breezer_a
Member
- Feb 3, 2024
- 17
I'm new here a bit so i doubt id get help really but yeah, SN is impossible to source in the uk as much as i try and looking up synthesis it seems possible but using either illegal or prohibitively expensive messy and noisy material.
I can probably get away with it cos i am a student but at this point ive tried compressing my carotid artery till i feel im gonna pass out and its uncomfortable but doesnt seem too bad. I really dont want to be a vegetable that to me is ACTUALLY worse than death even when i wasnt suicidal (come to think of it thats a brief part of my shitty existence). To be fair, im probably only depressed because im british /j
Ig ill do more research for now, the ppeh isnt very useful tbh wrong target audience perhaps lol. Idk, im kinda just using this site to vent, hopefully i wont be using it long because I will for a very long time if i stay in this world.
Tldr: man i gotta find a new method and not pussy out
I can probably get away with it cos i am a student but at this point ive tried compressing my carotid artery till i feel im gonna pass out and its uncomfortable but doesnt seem too bad. I really dont want to be a vegetable that to me is ACTUALLY worse than death even when i wasnt suicidal (come to think of it thats a brief part of my shitty existence). To be fair, im probably only depressed because im british /j
Ig ill do more research for now, the ppeh isnt very useful tbh wrong target audience perhaps lol. Idk, im kinda just using this site to vent, hopefully i wont be using it long because I will for a very long time if i stay in this world.
Tldr: man i gotta find a new method and not pussy out