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Crest33

Crest33

Sheet slinger
Nov 28, 2018
261
Good luck. I hope that you can write about your physical feeling after you take SN.
Won't happen, my last day is on airplane mode. I want to be untraceable and unreachable.
 
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Crest33

Sheet slinger
Nov 28, 2018
261
Thank you! Have you done that with a seller btw?
No, I cared to less. And most packaging has not written on it what's inside. These eBay sellers all use cheap regular packaging material.
 
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Paloma

Suicide doesn't kill people. Sadness kills them.
Nov 3, 2018
46
No, I cared to less. And most packaging has not written on it what's inside. These eBay sellers all use cheap regular packaging material.
Alright. Thank you kindly.
Did you order from EBay?
 
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Paloma

Paloma

Suicide doesn't kill people. Sadness kills them.
Nov 3, 2018
46
Won't happen, my last day is on airplane mode. I want to be untraceable and unreachable.
Sorry for everything you've been through...
 
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Crest33

Sheet slinger
Nov 28, 2018
261
Is it wrong I don't have an immediate backup plan? Aside of taking another dose of sn.
 
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Virgo

Arcanist
Oct 3, 2018
497
Does anyone know what precautions need to be taken when handling sn.
 
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Kingkelly

Mage
Dec 3, 2018
532
I don't have one either.
Was going to get n but now I can't until after the 1st of the year not trying to be here that long. So I guess sn it is. Or by some act of god my ami arrives and is real. Ugh stupid online sites
 
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Crest33

Sheet slinger
Nov 28, 2018
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Kingkelly

Mage
Dec 3, 2018
532
Hmm, it's just surreal that 15 grams of power can and probably will kill you.
Ya its crazy to think... But if you dont do all the steps right will it work? Like what if you just took the anti emetic and anti acid like an hr before, while fasting of course and no benzo? That is my current situation. I have some muscle relaxers but no benzos. I've decided I'm not going back go the doctors so I can't get anymore.
 
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therhydler

Enlightened
Dec 7, 2018
1,196
A date has been set: 19 December '18.

I can't believe I'm doing this. I start tomorrow with the acid reducers. I'll make more posts about my plan for this week to give others insight.

I hope that if you do go through with it that you will have a peaceful end!
 
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ausboy96

Student
Nov 17, 2018
143
A date has been set: 19 December '18.

I can't believe I'm doing this. I start tomorrow with the acid reducers. I'll make more posts about my plan for this week to give others insight.

I'm looking forward to hearing your steps to prepare for taking SN, as I'd like to CTB soon myself.
 
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Crest33

Sheet slinger
Nov 28, 2018
261
Ya its crazy to think... But if you dont do all the steps right will it work? Like what if you just took the anti emetic and anti acid like an hr before, while fasting of course and no benzo? That is my current situation. I have some muscle relaxers but no benzos. I've decided I'm not going back go the doctors so I can't get anymore.
Benzos are not necessary, I won't take them. Even acid reducers are not entirely necessary. It's the fasting + anti emetic + 15 gram sn that are the most important. The sn must be taken up into the bloodstream as fast as possible. Don't care if I will be in pain, also not scared of it.

This is the last thing I'm going to do, better do it good and brave.
 
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Eren

Eren

Si hablas español mándame un MP
Oct 27, 2018
1,075
Is it legal in Spain to buy SN?
 
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Shewaitsforme

Arcanist
Sep 23, 2018
493
Seems there is about 3 of us just waiting fot the anti-es. I ordered from the seller in greece off ebay. It said delivery between 10th and 16th devember so few more days to wait. Really hope they come.
 
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Crest33

Sheet slinger
Nov 28, 2018
261
Is it legal in Spain to buy SN?
I think it is. And buying should be real easy since you're in the eu. You can order from a country where it's for sale.
 
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Eren

Si hablas español mándame un MP
Oct 27, 2018
1,075
I think it is. And buying should be real easy since you're in the eu. You can order from a country where it's for sale.

