SN Information/Goodbye Thread

[poff1170]

The purpose of this thread is to give a personal account of my SN purchase/attempt, which will happen tonight or tomorrow. I would like to give as much helpful information as possible before I CTB.

I ordered SN from IC, from the US/delivered to US, on March 19th. It arrived today (March 29th), one day earlier than estimated by several websites. I was able to pay via a prepaid visa debit connected to my Paypal account. I did not need to verify any ID whatsoever.

The outermost packaging does say "nitrites" on it, along with personal information. I have not opened it yet.

I weigh roughly 95 lb/43 kg. My plan, considering Stan's guide and Littlelady's calculations and a weird table going around, is to prepare 3 tsp of SN in 2.5 tbl (7.5 tsp) of water. This is close to 18g SN in 40ml water. I will prepare three drinks with these proportions. The only other meds I'm taking is 600mg ibuprofen an hour before my preferred attempt time. No access to antiemetic or anything else.

I will update you if I decide to go tonight, or early tomorrow morning. Please let me know if you have any questions/feedback.

 

[blackwidow92]

I'm sorry that life has led you to this point. I have my SN and am planning to go soon as well, I don't have access to any of the drugs needed either and worry about failure without them.

 

[Shivali]

 

[FuneralCry]

I wish you the best and I hope that when the time is right for you to leave, you find the freedom that you search for. Thank you for sharing the information about SN.

 

[sadjenny]

How are you feeling? (emotionally)

 

[poff1170]

Thank you all for your words.

In general, I am feeling numb. I am trying my best to go through the motions of my day before CTB'ing.

I have a chance of being "found" today, so I can't do it tonight. I do not want to risk being "found" and being hospitalized. I'm waking up early tomorrow to go through with it. I will continue updates.

 

[HerculePoirot]

I suggest an OTC antiemetic like Buccastem aka Prochlorperazine, as throwing up is a common cause of Sn failure.

 

[Haruka]

Hi, thank you so much for the information on SN, I'm not all that educated on it. I hope everything goes to plan and you can get what you are searching for

 

[Time&Regret]

I hope you find peace whether you choose to stay or go

 

[sadjenny]

Thank you all for your words.

In general, I am feeling numb. I am trying my best to go through the motions of my day before CTB'ing.

I have a chance of being "found" today, so I can't do it tonight. I do not want to risk being "found" and being hospitalized. I'm waking up early tomorrow to go through with it. I will continue updates.

Please be safe, friend. The SN will be there waiting when/if the time is right. I would hope your last moments were peaceful, and not worried about being walked in on. And if you stay, that is okay.

 

[locked*n*loaded]

no matter what you decide to do, I hope that the peace you seek finds you.

 

[Tartuffe]

The purpose of this thread is to give a personal account of my SN purchase/attempt, which will happen tonight or tomorrow. I would like to give as much helpful information as possible before I CTB.

I ordered SN from IC, from the US/delivered to US, on March 19th. It arrived today (March 29th), one day earlier than estimated by several websites. I was able to pay via a prepaid visa debit connected to my Paypal account. I did not need to verify any ID whatsoever.

The outermost packaging does say "nitrites" on it, along with personal information. I have not opened it yet.

I weigh roughly 95 lb/43 kg. My plan, considering Stan's guide and Littlelady's calculations and a weird table going around, is to prepare 3 tsp of SN in 2.5 tbl (7.5 tsp) of water. This is close to 18g SN in 40ml water. I will prepare three drinks with these proportions. The only other meds I'm taking is 600mg ibuprofen an hour before my preferred attempt time. No access to antiemetic or anything else.

I will update you if I decide to go tonight, or early tomorrow morning. Please let me know if you have any questions/feedback.

I'd recommend an AE of sorts. There are natural versions like Ginger capsules from a health store. Google natural antiemetics

 

[Yahwa]

I hope everything will go as smoothly as possible and wish you a peaceful exit May you get the love you deserve in your next life

 

[poff1170]

UPDATE: Someone from my uni somehow got my phone number from my parent and has been calling me nonstop for skipping one (1) class. I have to meet with them tonight so I don't appear suspicious or anything (even though I don't feel safe around them). I don't want to get into the details.

If you do not here anything from me after this, please assume that maybe they manipulate the police into hospitalizing me. Or something, idk. I'm concerned that I will no longer have access to my SN soon because of this crazy person who has my number.

Never trust anyone.

 

[Yahwa]

UPDATE: Someone from my uni somehow got my phone number from my parent and has been calling me nonstop for skipping one (1) class. I have to meet with them tonight so I don't appear suspicious or anything (even though I don't feel safe around them). I don't want to get into the details.

If you do not here anything from me after this, please assume that maybe they manipulate the police into hospitalizing me. Or something, idk. I'm concerned that I will no longer have access to my SN soon because of this crazy person who has my number.

Never trust anyone.

Hide your SN before you leave!! Try to not stay too long, make excuses for why you have to go home (maybe to study for a test or do an assignment). DON'T meet them unless you're in a crowded place. Why would they have pressured you into meeting for just missing one class? Please stay safe and update us once you're home. I hope you'll be fine

 

[Sparr0w]

i'd up the amount of SN to 20-25g myself, and i would absloutely reccomend antiemetics, but either way, i wish you luck and peace :)

 

[poff1170]

Last update.
I'm really mad and frustrated so I'm keeping it short.
Ended up taking a little melatonin several hours ago to get the stress down.
I just took the ibuprofen and found Sea-Band ginger gum as a half-ass antiemetic. These were taken 5 minutes ago.
Ingredients are set out, not yet mixed. I'm mixing them closer to an hour later, so the other meds can settle in my body, I guess.

I'm drinking the SN in an hour. I'm not going to post when I do. I need to try to be at peace.
Hopefully all the nonsense goes away and everything disappears. (Meaning hopefully I CTB)

- Poff

 

[tiredangelgirl]

wishing you a peaceful exit please come back to the thread if you decide not to ctb.

 

[Scacie]

Bye bye. I hope you have a swift and peaceful exit

 

[_smile_]

Wishing you eternal peace

 

[outrider567]

Peace to you...