smoke a pack with me before i go

[ryba]

tonight's the night. everything is in place, so now i'm just killing time until the bus arrives. and what better way to do that than to listen to some music and smoke some cigarettes?

i've been in some rough patches before, but this time is strange. before, i've been desperate like i'm being swept away by some powerful current that bashes me against every rock in the way, but i always held out hope that someone would reach out and pull me from the rapids. there's something eerily peaceful about the end being so near and so inescapable.

last night was one of the best i've had in a long time. i never thought i'd die happy, but tonight might be the only chance.

anyway, if anyone wants to pop in and chat for a while, please feel free. suicide doesn't have to be so gloomy.

 

[Lost in a Dream]

I'm not really into cigarettes anymore because they don't really do anything for me like they used to but I will drink a beer for you.

 

[FF777]

i don't do cigarettes either, but i can drink some tasty mocha with you..

i found out a few days ago that i am WAY too terrified to CTB yet, so i'm envious of other people that are able to be calm and go through with it.. although don't feel like you can't change your mind just because you are posting on here or any thing..

are you listening to some good music?.. one of my classic favs is always the pink floyd comfortably numb song..

any way i send you love and good vibes where ever you are and which ever way your fate takes you..
feel free to say any thing else that is on your mind here if you want.. it's your thread..

 

[JustADeerGirl]

Will smoke one for you boss

 

[Higurashi415]

I'll smoke one with you pal, sending hugs

 

[fitoo5999]

Pretty good to go happy boss.

 

[ryba]

i don't do cigarettes either, but i can drink some tasty mocha with you..

i found out a few days ago that i am WAY too terrified to CTB yet, so i'm envious of other people that are able to be calm and go through with it.. although don't feel like you can't change your mind just because you are posting on here or any thing..

are you listening to some good music?.. one of my classic favs is always the pink floyd comfortably numb song..

any way i send you love and good vibes where ever you are and which ever way your fate takes you..
feel free to say any thing else that is on your mind here if you want.. it's your thread..

rocking out to some sublime atm, loved them growing up.

Will smoke one for you boss

preesh big dog

Pretty good to go happy boss.

too fuckin right, not many people can say that

 

[LanaSaveMe5#]

Don't have any rn, but I'll take a shot and listen to black beauty by lana. I'm glad youve found this opportunity to ctb, something a lot of people might never get to do on their own terms!

 

[haemolacria]

On it right now boss, all I can say is hell yeah.

 

[ryba]

getting closer to the lucky, thanks to everyone who stopped in

 

[Ben 111]

getting closer to the lucky, thanks to everyone who stopped in

What method are you going with

 

[ryba]

What method are you going with

shotgun

 

[interna]

safe travels friend !
really nice, comforting, bittersweet thread. it'll stick with me

 

[Ben 111]

Sounds gruesome

 

[fluorescentpearl]

I hope you find peace

 

[ilostyourletter]

shotgun

Could you tell us the area you are in? It might hit the news what you are doing.

 

[Ben 111]

Ur jokin right

shotgun

 

[ryba]

Could you tell us the area you are in? It might hit the news what you are doing.

southeast united states, a small college town. if you find the story keep me hashtagging.

Ur jokin right

nah man, eating buckshot is a pretty surefire way to do it

 

[fitoo5999]

shotgun

Shotgun is definitely one of the good one but you gotta have a strong will.

 

[bluupup]

tonight's the night. everything is in place, so now i'm just killing time until the bus arrives. and what better way to do that than to listen to some music and smoke some cigarettes?

i've been in some rough patches before, but this time is strange. before, i've been desperate like i'm being swept away by some powerful current that bashes me against every rock in the way, but i always held out hope that someone would reach out and pull me from the rapids. there's something eerily peaceful about the end being so near and so inescapable.

last night was one of the best i've had in a long time. i never thought i'd die happy, but tonight might be the only chance.

anyway, if anyone wants to pop in and chat for a while, please feel free. suicide doesn't have to be so gloomy.

I love cigarettes but I'm out rn, so I'll hit my super burnt vape for you haha. hope you can find your peace in the afterlife, man!

 

[ryba]

thanks to everyone who stopped by, but the bus is here. feel like i should have some grand message or something, but i have nothing of value to say. so i guess i'll end this the same way i end every interaction.

take it easy y'all.

 

[fitoo5999]

Are you gone OP?

 

[Arlowantsushi]

safe travels dude. my next cig is for you.

 

[Ben 111]

We love you

 

[Alexandra_]

All the best to you, friend. Hugs to you. I envy your courage

 

[darksouls]

peace and love to you, my friend

 

[Die.A.Ria]

hope you found peace

 

[fitoo5999]

I wish I could have the strength to do it myself. Rest in peace

 

[Cloud Busting]

Holy shit, this is so sad, RIP, wish I coulda smoked a cigarette with you

I attempted hanging, I survived, I remember smoking what was meant to be my final cigarette, posting that here, so happy I had people alongside me so I could make a typically lovely experience less lonely thanks to the powers of the internet

Wish you well wherever you are. Love to you. What you were feeling was an awful one. Hope you found something better

 

[ilostyourletter]

Rest well,