lastexit717@proton.

lastexit717@proton.

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Hi , i was in a telegram hentai group i found in 4chan, some bastard posted 7 images of CSAM and it was stored automatically in my cellphone because of the settings, i deleted it as soon as possible and deleted the group , a few months after that i realize the images are stored in my cloud too , i deleted too but i know what that means, i know they are coming , each deay is a day less, i feel so lonely and lost , im thinking in doing something stupid like resist or pretend to have a gun so they shot me when they arrive to take me away , but im afraid of ruining the life of the cops who will shot me
Im so fucking lonely, i cant eat or sleep , my therapist gave me benzos but i refuse to become an addict so i wont take them, i wishs someone talk to me , i wishs to woke from this nigthmare
Please stay away from /B and the other boards , i fucked my whole life i just want to go
 
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You seem incredibly distressed. I read some of your posts, including the one where you talk about your loved one who died to Covid, and the one where you ask how to OD on Xanax.
It's almost impossible to OD on Xanax, and I'm sorry for your loss. For the average person, it takes time to mourn and process the grieving. Maybe you're still grieving and need some more time to get over it, and that's fine, some people take more time than others. As for the CSAM material, I really think you shouldn't worry. I'm sure the police won't come after you for mistakenly saving a few pictures to your cloud. Real pedos won't just save a few pictures for themselves but will share and distribute loads of GBs of videos.
You're not going to jail, I think you're just extremely anxious and that can be a real bitch, I know. You say you have a therapist, so you're trying to solve your issues, that's good.
Benzos won't turn you into an addict right away, if you're afraid of that your therapist can reassure you. Benzos can be very helpful and if used correctly the danger is almost non-existent. Hope this brings some solace to you
 
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lastexit717@proton.

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Thank you, im very scared , i was fine until i discover the cloud accident, now the death of my loved one feels heavier , many people told me im scared for nothing but i saw people being busted for only one cybertip ,its been more than a year but i know they sometimes take years because of backlog , im planing on give myself in soon and maybe resist arrest so they shot me , i think the pictures also harmed me somehow , there was not actual sex but i can stop feeling guilty and think a lot on their faces , thanks for talking to me , im hoping for a miracle.
 
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The police aren't going to come to your house over this. Even if they did, they can tell you didn't download the content willingly because of the metadata contained within it. Those pictures would be stored in a temporary file storage folder, and they would be able to see that. Don't be worried or stressed out about this, you will be fine.
 
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lastexit717@proton.

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The police aren't going to come to your house over this. Even if they did, they can tell you didn't download the content willingly because of the metadata contained within it. Those pictures would be stored in a temporary file storage folder, and they would be able to see that. Don't be worried or stressed out about this, you will be fine.
Thank you, im praying daily for this , i heard the cloud suspend your account when the photodna register the hash and is automatically reported to the NCMEC , im so much pain i just want my life back or maybe i can give myself in
 
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The problem right now is not the paedo stuff, it's your anxiety that creates monsters inside your head and makes you feel guilty. It happened to me too, even if in different circumstances. Before turning to the police there are a couple of things you can do:
  1. Talk to your therapist about this incident and ask him for advice
  2. Search for a law forum where you can post questions and ask a law professional
And please remember, you didn't hurt anyone thus you're not guilty of anything. Hugs
 
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@Ambivalent1 👁👄👁
 
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Am I being a dumbass millennial. What the hell is CSAM?
 
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I'm assuming "child S abuse Material ".
Oh. I don't know why OP is in those sorts of forums though - some of it is going to nasty disgusting stuff and the rest just downright nasty.

There are better individuals here and worst case scenario YouTube comments (specific YouTube channels). Even telegram is a risky affair.

Just let off steam here - won't care or judge or gas lit or any of that crap. We aren't in positions of power, authority, etc so we can only read, respond or just listen. You aren't going to get that crowd on chan boards or telegram or watsapp, etc. it's good here.
 
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Oh. I don't know why OP is in those sorts of forums though - some of it is going to nasty disgusting stuff and the rest just downright nasty.

There are better individuals here and worst case scenario YouTube comments (specific YouTube channels). Even telegram is a risky affair.