Ok, thanks.
 
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Eren

Eren

Si hablas español mándame un MP
Oct 27, 2018
1,075
What would happen if SN does not kill me (for insufficient dose) and I'm not rescued? What consequences would it have? Any permanent damage?
 
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Kingkelly

Mage
Dec 3, 2018
532
Benzos are not necessary, I won't take them. Even acid reducers are not entirely necessary. It's the fasting + anti emetic + 15 gram sn that are the most important. The sn must be taken up into the bloodstream as fast as possible. Don't care if I will be in pain, also not scared of it.

This is the last thing I'm going to do, better do it good and brave.
This is good news. Anti emetic days before? And are you Going to take them half hr before? Yes your right it will be painful but what does it matter its the last thing we do. Woke up extremely sad with urge to CBT and can't wait for n but dont want to mess up family Christmas. This is the worse
 
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Crest33

Sheet slinger
Nov 28, 2018
261
This is good news. Anti emetic days before? And are you Going to take them half hr before? Yes your right it will be painful but what does it matter its the last thing we do.
for my motilium(Anti emetic). I will take 10mg 4 hours prior and 20mg 1 hours prior.
I'm now 2 days in acid reducer and it's definitely doing something.

And atm I'm seriously considering going tomorrow. Just no reason to wait.
 
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Kingkelly

Mage
Dec 3, 2018
532
for my motilium(Anti emetic). I will take 10mg 4 hours prior and 20mg 1 hours prior.
I'm now 2 days in acid reducer and it's definitely doing something.

And atm I'm seriously considering going tomorrow. Just no reason to wait.

The acid reducer is helping? And thats a good timeline. Like how do you feel? I understand your need for not waiting. Today has been horrible I just want it to end so bad. I dont know why I'm so scared of the sn but I have no problem downing handfuls of pills. If I had pills right now I'd take as many as I could. But the sn under my bed has stayed there for a week. I think I'll open the box today. My scale came so it'll be accurate. I've got my meto what am I waiting for?
 
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Jadon91

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Nov 20, 2018
75
for my motilium(Anti emetic). I will take 10mg 4 hours prior and 20mg 1 hours prior.
I'm now 2 days in acid reducer and it's definitely doing something.

And atm I'm seriously considering going tomorrow. Just no reason to wait.


What type of acid reducers are you taking?
 
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Vegrau

Wizard
Nov 27, 2018
665
The acid reducer is helping? And thats a good timeline. Like how do you feel? I understand your need for not waiting. Today has been horrible I just want it to end so bad. I dont know why I'm so scared of the sn but I have no problem downing handfuls of pills. If I had pills right now I'd take as many as I could. But the sn under my bed has stayed there for a week. I think I'll open the box today. My scale came so it'll be accurate. I've got my meto what am I waiting for?

Same here. Got this irrational fear of sn for some strange reason.
 
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Kingkelly

Mage
Dec 3, 2018
532
Same here. Got this irrational fear of sn for some strange reason.
So you have the sn too?,I think its because I've never heard of it as a method and everyone who it hasn't worked on and afraid I'm not gonna do it right.
 
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Vegrau

Wizard
Nov 27, 2018
665
So you have the sn too?,I think its because I've never heard of it as a method and everyone who it hasn't worked on and afraid I'm not gonna do it right.

About to buy it since some shop here sells it. Just read some references around here or ask about them jf youre not sure.
 
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Kingkelly

Mage
Dec 3, 2018
532
About to buy it since some shop here sells it. Just read some references around here or ask about them jf youre not sure.
Ya I have the sn and anti e already. I am just terrified of it. Lol I have to get over it
 
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Vegrau

Wizard
Nov 27, 2018
665
Ya I have the sn and anti e already. I am just terrified of it. Lol I have to get over it

Yeah sn is actually better choice than any other drug overdose. Except fentanyl or n. Since it only require 15gr to end you.
 
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