between us can be very taxing.

She has zero emotional control and falls out over the simplest of matters while I am more stoic and rational.

I went to see a physician assistant yesterday and she was surprisingly raw about dealing with my mom, making these two statements.

1. You are not responsible for her actions and what she does.

2. I need to move out as soon as I can to establish independence.

Honestly, I was shocked on how straightforward this was but I truly believe this is the best course of action.

My hearing is scheduled for October and I hope to get disability benefits by the end of the year.

If that is successful I might move out of my mom's apartment and into my own in the same complex.

Alternatively, I could be mean and go to my original home town but I'll most likely be getting SSI unless the technical requirement of SSDI would be overwritten.

It's sad because I wish I could help my mom more daily but physically I'm barely functional at best.

She has been looking into getting an aide which would solve this problem.

My life is hard enough being visually impaired with the strong blur and random, horizontal double vision which leads to being a fall risk but my mom randomly crying in addition to yelling literally sends jolts through my body due to the stress.

It's over the smallest of circumstances too like not having "food" or "drink" as she states even though it's her being picky.

I relate entirely to trying to be a good person but getting ate up in the process, after I realized that I'm very limited on what I can due to my visual impairment I have been losing empathy and developing cynicism plus wariness as personality traits.

I still try to help when I can but ultimately I'm not a hero, people have to know that since I'm barely put together myself.

I would try not to be too envious about what other people do but I totally get your mindset.

A lot of the time I don't understand how my mom's side of the family engagesin illicit activities like drinking and smoking yet aren't barely functional like I am.

I've never done anything bad in that regard yet I can barely see everyday.

I have my current set of diagnoses but what I experience often doesn't make sense which is why I am subscribing to absurdism and not taking life as seriously.

Finally, did your sister have a bad relationship with your parents?

Why would they be upsted if you moved in with her?

My parents are wierdos. They want me to have a good life but only on their own terms. So for instance even though living with my sister would benefit both me and her (although i want to live on my own cause my sister can be overbearing as well) they don't want us to live together cause they want us to suffer without them so they can feel good about themselves.

Basically if i moge in with her, it's like saying they're bad parents because I'm moving in with my sister while barely having money just to be away from them which they hate.

They see it as an act of defiance

My sister moved out because she can't stand them and they're punishing her by not letting her rent out the house they co bought with her even though they know she can't afford to keep up with the house on her current salary.

If i move in with my sister they will cut both of us off to punish us and i can't risk that because we are not citizens and need our parents to file for us.

And also they may take our younger siblings back to nigeria to prevent them from "rebelling" against them

They're just controlling obsessive people that want us to fail if we do not live exactky how they like.

As for the job hunt. Nothing is going well for me. I have applied to 800 jobs over the pass year and only 4 interviews. 2 of which were for jobs related to my degree. The other 2 were from a crossing guard job and my current one. Just an abysmal search honestly.

My mum also freaks out over food too. She freaks out over anything, how much we sleep, how much and what we eat, how we dress. She genuinely needs help because she is one of those people that abuses her family and is nice to people outside but also bareky has any friends. So she wants companionship from the people she's abusing.

That's why she gets angry when I don't want to go to work with her, cause in her head even if she abuses me, as her child it's my responsibility to make her happy and do what she wants.


I hope you can be independent from your mum. Being away from energy vampires can and will do wonders for your mental health.

Sorry if this is offensive to ask but i recall you said on a different post you were giving up on finding a cure. If you're still visually impaired how will you live alone?

 

[calebzz1]

My parents are wierdos. They want me to have a good life but only on their own terms. So for instance even though living with my sister would benefit both me and her (although i want to live on my own cause my sister can be overbearing as well) they don't want us to live together cause they want us to suffer without them so they can feel good about themselves.

Basically if i moge in with her, it's like saying they're bad parents because I'm moving in with my sister while barely having money just to be away from them which they hate.

They see it as an act of defiance

My sister moved out because she can't stand them and they're punishing her by not letting her rent out the house they co bought with her even though they know she can't afford to keep up with the house on her current salary.

If i move in with my sister they will cut both of us off to punish us and i can't risk that because we are not citizens and need our parents to file for us.

And also they may take our younger siblings back to nigeria to prevent them from "rebelling" against them

They're just controlling obsessive people that want us to fail if we do not live exactky how they like.

As for the job hunt. Nothing is going well for me. I have applied to 800 jobs over the pass year and only 4 interviews. 2 of which were for jobs related to my degree. The other 2 were from a crossing guard job and my current one. Just an abysmal search honestly.

My mum also freaks out over food too. She freaks out over anything, how much we sleep, how much and what we eat, how we dress. She genuinely needs help because she is one of those people that abuses her family and is nice to people outside but also bareky has any friends. So she wants companionship from the people she's abusing.

That's why she gets angry when I don't want to go to work with her, cause in her head even if she abuses me, as her child it's my responsibility to make her happy and do what she wants.


I hope you can be independent from your mum. Being away from energy vampires can and will do wonders for your mental health.

Sorry if this is offensive to ask but i recall you said on a different post you were giving up on finding a cure. If you're still visually impaired how will you live alone?

Wow, that first section was exhausting to read honestly.

I couldn't imagine dealing with parents like that but you are making the right choice to stay with them for the citizenship reason.

I think they are "My way or the highway" type.

My first stepmom was like your mother honestly, would have to walk on eggshells as a minor incident would evolve into something monstrous.

She would also be nice to her friends and switch up on the household, absolutely exhausting.

My mom doesn't do this too much but I notice how when it comes to events surrounding her she takes initiative quicker and gets ready for everything quickly yet magically slows down when it comes to the appointments I need to go to.

Yeah, my goal is independence honestly if everything doesn't get better medical wise but this could change if I get better some day.

No worries, you aren't offensive at all!

I can still live alone fine, my mom was in the hospital for two weeks and I managed.

I just have to be careful with my movement and go slow.

 

[hoppybunny]

Wow, that first section was exhausting to read honestly.

I couldn't imagine dealing with parents like that but you are making the right choice to stay with them for the citizenship reason.

I think they are "My way or the highway" type.

My first stepmom was like your mother honestly, would have to walk on eggshells as a minor incident would evolve into something monstrous.

She would also be nice to her friends and switch up on the household, absolutely exhausting.

My mom doesn't do this too much but I notice how when it comes to events surrounding her she takes initiative quicker and gets ready for everything quickly yet magically slows down when it comes to the appointments I need to go to.

Yeah, my goal is independence honestly if everything doesn't get better medical wise but this could change if I get better some day.

No worries, you aren't offensive at all!

I can still live alone fine, my mom was in the hospital for two weeks and I managed.

I just have to be careful with my movement and go slow.

Really hoping for the best for u. I hope u improve medically and gain independence. It's tough having a physical and emotional barrier in life. But it's amazing ur still pushing through