To OP, I hope you're resting well and receiving help.
For new members, do NOT take SN lightly. It is a very lethal substance, even in small doses, and not something you can taste-test or self-harm with. Do NOT go ahead impulsively or if you're not 100% certain with your decision. There is a guide outline for a reason, which can be found in the stickied resources thread. Every item is listed for a reason, so please don't go ahead thinking you won't need them, as has been implied a few times in the forum.
It's fine to post personal experiences, especially if it was painful or traumatic. I think it's a good time to address the fact that members need to take people's word with a grain of salt and thoroughly research a method they're looking into, outside the forum as well.
The last thing I want to address is thread etiquette. This is not the first thread of its kind to be posted, and previous responses from members have come off as harsh, but it's really out of care for the safety of users. Calling out reckless behaviour is fine and constructive criticism is welcome. However mocking (i.e calling OP attention-seeking) or being disrespectful in general is not helpful to anyone. Yes, you're not obligated to be compassionate on this forum, but if what you have to say is insulting and not constructive then just refrain from posting.
All the important issues with the post have been addressed by other members, so I'm going to lock this thread.