Just let off steam here - won't care or judge or gas lit or any of that crap. We aren't in positions of power, authority, etc so we can only read, respond or just listen. You aren't going to get that crowd on chan boards or telegram or watsapp, etc. it's good here.
The world is a fucking disgusting place. I used to dress up as michael myers and go on omegle chat to scare random people there for a while and the shit I saw on there made me wanna stab people for real ! I think they shut omegle down because of all that stuff
 
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The world is a fucking disgusting place. I used to dress up as michael myers and go on omegle chat to scare random people there for a while and the shit I saw on there made me wanna stab people for real ! I think they shut omegle down because of all that stuff
You can't escape it. There's a new batch of "YouTubers" who show animal saving content. What they actually do is abuse the animal or put it in that situation for views. The amount of "happy" content which is severely dark in context is astounding. Top comment will be "ahh so cute" with 2,000 likes. Scroll down and find the real truth comment with about 300 likes which explains that the individual put the cat in the drain and screwed it in.
Reddit have hive mind problems where if you post anything slightly against the masses thought process you are kicked off.

This is one of MANY reasons why I isolate from people. Animals have my attention only.
you mean 4chan ruined you?
Well technically it could have. OP has images from it which could make their life way worse than it already is. I think that's pretty obvious.
 
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this is like vaush and loli all over again. OP im sorry
 
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Legally, you have NOTHING to worry about. Don't let that bother you. There's a 0% chance of you getting arrested over that.
 
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as long as you were not out to look for it you should be fine. plus idk what phone u have.
Its fucked seeing that shit though.
 
lastexit717@proton.

lastexit717@proton.

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as long as you were not out to look for it you should be fine. plus idk what phone u have.
Its fucked seeing that shit though.
It was an old android....its gone ...i nuked all my devices , toss them to a river ..they were my livehood since im an illustrator but i cant even draw anyways , i was not looking for it , but even if it was unwillinglly i uploaded the stuff, i wish this would end.
 
lastexit717@proton.

lastexit717@proton.

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Legally, you have NOTHING to worry about. Don't let that bother you. There's a 0% chance of you getting arrested over that.
oh man i pray everyday for this to be true , but everyday i see on the news people busted for a couple of images, i want to wake up from this nigthmare.
 
ms_beaverhousen

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Hi , i was in a telegram hentai group i found in 4chan, some bastard posted 7 images of CSAM and it was stored automatically in my cellphone because of the settings, i deleted it as soon as possible and deleted the group , a few months after that i realize the images are stored in my cloud too , i deleted too but i know what that means, i know they are coming , each deay is a day less, i feel so lonely and lost , im thinking in doing something stupid like resist or pretend to have a gun so they shot me when they arrive to take me away , but im afraid of ruining the life of the cops who will shot me
Im so fucking lonely, i cant eat or sleep , my therapist gave me benzos but i refuse to become an addict so i wont take them, i wishs someone talk to me , i wishs to woke from this nigthmare
Please stay away from /B and the other boards , i fucked my whole life i just want to go
Isn't that place for losers who are more pathetic than we are?
Ew stay away from that. At least we own our crap. That's why we want to die. They think they are entitled to a better life and play victim.
 
lastexit717@proton.

lastexit717@proton.

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Nov 26, 2023
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Isn't that place for losers who are more pathetic than we are?
Ew stay away from that. At least we own our crap. That's why we want to die. They think they are entitled to a better life and play victim.
i dont think someone could more pathetic than me at the moment , im afraid im addicted to watch gore and femboy porn , thats why i lurked 4chan , never posted or share anything, still im feel mortified.
 
