So like, who else wants to die??

[_smile_]

Fer real though. I wanna die so bad. My life just sucks.

Why do you want to die??

 

[CentreMid]

Yeah, me too, for a variety of reasons: Trauma, mental illness, financial issues, declining state of the world, to name a few.

 

[EndJstifiesTheMeans]

Me
Trauma,financial issies,bad parents and my crush rejected me

 

[ikadasui]

Hate my ethnicity, financially destitute, mentally inept and just no future prospects to boot. abortion would of been a mercy

 

[Twiceler]

I hate myself. Everything about me and my life entirely. And also some people around me, secondarily.

 

[charlotte_]

I feel the same way. It's mostly caused by mental illnesses. Can't go a single day without feeling like a complete void.

 

[FuneralCry]

In my case, I know that I could never be delusional enough to want to exist in this chaotic and hellish world that is filled with endless risks and potential for the most extreme suffering. Existing could never be a desirable state to me and it's something that is completely futile and unappealing, I don't wish to be a slave to suffering, trapped in a decaying flesh prison that is destined to deteriorate and cause even more torment to be experienced in the process.

I see existence as being slavery and imprisonment, it's a punishment we have to endure all because of the selfish actions of other people, and to die is the only way to be set free, to cease existing would solve all problems to me as there are no disadvantages to not existing. I have awareness that existence is nothing more than a futile, unnecessary harm, the existence of life was a horrifying, cruel mistake in the first place which is why suicide is self care. Simply just existing here makes the sound of permanent nothingness sound so incredibly appealing.

 

[StolenLife]

Me. Because of trauma, mental illness and horrid, hopeless future.

 

[stermc]

I am definitely a privileged person in some aspects, as for having a good family, friends who care about me, self love etc. But since I can remember I have this feeling of not belonging this world, as if my soul is screaming for freedom from this cage. I truly despise this society and its standards; I feel everything too much and too deeply; I think too much. Everything is too much. And after 13 years of feeling this intense lack of vitality and desire for life, of struggling to deal with my own emotions and intellectual and philosophical questions, I am just tired to a point I have no more dreams or hope that someday I will conquer the life I know I deserve. There is no energy left in me and I am just slowly melting inside.

 

[Dead Ghost]

Because there's practically nothing left for me to do.. I could try to improve something, but I'm exhausted. I look at myself, I analyze myself, I understand my situation and what it would mean for me to continue with external supports from third parties (if there were any).. I don't see a possible path or realistic proposals that I can take on. And that the effort will not compensate for the result, obviously.

Even so, I can't even consider the CTB, I want to die but I have neither the will nor the determination to do it.

I can only wait and see how the days go by while I just subsist as best I can.

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Per què pràcticament ja no em queda res més per fer.. podría intentar millorar alguna cosa, però es que estic esgotat. Em miro, m'analitzo, comprenc la meva situació i el que suposaría per mi seguir endavant amb suports externs de terceres persones (si n'hi hagués).. no veig camí possible ni propósits realistes que jo pugui assumir. I que l'esforç no compensarà pas el resultat, evidentment.

Així i tot tampoc em puc plantejar el CTB, desitjo morir però no tinc ni la voluntat ni la determinació per fer-ho.

Només puc esperar i veure com passen els dies mentres em limito a subsistir com puc.

 

[uniqueusername39]

if i could switch off myself permanently right now, painlessly, i would. i don't want to deal with what is basically guaranteed to be a terrible future.

 

[outrider567]

Loss

 

[sickbeyondmeasure]

I have a rare disease where I experience perpetual pain in my body

 

[that_guy2611]

life sucks bruh, every day is the same at best or slowly worse. People move on and i'm stuck behind in the shit.

 

[Meatshell]

As someone who can't handle being forced into things or being told what to do at all, being forced to be born has always been difficult on me. I've had a pretty normal childhood, but still the suicidal thoughts started creeping in when I was 6 or 7. I was a very sensitive kid, I wanted to die over every little thing. I never felt like I fitted in, never saw the world the way other people see it, which is very isolating.

Later on in life the medical issues started appearing. I started losing (loved ones, pets, dreams...) one after another. Plus - the females here would understand - getting sick, bleeding, and experiencing unbelievable pain every month for years is hell being described as normal.

