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madmanbadman

Member
Mar 13, 2026
29
Why can't they just let me get sn?
Please I don't know what else I'm supposed to do anymore.
Everything feels like it's closing in, and I'm just scared.
I dont have any value unlike my friends
it's like no matter what I choose, it leads somewhere worse.
And the other option which is ha ging it terrifies me,since i saw a friend do that method and the lost
Because like if thats the case ill probably just get three nooses so the bs is a bit quicker yk.
 
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dirkw83

Member
Mar 4, 2026
44
where are you based? And was it express shipping or normal?
 
HopelessScientist

HopelessScientist

Member
Jan 24, 2023
64
Why can't they just let me get sn?
Please I don't know what else I'm supposed to do anymore.
Everything feels like it's closing in, and I'm just scared.
I dont have any value unlike my friends
it's like no matter what I choose, it leads somewhere worse.
And the other option which is ha ging it terrifies me,since i saw a friend do that method and the lost
Because like if thats the case ill probably just get three nooses so the bs is a bit quicker yk.
that's my nightmare situation, why can't people just let us have that one last hope? :(
 
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Suizident

Member
Aug 7, 2025
93
Why can't they just let me get sn?
Please I don't know what else I'm supposed to do anymore.
Everything feels like it's closing in, and I'm just scared.
I dont have any value unlike my friends
it's like no matter what I choose, it leads somewhere worse.
And the other option which is ha ging it terrifies me,since i saw a friend do that method and the lost
Because like if thats the case ill probably just get three nooses so the bs is a bit quicker yk.
In which country was that?
 
FuneralCry

FuneralCry

Just wanting some peace
Sep 24, 2020
48,009
I understand, it's just such terrible extreme cruelty to me how these people do all they can to force others to suffer in this cruel, torturous existence, it's just the most horrific world where humans have made it into a crime to cease existing painlessly, I hope you find the peace you search for, I also really wish for a poison and suffer so much from how I cannot just have it.
 
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Matchaaa

Matchaaa

Please excuse any tone misunderstandings,thank you
Dec 10, 2025
231
I'm sorry to hear that happened to you. If you don't mind, could you tell me how it was discovered and confiscated, and in which country?
 
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OnMyLast Legs

OnMyLast Legs

Too many regrets
Oct 29, 2024
1,828
Did they take it out of your possession or just block the shipment?
 
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BradGuy123

Specialist
Jul 6, 2025
315
What country are you in? How was it confiscated?
 
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wine is fine but

whiskey's quicker
Jul 26, 2025
202
Why can't they just let me get sn?
Please I don't know what else I'm supposed to do anymore.
Everything feels like it's closing in, and I'm just scared.
I dont have any value unlike my friends
it's like no matter what I choose, it leads somewhere worse.
And the other option which is ha ging it terrifies me,since i saw a friend do that method and the lost
Because like if thats the case ill probably just get three nooses so the bs is a bit quicker yk.
can't you guys just guy it from a shop or from on the street?

i would have assumed, there would be no paper trail if you went to the actual store to buy it, but most likely i am wrong :(
 
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miciowilly79

Member
Mar 30, 2026
13
Could you please confirm country and shipping method?
 
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madmanbadman

Member
Mar 13, 2026
29
okay ive calmed down now,but im in the philippines
 
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iveseenfootage

iveseenfootage

it’s almost dry
Nov 30, 2025
108
can't you guys just guy it from a shop or from on the street?

i would have assumed, there would be no paper trail if you went to the actual store to buy it, but most likely i am wrong :(
It's never sold in pure quantities on store shelves in most countries. Not sold on the street because it has no use as a drug (no euphoric sensation or high). It's only used for people like us.
 
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wine is fine but

whiskey's quicker
Jul 26, 2025
202
It's never sold in pure quantities on store shelves in most countries. Not sold on the street because it has no use as a drug (no euphoric sensation or high). It's only used for people like us.
have you been to the original poster's country?

my understanding is that it is much easier to get there. i had briefly thought about asking some people i know to help send it out, but that would be unfair if i was to use it in a way that wasn't for it's intended purpose

and no, it isn't only used for people like us. it would be very useful for what they make over there . . . very useful

having no adjoined neighbours means it would be close to impossible for a visitor to enter the country and then take it out themselves

either way, if someone bought it there, they would still need to be discreet about it. they would not want to go home on the mrt and advertise the fact that they have it, no matter how easy it may or may not be to actually buy
 
Rogue_Gendarme

Rogue_Gendarme

Ten Thousand Years
Apr 22, 2024
61
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have you been to the original poster's country?

my understanding is that it is much easier to get there.
yes, it is. if you know where to look for, you'll find it quite easily. especially around the national capital region.
okay ive calmed down now,but im in the philippines
hey, kababayan. i hope you're doing well. let me know if you need any help. i'm filipino as well, pero located around NCR, but if you need a kapwa pipino I'm here :)
 

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