etherealgoddess

etherealgoddess

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Dec 8, 2022
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Hi , i was in a telegram hentai group i found in 4chan, some bastard posted 7 images of CSAM and it was stored automatically in my cellphone because of the settings, i deleted it as soon as possible and deleted the group , a few months after that i realize the images are stored in my cloud too , i deleted too but i know what that means, i know they are coming , each deay is a day less, i feel so lonely and lost , im thinking in doing something stupid like resist or pretend to have a gun so they shot me when they arrive to take me away , but im afraid of ruining the life of the cops who will shot me
Im so fucking lonely, i cant eat or sleep , my therapist gave me benzos but i refuse to become an addict so i wont take them, i wishs someone talk to me , i wishs to woke from this nigthmare
Please stay away from /B and the other boards , i fucked my whole life i just want to go
Look, I don't mean to invalidate your experience in the slightest. But there is absolutely no way you would get charged if there was a literal setting that made you download images to your phone. The police going in and searching through your phone for evidence: you have to realize you have to seriously be a suspect for them to do that lol. A police officer is paid 25 dollars an hour. It would take hours to go through all of your information to find out if you do something. That's hundreds of dollars, even thousands, to pay people to properly investigate you. You're not worth that much to law enforcement LOL. And as a young teenager, I remember using Snapchat at 13, and boys were asking for nudes when they were 16. Technically, if you're exchanging nudes under the age of 18, that's CP. I'm assuming those boys who asked everyone were probably exchanging nudes at 16, but from what I know of, people aren't getting prosecuted lol :P Don't take it too seriously.
 
lastexit717@proton.

lastexit717@proton.

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Look, I don't mean to invalidate your experience in the slightest. But there is absolutely no way you would get charged if there was a literal setting that made you download images to your phone. The police going in and searching through your phone for evidence: you have to realize you have to seriously be a suspect for them to do that lol. A police officer is paid 25 dollars an hour. It would take hours to go through all of your information to find out if you do something. That's hundreds of dollars, even thousands, to pay people to properly investigate you. You're not worth that much to law enforcement LOL. And as a young teenager, I remember using Snapchat at 13, and boys were asking for nudes when they were 16. Technically, if you're exchanging nudes under the age of 18, that's CP. I'm assuming those boys who asked everyone were probably exchanging nudes at 16, but from what I know of, people aren't getting prosecuted lol :P Don't take it too seriously.
I want to belive that , the problem is im not in the US i dont know how much they take care of this things here, but i see some news of busted people every month or so , i hope i dont worth his time because here prision is hell, i even planing in going to the US to be arrested there, your prisions are 5 star hotels , i think i can steal Nembutal from a store close to me and have it close in a thermo or something ready for when the police come to do a search
 
ms_beaverhousen

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i dont think someone could more pathetic than me at the moment , im afraid im addicted to watch gore and femboy porn , thats why i lurked 4chan , never posted or share anything, still im feel mortified.
So get help for it or research porn addiction and figure out why and the root of it. Trust me, my crimes and shame is worse than that. Im more pathetic and worthless. Guaranteed.
 
lastexit717@proton.

lastexit717@proton.

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Nov 26, 2023
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So get help for it or research porn addiction and figure out why and the root of it. Trust me, my crimes and shame is worse than that. Im more pathetic and worthless. Guaranteed.
Im seeing a therapist , but i refuse to take benzos daily es he wants, i think i need a new one
 
etherealgoddess

etherealgoddess

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Dec 8, 2022
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I want to belive that , the problem is im not in the US i dont know how much they take care of this things here, but i see some news of busted people every month or so , i hope i dont worth his time because here prision is hell, i even planing in going to the US to be arrested there, your prisions are 5 star hotels , i think i can steal Nembutal from a store close to me and have it close in a thermo or something ready for when the police come to do a search
There's no way it would happen. Most of the time, those who get caught are already under suspicion or have been reported. You just happened to randomly download some content. Consider the vast amount of personal data that an average individual generates online and the extensive surveillance efforts required by law enforcement agencies to monitor it all. There's just no way. You're panicking about something that isn't real. Nobody is going to monitor what you have. People have to go through an extra hurdle to find photos that were deleted. You literally have to have people on the government level. People are not bothered to monitor every single image because police have better things to do.
 
lastexit717@proton.

lastexit717@proton.

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There's no way it would happen. Most of the time, those who get caught are already under suspicion or have been reported. You just happened to randomly download some content. Consider the vast amount of personal data that an average individual generates online and the extensive surveillance efforts required by law enforcement agencies to monitor it all. There's just no way. You're panicking about something that isn't real. Nobody is going to monitor what you have. People have to go through an extra hurdle to find photos that were deleted. You literally have to have people on the government level. People are not bothered to monitor every single image because police have better things to do.
Thats where the NCMEC enters, Google algorithm identifies if someone saves bad stuff into his servers, then it send the report to the NCMEC and the NCMEC sent it to the relevant police force, from that i think its just a matter of time , im planning in resisting arrest to force them to kill me
 

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