I'm feeling stuck here. Stuck in this meatshell, in my hometown, in the human society... All make me suffer. I can't change the world, can't fight nature, can't climb up to a point where sitting in this waiting room may become a bit more bearable. It's exhausting.

There's no other way out, really. Nothing that would solve everything. The question is, why WOULDN'T you wanna die?

 

[uniqueusername39]

As someone who can't handle being forced into things or being told what to do at all, being forced to be born has always been difficult on me. I've had a pretty normal childhood, but still the suicidal thoughts started creeping in when I was 6 or 7. I was a very sensitive kid, I wanted to die over every little thing. I never felt like I fitted in, never saw the world the way other people see it, which is very isolating.

Later on in life the medical issues started appearing. I started losing (loved ones, pets, dreams...) one after another. Plus - the females here would understand - getting sick, bleeding, and experiencing unbelievable pain every month for years is hell being described as normal.

I'm feeling stuck here. Stuck in this meatshell, in my hometown, in the human society... All make me suffer. I can't change the world, can't fight nature, can't climb up to a point where sitting in this waiting room may become a bit more bearable. It's exhausting.

There's no other way out, really. Nothing that would solve everything. The question is, why WOULDN'T you wanna die?

hey, fellow female here--have you consulted a doctor on your monthly pains? there may be an underlying condition like endometriosis or pcos or whatever.

 

[Meatshell]

hey, fellow female here--have you consulted a doctor on your monthly pains? there may be an underlying condition like endometriosis or pcos or whatever.

Hi, fellow female Believed me, I've covered everything. It's just always been torture. Not just the cramps themselves, everything that comes with it. Nature sucks.

Since this is SS, I will admit that I WISH I had an underlying condition, one that will kill me. I'm not that lucky though.

 

[animetal]

I just got my heart shattered in pieces by someone I loved I sacrificed pretty much everything for him and I didn't even realize it. I also am aware that I am developing I believe schizophrenia because my dad had it and not only that but the severe amounts of trauma is just too much for me to deal with to the point where I get through life and I always viewed life in a beautiful way I have so much love for everyone even people that don't even know I exist but knowing that I can barely remember what I did the day before and from December to now has become a big trauma fest and not being able to be there for the people that I love so much is breaking me and the thing is nobody knows what I'm going through. I stay in my garage to hide from my mom because if she sees me like this it will break her heart and she doesn't know and nobody in my life knows I just want people to remember me as someone they loved and not the hot mess that im becoming. I've developed severe agoraphobia genuinely can't remember who I am that well of a person and so I've been pretending so people I love don't get hurt as bad. Everything that's happened is just breaking me and I feel dying is just the best option as usually I can get through things I can't this time. Because I can't be there for everyone that I loved and cared about which is worst(I'm sorry for the long response I'm new to this community and it feels it's all I have left to express how I'm feeling ) it just feels like I'm screaming and yelling from the inside but nobody is able to reach me

 

[Sweet Tart]

I've been depressed my entire life and it's gotten progressively worse. I've run out of ideas & energy for trying to "fix" myself or my life. I'm entirely dependent on family now, since I'm too fucked up to work or care for myself. I think everyone who genuinely knows and cares for me would be relieved if I died.

 

[ringo99]

If someone shot me in the head right now I'd bless them with all my heart.

 

[leavingsoon99]

I can't wait to pull the trigger. This life is nothing short of hell, and humans are its imps. My experience in this has been terrible. I'll be gone by the end of the summer. I'm glad I won't be here when it all collapses.

 

[ringo99]

 

[ctb-soon]

I am definitely a privileged person in some aspects, as for having a good family, friends who care about me, self love etc. But since I can remember I have this feeling of not belonging this world, as if my soul is screaming for freedom from this cage. I truly despise this society and its standards; I feel everything too much and too deeply; I think too much. Everything is too much. And after 13 years of feeling this intense lack of vitality and desire for life, of struggling to deal with my own emotions and intellectual and philosophical questions, I am just tired to a point I have no more dreams or hope that someday I will conquer the life I know I deserve. There is no energy left in me and I am just slowly melting inside.

I really relate to what you say here. There are no concrete reasons why I should CTB - good family, okay on many things in life.

And when I have actually forgotten about my interest in suicide, I am reminded of the elephant in the room - that basically expects me to CTB. It's not an if but a when looking at me,

 

[WorthlessTrash]

Me because of gender dysphoria. My life is unsalvageable.